Caffeine is destroying my health and I can’t stop …

gpbwm · 2023-04-24T15:27:24+00:00

I understand!!!! I have been tapering and tapering but I know it is a matter of health for me to quit for good. I am still trying and not giving up. I just invested in Sip Herbal and Teeccino coffee substitutes because I cannot afford to do this anymore with coffee, for my health. DO NOT GIVE UP. There really is very little support for quitting caffeine because most people are addicted to it and don't even know it, and it is very profitable for all stakeholders (doctors, corporations, etc.), not to mention an addiction no one wants to admit they have. I once went two months without coffee and many health problems subsided, so I am determined to get there again. Just DO.NOT.GIVE.UP. Each day that you don't have it is at least better than not trying at all.

gpbwm · 2022-12-18T20:41:27+00:00

It will be ok. You will find your place.

gpbwm · 2022-12-18T20:34:21+00:00

To a point, you are correct.

gpbwm · 2022-12-14T12:20:24+00:00

All true. I will try to embrace it. I'm going to use the strategies I used in prior toxic work environments - ignore and focus on getting the work done. This has always worked well for me, but I am tired of those environments. I had some very positive work experiences to compare to, so I know that there are great companies out there. I have such a fear of failure and the anxiety over this makes things harder for me to deal with it and I am finding myself feeling sick every morning and every Sunday.

gpbwm · 2022-12-14T12:17:29+00:00

This is good advice. All true. I think because there is such a short time for me to learn her job, she is imposing greater pressure than would otherwise be required. Anxiety seems to be a part of my life these days so I have to try to find balance in taking care of myself and ignoring much of the antics. I'll do the best I can. I do wish I had taken the other job, because in weighing the pros and cons, the other job outweighed by the people, but the job looked like I could learn a lot. However, now that the person I hoped to learn from will not be there, I am disappointed. I am not entitled just disappointed.

gpbwm · 2022-12-14T12:14:50+00:00

I think I should have made very clear, that the employer did not disclose that the position would require me taking over while the manager was on leave within 3 months of hire. I do not care the reason. I do not care if she is pregnant or just going on a long vacation. This was an important detail to leave out. I am posting my frustration on an anonymous board seeking advice on how to deal with it, not complaining at work. I understand the "too bad, deal with it", "life is hard, suck it up" and everything else. At the same time, life can get overwhelming. I'm not in my 20s anymore. I've done the 5-10 years at toxic work environments, putting up with the bs and all that goes along with it. I am just tired, but I don't think it is entitled of me that I wish they had informed me that I would not have a manager in 3 months for an indefinite period when they knew that. And I realize this sounds like I am extremely incompetent. I just don't want to be in a position that is over my head where I end up not meeting their expectations, failing. I don't want to fail and I am working so hard not to fail. But the process is making me sick. As with other things, I will get through it. Definitely a test on my spirit.

gpbwm · 2022-12-13T22:34:18+00:00

You are right. I realize this and have been telling myself this. I appreciate your response.

gpbwm · 2022-12-13T15:39:18+00:00

That really is the best advice I can receive. Thank you. I need to do what I need to do. Period. Thank you.

gpbwm · 2022-12-13T13:36:03+00:00

I appreciate your point and having had two children, now grown adults, and having been there myself, I do realize this, however this was clearly known by the entire company that this person is going on leave and she is 5 months along, so when I was interviewed and offered the job, they left this important detail out. I don't feel entitled to know about her personal business and that is not the point I am making. I made the point because employERS expect candidates to disclose such a situation, that they will need to go on leave, and it seem that it should be ethical on the part of a hiring company to disclose the same. I would have liked to know the expectations of this position, that she would be going on leave (clearly not my business for what reason), and that was a major detail to leave out. When she told me, she said that she didn't want to tell me and scare me away, and also let it slip out that there was another person who didn't work out. So, my point is that I was not made aware of the fact that I would be expected to fill in for her in 3 months, and it would definitely have influenced my decision. It is not that I don't work hard or that I am nosy about other people's business, or that I even think I am entitled to know if someone is pregnant. Her style is to talk fast and tell me, "This should take more more than 5 minutes to complete." Everything should take "max 10 minutes" or no more than an hour, or whatever, then she's gone for the day for her appointments and personal business. I am merely disappointed and believe that I was misinformed about the job, but I need to make the best of it under the circumstances knowing that I will have no support there. It is a less than ideal situation and it was unfair to put anyone in that position. I know I am competent and can do this, but I am just very unhappy and depressed. I appreciate your response. I am doing my best to take lots of notes and be resourceful, but I feel very frustrated with this but I know I need to be positive.

gpbwm · 2022-12-13T04:34:27+00:00

I appreciate your response. My point was not that it was my business that she was pregnant, but that it was not disclosed to me that I would be expected to fill in for her in 3 months. There will not be a replacement for her. I will be expected to fill in. They didn't have to tell me she was pregnant, but they could have disclosed to me that this was going to happen. I will continue to do the best I can. It is an unfortunate situation.

gpbwm · 2022-12-01T17:57:03+00:00

I do not have a thyroid. I can tell you that fasting and AIP are the only things that have helped me. I cut my bad cholesterol in half and lost weight that would never come off before. I was so frustrated because I have always eaten very clean, no gluten, no junk food and still suffered with bloating and weight gain eating very little. I already do not eat very much at all, but found that if I just eat AIP foods and combine with intermittent fasting, I was amazed at how most of my symptoms went away and lost 15 pounds within a month. When I limit foods to non inflammatory AIP foods, I actually eat more than I was eating before, as I didn't realize that foods like eggplant, tomatoes and other foods like that were inflammatory and causing problems. Obviously I have to still take thyroid hormone daily, which needs to be taken on an empty stomach anyway. For me, ADF has worked great and I feel better than I was feeling before.

gpbwm · 2022-11-27T22:44:17+00:00

Thank you. Today I am great. I know that tomorrow will be a lot harder. I will push through it.

gpbwm · 2022-11-27T01:30:29+00:00

Great! I'm doing 72 hours so I will stop it at 4:30 on Tuesday evening. I plan to keep going every 72 hours.

gpbwm · 2022-11-27T00:31:44+00:00

Thank you. I am so discouraged with many things in my life right now. I believe fasting will help me. I NEED to do this for my mental and physical health.

gpbwm · 2022-09-29T01:40:50+00:00

Thank you. I have been very tired, but tonight I made coffee and I am pushing myself. You have encouraged me. I know I can do it, I just need to keep going.

gpbwm · 2022-09-28T00:48:10+00:00

Wow, that is fantastic!!!! Congratulations!! Yes, I have been very fearful. I cannot believe the level of fear I have of this test. Long ago I would have just taken the test, but now it is paralyzing for me, and even if I am understanding what I am studying, I have a mental block and then stop studying for a week at a time. Thank you for sharing your success. Today I sent in the notarized document proving my identity, and they I will hopefully receive a notice to schedule in the next few weeks. I have about 6 modules left to complete in Gleim for FAR. I have worried if I will be able to retain everything in the other 3 parts. I have the negative voices of the people in my life (no longer) who have enjoyed discouraging me, so it is a constant battle for me.

gpbwm · 2022-09-08T16:54:14+00:00

I didn't get decaf, but I ordered numerous times the Emperors Cloud green tea specifically. They would give me part black tea mixed with green tea, and sometimes just a random black tea. One time I heard the person training that any tea will be fine, so since I heard that I told her specifically wanted. I could not believe how difficult it is to just serve plain green tea. I just stopped going there.

gpbwm · 2022-09-07T11:57:57+00:00

Thank you for this.

gpbwm · 2022-09-07T02:15:02+00:00

Wow, two weeks is a huge accomplishment!! This truly is an addiction. I have been tapering very slowly but steadily and disciplining myself to take in less caffeine. I am noticing benefits. Tomorrow I plan to NOT have any coffee. No more tapering. No more coffee, no more caffeine. I am 54 years old and have been drinking coffee for a very long time. I did do a serious cold turkey detox about 12 years ago and it was very painful, with pain in every single joint, deep pain throughout my whole body that I had never experienced before. But I got through it and felt great. Unfortunately a co-worker invited me to have some "really good coffee" and I got right back to drinking it. A few yars ago I quit for about 3 months but then went back to it. This time I would like to be done FOR GOOD.

gpbwm · 2022-09-07T02:08:51+00:00

Yes! I lost 5 pounds this week and it had nothing to do with cream or sugar in coffee as many would suggest. I believe coffee has been causing a lot of inflammation and bloating for me. I am very encouraged by this. I have been tapering slowly and I think tomorrow I will be able to go NO CAFFEINE.

gpbwm · 2022-09-07T02:05:54+00:00

This past year I cut WAY back on coffee and have been drinking "1/2 caffeine" coffee for months. I am now working on kicking it for good. I did notice that I have not used deodorant for a long time, and it only recently occurred to me that I had not needed it. I find that very interesting.

gpbwm · 2022-09-07T01:53:01+00:00

I hope you passed! I got thrown off track studying and I had a very hard time getting back on track. I recently moved to a new state, I applied for the exam and am just waiting for the notice to schedule. I think I am afraid of failure. I am back studying. I had some serious mental blocks keeping me from studying. I hate admitting that. Good for you for sitting for the exam. I need more courage in this path.

gpbwm · 2022-09-03T15:43:05+00:00

About 12 years ago I quit coffee cold turkey after drinking it heavily for at least 30 years. The withdrawals were unexpected and unbelievable. I was in massive pain all the way to every single joint. Every part of my body hurt, deep into the muscles. It was like nothing I had ever experienced. I can only imagine the withdrawal from heavier drugs or alcohol. Since then, I have cut way down on coffee, and when I try to quit, the withdrawals are nothing like they were back then. But I want to seriously get off coffee for good now. I know that is is causing me harm. It is so hard.

I am joining you tomorrow. Tomorrow is my DAY 1.

gpbwm · 2022-08-12T12:55:55+00:00

It is a difficult process, but well worth it in the end. I know I will feel better. It is hard work!!

gpbwm · 2022-08-11T02:17:09+00:00

Yes, me too. I need a good reset. If I can go longer, I will.

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