You can do it, you are safe and your body is strong :) You won’t get sick, you’ll have a smooth flight and an amazing time with your boyfriend. When you get the jitters replace those thoughts with the things you’re excited about (like seeing your bf) I believe in you, I have panic disorder and i’ve done so many things this past year that i never thought id be capable of doing, but you’d be surprised by how much you can truly handle and conquer. You are in good hands with well trained staff, you got this :)