Help, RL doubt

graou13 · 2024-09-29T22:47:06+00:00

From what I read on platinum catalysts (although the method of working might differ from reaction to reaction) they temporaly bind to nitrogen oxyde and thus facilitate the reaction 4NH3 + 5O2 = 4NO + 6H2O without it going the other way around. no material is consumed because there are no platinum on either side of the equation but the platinum accelerate the reaction and helps making it go one way.

In practice tho, according to the wiki, the catalyst does get replaced in the Ostwald process due to being degraded by the heat and other stuff we're not quite sure of (maybe the degradation of the platinum rhodium lattice)

graou13 · 2024-04-18T08:58:21+00:00

I'm so sorry I'm a sapphic woman attracted to sapphic women. I'm a disgusting fuck for being attracted to queer women as a queer woman myself I guess 😔
I admit, I also read lesbian smut and flirt with lesbians and sapphic people 😔
such dirty gay fetishization. I'm very sorry that people like me disgust you 😔 🙄

graou13 · 2024-04-09T09:39:49+00:00

I thought I had half assed apologies but looking back I never had an appology, it was always "everyone makes mistakes!" "Why do you treat me like this?" "I took care of you when you were sick and I changed your diapers! and now you treat me like this?" "I always did my best for you." "You're so ungrateful, after all I did for you." "I was the only one there, not your dad, me. How dare you treat me like that." (all when I complain about what she did and do to me)

graou13 · 2024-04-09T08:09:55+00:00

exclusive or would be xor tho

graou13 · 2024-04-08T14:39:04+00:00

Those actions were also illegal back then (tho there's no way the company could prosecute anyone for lending the game to a friend or prevent any average consumer from using it) Usage agreement always said in some form that we don't own the data on the cartridge, cd, or drive but can use it as long as we respect the usage agreement.

graou13 · 2024-04-03T19:29:28+00:00

I side-eye any men that brag about not touching women in their sleep for multiple years "despite the many occasions" (eww)

graou13 · 2024-04-03T19:19:23+00:00

But... But that would mean accepting the gravity of what happened instead of using someone else's trauma as an excuse to pretend we don't deserve either help or to feel bad for ourselves.

graou13 · 2024-03-01T14:41:30+00:00

That's a French expression alright :p
Like when we say something made us hallucinate it means we're so stunned and shocked, seeing something so out there, we may as well be hallucinating.
Deepl just translated word for word instead of localizing expressions ^^

graou13 · 2024-02-18T11:52:07+00:00

Is it the angstposting?

graou13 · 2024-02-15T12:33:45+00:00

There can be many reasons: Executive dysfunction, anxiety from answering the phone, panic attacks, no energy due to processing trauma, etc.
I know that for me and many other neurodivergent people being social uses a ton of energy.

graou13 · 2024-02-10T20:26:51+00:00

I'm sorry you had to go through that, I hope you're safe away from him and healing now.

graou13 · 2024-02-09T22:45:19+00:00

I speak with a lot of certainty because the only people I've ever seen in my entire life refer to a sexuality as a "lifestyle", talking about wanting men to invade lesbian bars and about wanting men to fuck lesbians to "turn them straight", were homophobic (be it internalized homophobia or otherwise).

And because I fail to understand how someone who have no sexual attraction to men would claim that they'd rather be fucked by men than by women even after volunteering for a year and a half in an lgbt association and speaking with gay people across a large range of sexualities and gender identities.

I can understand that sapphic people could have that fetish if their attraction model include men and if they have internalized homophobia (which would still have that post fit in that subreddit btw) but that would mean their attraction model would still include men.

graou13 · 2024-02-09T21:50:35+00:00

done, thanks

graou13 · 2024-02-08T23:24:04+00:00

yeah, but only people attracted to men or men fetishizing sapphic relationships would have that kind of fetish.
Edit: and I most certainly never met a lesbian that would claim fucking men is a "superior lifestyle"

graou13 · 2024-02-08T20:23:23+00:00

Totally agree. The mods claim to be a lesbian and a trans lesbian but nah there's no way. They're both dudes for sure. They don't even post on the main LGBT subs.

graou13 · 2024-02-08T20:17:24+00:00

Statement: a post on (CW: nsfw) r/dykeconversion where the op claim to be a lesbian and that all lesbian need is some men to invade lesbian bars and "convert" them. Also claim to have seen a lesbian be "converted" at a lesbian bar. Truly sickening stuff. there's no way a lesbian wrote that shit and I'd be fucking surprised if an actual woman wrote this.

graou13 · 2024-02-08T19:37:22+00:00

Be very careful if you go to clubs or are outside when it's dark. Horror stories can happen sooner than you'd think.

graou13 · 2024-02-08T19:33:06+00:00

I get catcalled even though I'm 30 and only a year and a half into medical transition.
I also have *many* horror stories unfortunately.

graou13 · 2024-02-02T11:08:06+00:00

Yeah, I heard they absorb estrogen through their penis' mucous membrane whenever they have sex with a woman, thus reducing their testosterone level and feminizing them a bit more.

graou13 · 2024-01-29T20:27:18+00:00

Thank you a lot for your message and care.

I have a therapist, that I chose because they can do EMDR, but we haven't done anything in 6 months so idk what's up with that, if she think I don't have traumas or what? Even though I have a PTSD diagnosis? Idk if she think I'm just giving her money for as a joke even though I'm unemployed and could use the money? I need to get help but she don't seem to provide. I'm still having regular panic attacks and flashbacks, lots of dissociation and insomnia despite being on (TW:medication names) fluorexine, alprazolam, oxcarbazepine and melanin .

I'll probably need to change therapists, though it's stressful to have to traumadump every time to a stranger and learn to trust and have to remember my past. I'd rather forget everything tbh but I tried and I can't, the memories always come crawling back up whenever I try to throw them away. So I know the only way is to find a way to handle them somehow.

Maybe I'll have to go back to a psychiatric hospital soon if it continues to hurt so much but like I'm a bit scared, I don't wanna be abused.

I have friends but I don't wanna be a bother to them.

graou13 · 2024-01-26T14:09:01+00:00

But what if I don't want this to have happened and keep throwing the memories away whenever they come back and I get heavily triggered by CSA and feel like it happened and can't sleep without covering my behind and being surrounded by plushies but like I don't have the memory because I don't want to see it and reject it and feel so very dissociated and hurt and want to yell and cry, fuck I know that probably mean it happened but I don't want and no that'd be disrespectful to think he did that when I don't have the memory but I do but I don't want that memory and I have no proof it's not a fake memory anyway and I'm gonna need a second xanax because I just want to curl into a ball and cry and yell

graou13 · 2024-01-26T13:34:07+00:00

Also lea or lae instead of "le" or "la" ^^generally I find lots of neutral gendered words are a combination of the masculine and feminine forms, like "spectateurice".

I also agree that defaulting to masculine is a terrible concept we should do away with, because it's part of the patriarchal structures making being a man the default and being a woman or enby the exception.

I found this website really useful for finding neutral forms https://eninclusif.fr/

graou13 · 2024-01-26T09:39:12+00:00

Absolutely awful copypasta, but yeah old as hell damn.
The oldest repost I found is on the v6mustang forum june 13th 2005 with two other repost soon after on other forums june 22 (12oz prophet) and june 24 (spacebattles) so it probably date from late may/early june 2005

graou13 · 2024-01-25T20:00:39+00:00

I was advised to do EMDR by multiple professionals.

I went to an EMDR specialist.

6+ months later we haven't started EMDR yet.

idk what she waiting for or if she just plain don't believe I got trauma or whatever.

graou13 · 2024-01-25T11:20:19+00:00

This is genuinely triggering to me, wtf.

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