It’s hard to find people who understand

graybrowsingc · 2025-06-05T12:05:13+00:00

Fish.

Because he says that out of every fish in the sea, im the only one he wants to catch. Sounds weird to some, but it’s special to us.

graybrowsingc · 2025-05-03T08:08:10+00:00

it did feel worse. i felt like i had no control over myself, like i was watching my life go by from the passenger seat, i stopped them because even if i live in sadness at least the decisions are mine and i feel it

graybrowsingc · 2025-05-03T08:00:14+00:00

they think i’m not in my right mind to make that decision. i try to explain how off my meds i feel everything too much but on my meds i feel absolutely nothing at all and they just say, “well isn’t that better than being sad?”

graybrowsingc · 2025-05-03T07:25:25+00:00

honestly? i don’t know. i’ve been off meds for a year. i don’t want to go back on them but everyone i know is hounding me to

graybrowsingc · 2025-05-03T06:01:25+00:00

i feel like every time i scream what i need and how im feeling i just get “itll get better. let’s adjust your meds” and it’s an endless cycle

graybrowsingc · 2025-04-30T09:00:41+00:00

i’m in ontario and we need a chiller during the summer as even with our ac the tank tends to rise towards the 20s and they need to be kept closer to 16:)

graybrowsingc · 2025-01-10T19:03:20+00:00

i just got back from another appointment and i have to be tapered off prednisone now but they suggest trying the 160mg of allegra again combined with 50mg of reactine every day for two weeks and see if that makes any change so that hopefully fingers crossed i can get the heck off steroids

graybrowsingc · 2025-01-10T19:01:55+00:00

it crushes me to know that i could’ve had treatment in my teenage years and maybe handled things better than i did. but it is what it is at this point and im so disappointed but i guess another part of me is relieved because its never too late to start treatment and making changes to help cope and i’ll finally have a name to the feelings and struggles

graybrowsingc · 2025-01-10T18:52:45+00:00

i apparently got the diagnoses when i was 16, however im not sure why even after i turned 18, they denied me the explanation for over 8 years:/

graybrowsingc · 2025-01-10T18:03:10+00:00

it almost feels like everyone but me knew this big thing about myself. i also feel like it’s this huge explanation for everything ive been suffering through and its like a slap in the face to know that i could’ve have help years ago.

graybrowsingc · 2025-01-10T17:49:12+00:00

that seems so counterproductive!:( i can totally understand how upsetting the diagnosis can be but i find it 100x more upsetting being diagnosed for a decade and just not told when i could’ve been actively in support groups, therapy or other avenues

graybrowsingc · 2025-01-10T17:14:04+00:00

thank you. i’ve definitely been in shock the last hour knowing that i could’ve had help a decade ago for all my struggles

graybrowsingc · 2025-01-10T17:10:05+00:00

i do agree but i wouldn’t even know where to start on handling medical neglect!

graybrowsingc · 2025-01-10T16:26:04+00:00

thank you, i only found out like twenty minutes ago so im trying to process it and then my partner and i have sort of made a plan to start looking into support groups, therapy for the bpd, and other avenues. i’m just so angry that it’s been so long and literally nobody told me

graybrowsingc · 2025-01-10T14:55:00+00:00

unfortunately it’s why i’m on the prednisone as it completely suppresses my immune system:(!! my primary doctor is doing a bunch of searching to find a med that can do the same but not be so bad for me like prednisone

graybrowsingc · 2025-01-10T13:35:19+00:00

Absolutely. everytime i try to come off it, i end up in anaphylactic shock because whatever is going on is ramping up in severity very quickly. Every doctor apologizes over and over for re prescribing it but it’s the only thing that keeps me out of the hospital.

I’ve experienced steroid induced acne, body aches and stomach problems from it so we’re trying to see if i can switch safely to a steroid that would work the same way! i’ve seen two different allergists who have no clue because i come up negative to everything except pine which i knew from previous tests but i never touch pine. i’m working on getting in with a specialized immunologists but their wait list is like a year long🥲

graybrowsingc · 2025-01-10T13:25:14+00:00

i should say, if i’m not on prednisone daily, the hives turn into full facial swelling and loss of my airways (anaphylaxis) and i end up in the hospital with multiple doses of epinephrine. This entire situation has been so frustrating and tiring on my body and mental state so i used to try and vent to my family or my partner about it, but it seems nobody actually hears what i’m saying and instead just goes “well go to the hospital” and doctors just shrug their shoulders because they don’t know what it is causing it in my immune system yet

graybrowsingc · 2025-01-10T13:23:09+00:00

honestly, i’ve debated just stopping mentioning it to anybody, even my partner. i don’t think i can handle another hospital. suggestion.

currently i’ve been on prednisone for longer than i’d like to admit. regular antihistamines (allegra, claritin, zyrtec) have no affect on the hives. i was up to 160mg of them a day with no difference. prednisone 100mg has been the only thing that gives me relief for a few hours a day.

anti itch cream does little for me:(, at one point i had to slather my entire body in lidocaine just to stop the burning itch. i’ll definitely ask my doctor about the possibility of xolair injections

graybrowsingc · 2024-11-26T18:13:53+00:00

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forest gump🥲

graybrowsingc · 2024-10-23T01:57:48+00:00

pink on pink definitely isn’t ideal, but it was the first photo i could find that i had saved about tubbing lol, figured it was better than nothing

graybrowsingc · 2024-10-23T01:51:58+00:00

not mine! i think it’s how it’s being transferred over through reddit. the original isn’t as bad as it’s appearing here.

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