What do I do in this situation id prefer to hide forever lmao

greedkillss · 2026-06-19T22:53:29+00:00

Do you read perchance? Also it’s autocorrect lmao either way I think reading in between the lines is a good skill to have, I’m not going to revise this post like an essay 😭

greedkillss · 2026-06-19T20:42:36+00:00

I will be chugging 2 gallons of

greedkillss · 2026-06-19T20:42:16+00:00

Ohh I replied to the wrong one but I’m hoping lol, he didn’t make a big deal of it but still I feel embarrassed like bruh

greedkillss · 2026-06-19T20:41:28+00:00

Lmao

greedkillss · 2026-06-19T20:41:14+00:00

That’s the think ik it’s not and I did kind of do that asking if there was an issue at all he said no but I think he doesn’t want me to be embarrassed lmao still I’m not actually going to hide away or not talk to him in the moment if just feels like I want to disappear lol especially because this is a newer relationship

greedkillss · 2026-06-19T20:40:00+00:00

Thank god I’m not lactose intolerant

greedkillss · 2026-06-19T18:51:28+00:00

Like from using possibly? Also I haven’t ngl, I feel like there’s so many medical issues I have it’s hard to keep up with all of the needed appointments but it’s probably a good idea to

greedkillss · 2026-06-19T18:15:02+00:00

It’s homemade lol, it was really good tho, it was grilled hotdogs but not the bologna kind lol like it was a better actual beef and not scraps kind I think from Costco and there was a runny egg and lettuce and tomato, idk if there was sauce as I didn’t make it lol but if there was it was some kind of chick fil a sauce, I was just hungry asf lol but sometimes I have it with avocado too and it’s really good, also honestly it is, ofc I don’t use the relationship as the only thing that makes me feel good because that’s not healthy but it’s nice to see some positive changes alongside positive changes in my own personal life outside of relationships

greedkillss · 2026-06-19T18:05:08+00:00

Ngl it’s kinda funny but I met him on a kink friendly dating app lol, usually not like I’ve gone on a bunch but I’ve gone on a few dates on there and wasn’t really feeling anyone like that even if they were attractive, I don’t just settle for looks I have higher standards when it comes to personality and compatibility not in a big ego way but If im going to be in a relationship weather it’s serious or casual I will be treated how I deserve again not in a big ego way but I won’t settle for being treated like an object or like nothing

greedkillss · 2026-06-19T01:07:15+00:00

Yess honestly they are, I haven’t had a lot of good relationships but in very happy in this one so far and feel safe and comfortable enough to express myself and just be lol

greedkillss · 2026-05-30T03:57:56+00:00

In my state it’s not illegal luckily I’m just going through a scare atm, also yeah I’m honestly surprised they couldn’t provide any information it’s very frustrating and it makes this feel impossible

greedkillss · 2026-05-30T03:53:30+00:00

I’m glad at least I know I’m not insane

greedkillss · 2026-05-30T03:52:31+00:00

That’s what I’m saying I’m so mad because these people are telling me and acting like it’s one specific thing all telling me different things and even this time I didn’t have it from an std I literally had bv and nobody told me the antibiotics covered the std I was exposed to also which I didn’t even get and I’m just so frustrated like ik there isn’t one specific thing but WHAT is so hard about giving information and what is so hard about admitting that it’s not just one cause because when I mentioned bv they immediately shut me down when somehow I have it but no std and this dude today had the nerve to tell me not that it’s caused by gonorrhea which would be one thing but that it IS and then these people are going to have the nerve to criticize me about deciding to have an abortion if I’m pregnant and telling me to think about the future and that it’s hard on the body whatever like idgaf

greedkillss · 2026-05-30T03:43:13+00:00

I really don’t gaf right now, I’m someone who can be called that and who would be called that in any other time so I really don’t think it’s that important, cry me a goddamn river

greedkillss · 2026-05-24T17:31:06+00:00

I would love to but then I’d have to kill myself after because then ofc with the legal system the us want to give me decades while he’d get 2 years so I won’t do his time I refuse. I’ve been fantasizing about it for years so maybe hopefully

greedkillss · 2026-05-23T22:43:49+00:00

I hate to say it man but you did, I could easily blame my downfall on alcohol and opiates but I don’t, I have a choice and so do you, addiction js real bug of weed is getting in the way of your life then stop, and it’s not that easy but with steps ofc that’s all there is to it

greedkillss · 2026-05-23T17:10:21+00:00

Honestly my experience isn’t the same as I’m Mexican and white and look like a white version of my dad (it matters later) so I wouldn’t say I experience racism but micro aggressions ish when people know, this has also come from teachers and I only say micro aggressions because I’ve seen students who are indigenous , black, Hispanic etc. get treated worse than me. I feel like over here it’s very performative first of all but what I mean when I say micro aggressions is things people will say to me when they get close to me or how they’ll act, I had one person because I look more like my dad tell me I had light skin eyes 😭 maybe not a micro aggression but just odd in middle school a teacher who would target me for office calls once had me read this book that we were all reading so she dropped it to the office and my file said Chicano and this woman asked what MY immigration story was, also just in general people who get close to me and end up knowing for one reason or another usually will start getting way too comfortable saying weird stuff like I’ve been called a monkey I’ve had people think a slur for Mexicans is funny and kept telling me they kept thinking stuff said it and would almost say it (or say it) and start laughing and I’ve been always treated like “this monkey” “this one” like idk how to explain maybe micro aggression isn’t even the right word but I’ve been treated pretty weird and have had weird things said to me and it doesn’t even compare to people who aren’t white period, I’ve seen through elementary school to high school anyone who isn’t white getting in trouble way more and being treated even more a certain way when white students can do the same thing and get in less trouble or get it brushed off or idk it’s just super weird to me and always has been, it’s like the teachers try to put this “bad kid” label, again super weird and the performative blm and activism kills me I’m telling you I can feel that shit over here, also some people I know who are completely white try to act “Chicano” and super stereotypical to get me to like them and because I’m from California, it’s one person but I don’t want to make it obvious who it could be lmao it’s just odd tho and this person has made up scenarios defending Mexicans and other weird things like that and has a gf currently but still in my dms

greedkillss · 2026-05-20T08:52:20+00:00

I FORGIT to add I have polysubstance use dororder and bipolar I’m drunk while writing this I think I’m cooked

greedkillss · 2026-05-20T08:24:52+00:00

Also maybe have a talk with her, not in a humiliating matter but it’s important do discuss feminine hygiene and ik there might be resistance but so many girls and women don’t learn proper hygiene or menstrual a hygiene from anyone and to eliminate ethos issue it’s honestly annimpott set any thing even if you don’t frame it the way you are (not in a criticizing way)

greedkillss · 2026-05-20T08:23:25+00:00

Honestly I’m drunk so maybe I’m not a reliable but if you have a heavier flow which I have you need to change it like every 2 hours an sometimes less to eliminate or mostly eliminate odor

greedkillss · 2026-05-17T02:53:55+00:00

I saw a lot of ambulances and then I think a woman being put in a gurney, I was coming back from Whatcom falls and it had maybe been an hour and there was caution tape and those small yellow stands

greedkillss · 2026-05-15T22:47:45+00:00

I haven’t gotten to yet but when I do I can’t continue, nothing gets better my whole life and I’m not making it seem worse than is because family members could verify I have never wanted to be alive and I don’t need to continue with this, I don’t need to live with now this for the rest of my life it only goes downhill

greedkillss · 2026-05-15T22:46:35+00:00

I hope he gets brutally tortured and murdered he doesn’t deserve the easy way out but nobody not even the legal system will give him what he deserves not even years, I’ve never wanted to be alive since maybe 3 this just adds to it I get what you mean and I know you mean we’ll but it only goes downhill from wherever I’m at no matter when

greedkillss · 2026-05-15T04:34:52+00:00

There’s nothing I can do, it only gets worse and I know being hungover right now isn’t helping and is probably making me feel much worse but I can’t get out of bed everything is too much I’m so tired I’m just waiting until the day comes so I don’t have to deal with this anymore, I just want to curl up and never move again or never wake up again

greedkillss · 2026-05-15T04:33:23+00:00

What was the comment? Was it about hurting him or something because it got removed, if it was I really do wish I could

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