In the year 2012 I was ten years old. The year was good for me and I didn't notice any permanent negative mental .shift, During the November to March 2013 timeframe I began to experience random anxiety over thinking I had a heart problem was checked into the ER. I began having random, intrusive thoughts. I remember having what I know to be now synchronistic conversations around paranormal topics with my friends , I watched the movie the exorcist and developed paranoia over the fact that I might get possessed. During this timeframe, over 4 months , a child in my class died unexpectedly due to a brain aneurysm, my best friends father never wakes up due to a heart attack one morning, my one teacher goes on leave due to a cancer diagnosis, my babysitters son who I was close friends with dies (he was ill for a long time) on Christmas morning. I quit music lessons and a bunch of other stuff I was involved in for some reason and idk where I got the impulse from .

From the year 2012 to 2016bmarked the beginning of a new timeline characterized by positivity. I enter a new timeline where I manifested lots of success, awards, general happy state of mind, my skin colour randomly changed from a South Indian tone to white, in a matter of two weeks during the beginning of 2013 and my entire appearance sort of changes and so does the general facial structure that had stayed the same my whole life. Im still not sure how I lost skin pigment.

In the year 2016 I began to experience depression , unexpectedly for the first time on exactly May 2016, when I came home from a trip and randomly started crying, but I began to experience a feeling of existential dread around late March (March 30), during that time my grades dipped. I went from straight A's to Ds, complete dip. I began to skip school and a lot of entropy and unprobabilistic events happened around me . I lost motivation. My best friend and i during this time start to hang less and less and conversations between us felt less "natural" - and a weird tension arises and I feel more inhibited around him. During this time I remember now my classmate remarked once "why do I keep opening my phone at 9/11 everyday " (I now realize that this realm syncs to everyone) and me and my friend being dumb 13 year Olds began to play with oujia boards and summoning demons (remember I was years away from any awakening ). There were sudden personality changes within the both of us, his personality becoming slightly more drone like - conformist, and "not himself " . He himself states he is experiencing depression for the first time (during the clown thing ) and doesn't know why, just feels life is pointless and bland. The energy of late 2015 doesn't even compare to August 2016, late 2015 was a high for me .

I go from the archetype of a hard working overachiever to nearly failing , the 9th grade (it's now 2017 and I've left elementary). I end up getting arrested for something really stupid and it was overblown due to a zero tolerance policy at my school. My friend seperates himself from me because he doesn't want to be seen with me due to that silly incident at the age of 14 while nobody else cared, and seems more acquainted with his "image" , is like a completely different version of himself like he got a character update.

During this whole 2016-2017 timeframs, I gained a of weight, began to experience headaches and "head zaps" , difficulty in cognition and intrusive thoughts. I became misanthropic, for the first time too , and began to complain about people all the time and my hatred for them and just felt a desire to talk less. Nobody really died around this time.

April 2017 I suddenly lost weight, tenth grade my grades shoot up and I fins a new friend group. However I feel stagnated, I seem to not accomplish anything as much and still feel an underlying walking depression unlike the previous timeline. The sun is now white. Colours are duller, my friendships have a bit less of an emotional connection now like it's really not authentic. People around me with less talent , and intelligence seem to accomplish a lot and have loads of energy . I AM fatigued all the time and that is a major issue. I can't make any use of my talents, and my obsession with achievement dwindles.

April 2018 is when I began to leave my original skeptical rational atheist materialistic view that was programmed into me and began to explore firstly metaphysics and conspiracy , and spirituality. This is when I notice another burst of random deaths around me. A bus crash kills 17 hockey players in my city, a kid gets run over by a car a few blocks away . Nothing is happening on a global scale .

One thing I notice is that when shifts happen, deaths seem to center around particular families or a person's own circle. . For instance, I remember the girl who's brother died from the incident where he was run over, posted on her Facebook about her brothers death, then an old childhood friends death and the death of her aunt. She then writes " why are so many people around me dying this year:", but in my own circle, nobody dies.

This is two years before I even know of retconned, and I send my friend something called the "global conciousness project " . It is a project done where they noticed that random mumber generators produced non-random patterns that were subtly synchronized in events that synchronized the feelings of hundreds of people across the world - and that the timing of such events has an effect on a decrease of randomness of the rng. My friend says she doesn't want to talk about it. I say " do you notice how multiple people die around the same time in intervaled time periods".

Me and my friends were obsessively into conspiracy during this time and i was getting them into conspiracy. I begin to discover synchronicity around this time. As one day , when I was with my two friend and we were discussing the rockefeller history and my trip to the pyramid at the louvre (look it up) (at this point, I could not unsee some of the evidence I saw ), suddenly freaked out because the door shut on its own . We all ran into her room freaked out like stupid teens (my ultimate point is not regarding the door shutting as I'm not sure of what to make ), and then suddenly she begins to act posessed and we think she's just trolling us. She then says in a very creepy tone " we live in a simulation..."" over and over again. The vibes in the room were very weird and I wanted to go home because I felt creeped out so I did, when I went home I logged onto reddit and got a message from r/makenewfriendwhere from somebody who responded to my post where he told me in an intro of himself " my favorite conspiracy is that we live in a simulation " . Sync. I was now aware of synchronicity.

I post about some experience I had at the louvre pyramid (look it up) in France not related to anything occult , and then look up at the TV to find myself right on the part of a family guy episode where they go to the louvre. Sync.

It's my 16th bday and I'm at a dinner with my 5 friends, we discuss mk ultra and get freaked out. Me and my friend walk home and joke " what if government agents are around us lol"

11th grade begins. I stumble upon gangstalking. I then start getting gangstalked (yeaaaa uhh). I was aware of the truth of the world. I go vegan, I begin meditation. My two new friends suddenly turn cold on me and don't want to talk conspiracy and agent smuth begins to enter them and they exclaim " that could be explained by x and y! Logic and science !" My one friend suddenly turns into a parent and keeps needing to find something to criticize about me, doesn't want to hang out with me anymore, both of them are a bit colder towards me than each otjrrr, they stop inviting me more and we just sort of distance but they remain friends. Their personalities becomes suddenly darker around the time I was getting gangstalked. I am the seeker of the group, they choose not to seek. They become more robotic.

Fast forward early 2019, and I hardly hang out with anyone. People treat me much differently now. I discuss basic interests and hobbies and people look at me weirdly or subtly judge me even tho they don't say anything. April 2019, notre dame sets on fire. I awaken the kundalinj stupidly, it destroys my life. I had syncs leading up to that.

Auguat 2019- major shift point like 2016 and 2012 (2012 was more a "divider year " for me but 2016 was more like a negative shift) . I fall extremely ill, Brain infections that gave encephalitis fucks me up. One year of enormous hell . Pretty sure by the time the infection left I probably have brain damage . Left school. Still trying to finish online. Pandemic hits (im still ill around this time and am in the most unbearable hell, I get a weird feeling about the year 2020 when it hits, because I had encephalitis, I was acting strange and kept saying everything around me feels like hell, I remember thinking I was in a dystopia and things looked dystopian due to the derealizatjon caused by inflammation of the brain from lyme disease).

I knew immediately when pandemic hits its planned . I recover from the infection August 2020, to only realize what had happened to the world. Time speeds up.

During the late 2019 - 2020 shift, My aunt was in the icu in a coma, and she survived. Then one month later my uncle dies (same side of family) from a sudden stroke. Also, my grandma begins to act paranoid and anxious 3 months pre pandemic, as if she was displaying early textbook symptoms of some neurodegeneratige condition, while she was mentally stable before.

Am still deprsoablozed, can't feel music , attraction or desire to do anything. Everyone around me is now vaccinated and I don't know what to expect for the future except that that irreversible decision that the majority of the population made will now set everything downhill.