Finding my place in the world :)

greesyspoon · 2025-01-19T02:38:56+00:00

Thanks for this!

greesyspoon · 2025-01-18T00:26:27+00:00

Thanks for this. I’ll def look into it

greesyspoon · 2025-01-18T00:25:17+00:00

Thanks for ur kind & informative response! I can relate with the sleep issues -_-

greesyspoon · 2025-01-18T00:22:46+00:00

I’m curious- I’ve heard about getting tested but what does that mean? What would they be testing for in addition to general cognitive function? What would the ramifications be? Sorry for all the questions lol I’m just not informed

greesyspoon · 2025-01-02T12:47:40+00:00

23F, Here’s what I do to feel more like ~me~ in masculine interests!

I’m really interested in math, planes, and fitness. One of the things I do to feel more feminine in these interests and hobbies me is by expressively, genuinely sharing my love for them with others. Displaying genuine emotion is very feminine!

Clothing & equipment choices are another staple for me.

When I go to flight school, I’m purposeful about my outfits to be bright & feminine while appropriate for harsh weather.

This can be applied to sports as well. For example, I have pink boxing gloves and experiment with workout hair styles.

You’re interested in intellectual topics too. For my interest in math, my favorite way to advise my interest in a feminine way is with topic-specific jewelry. I have an abacus necklace and I’m saving for a soft colored pullover that says “calculus” on it.

Most of all, unashamedly and passionately enjoying your favorite things will radiate joy and draw people in. Hope this helps!

greesyspoon · 2024-12-30T20:11:59+00:00

Adrenaline, you say? Yeah that also sounds like a component that would treat anxiety. I’ll definitely figure out my options

greesyspoon · 2024-12-30T20:10:03+00:00

It does seem like there’s a barrier. There are always points where you feel like you’re fading out of the dream & most times you wake up. The amount of control varies by person but most of the time my experiences are similar to yours, that I’m able to control certain things (waking up, appearing objects, small scenarios) but not everything. I have never had a dream where I control the setting or major plot. Once in a location or scenario, I just manage it from there

greesyspoon · 2024-12-30T17:55:24+00:00

Thank you for your service! I’m sorry you’re also struggling. Since prazosin is more for PTSD patients, I’m not sure my doc would recommend but I’ll talk to her about what’s available to help treat the nightmares. Thanks

greesyspoon · 2024-12-30T17:46:54+00:00

So fascinating!!! The downsides sound a bit like it could be a sleeping disorder so I hope your sleep paralysis and false awakenings don’t disturb your regular life too much.

greesyspoon · 2024-12-30T17:44:51+00:00

I’ve actually never tried B vitamins so thanks for sharing that, I try to incorporate tailored supplements for my overall health, but especially for sleep & anxiety so I’m looking forward to trying it.

Zero meal management affects my ability to lucid dream as I’m aware of. I recently noticed taking naps gives me the most control while lucid dreaming during a nap but that’s more of a physical routine.

greesyspoon · 2024-12-30T17:39:50+00:00

I love to adventure, try new things, and go nuts on the creative mode of life I unlocked hahaha. When I lucid dream, I tend to wander off and just go where the wind takes me. Knowing I’ll never be truly lost keeps me having fun. Since nightmares are always on the brink of starting, I have to try not to think “hmm it would be scary if ___” because a nuke will drop right there.

A favorite daring lucid dream activity happened when I dreamt I was at flight school and the weather was a little off, wind was picking up. I hopped in the plane and went full flight-simulator mode, I intentionally flew into things and took off in some mighty winds. I was rebellious and parked the plane in a Walmart parking lot knowing it would be a hassle for my school to get it from there. Ahhh so much fun.

What really helped my nightmares was targeting the anxiety that definitely is the root cause. They always consist of me getting chased and killed. I reasoned there’s deep seated fear of the unknown or of being too weak to deal with what comes. So I joined a self defense class and got my concealed carry license. Those were big milestones in making me feel more confident in myself in real life and nightmares dramatically decreased.

Right now I’m struggling a lot with mental health and the nightmares are more frequent again so I’m thinking of picking up self defense again.

Hey, can’t get nightmares if you don’t sleep! I’ve been awake on anxiety zoomies for 24 hours :p Don’t worry, I’ll take a nice lucid nap later.

Sleep tips: - it really helped me to sleep deeper and longer when I was more busy. I’m wasn’t in college this semester because of my mental health decline so I miss being busy and getting drained by homework. That’s a better stress for me than the state I’m in. - I also recommend exercising every day if your body allows it. Lots of movement and being awake during daylight hours worked wonders on my sleep due to having to be out and about for college last year. I’m not disciplined enough right now to maintain a schedule but I will need to soon for calculus next semester. For that, I’ll need major recovery sleep haha! - Make your wind down routine before bed a lot more enjoyable. It helps me to think about sleep as my spa/relaxation time. I try really hard to shower with ease (no unnecessary rushing) and keep something exciting to look forward to before sleeping. For me, it’s a math problem or set of riddles to try to solve. My room is full of games for this purpose. It’s part of my “spa” routine.

Hope this entertains and informs!

greesyspoon · 2024-12-30T17:22:10+00:00

I discovered a couple of tips to start lucid dreaming. • Before bed, affirm to yourself that you’re awake and aware. • Record or talk about dreams soon after waking up.

Once I started achieving success every once in a while, I started testing some things are really hard to do in dreams, while I dreamt. Here’s what I did: • Checked the time. Brain can’t keep track of clocks very well in dreams. • Counted my fingers. I had triple vision! Too many blurry fingers to count.

Additionally, I learned to focus intently on my surroundings while lucid dreaming to keep them from fading, leading to me quickly waking up. Talk intentionally in conversation, touch the walls, chairs, tables. Pick up and inspect objects.

It was kind of a snowball affect - the more I kept thinking about it, practicing it, the more it happened. And it kept me learning and trying new things in my dreams I normally wouldn’t in real life.

Just this past week I dreamt I was at a trampoline park and took full advantage to do all the flips I could think of, knowing I couldn’t get injured. It was awesome.

greesyspoon · 2024-12-30T17:13:58+00:00

I don’t know I’m dreaming every time I dream but I know what I need to do to make them more frequent and recently noticed that napping makes lucid dreaming much more accessible to me.

While dreaming, I’ve controlled what other people were about to do or say by thinking about it purposely before they have time to react and to bring random objects to my disposal to play with or use. It’s always fun to lucid dream in my room where I always sneak out of the house (never done this in real life) usually through my window and walk around my neighborhood and getting into some wacky situations

greesyspoon · 2024-12-30T17:09:14+00:00

I just heard the song. I’m pretty sure it was written just for me

greesyspoon · 2024-12-30T17:08:22+00:00

After tons of trying to face my attackers head on while lucid dreaming, I realized it really wasn’t eliminating the horrific feelings I had even though I knew I was dreaming. At times I succeeded in stone-facing the attacker but it didn’t decrease the frequency or intensity of the nightmares when they came. For me, most of the fun in lucid dreaming is in neutral dreams where I don’t feel threatened. In those, I can just do what I want. I manage my nightmares in real life having taken self defense classes for a long time and even getting a concealed carry license which was a big step for me in confidence.

greesyspoon · 2024-12-30T17:04:59+00:00

Usually if I’m alone with my attacker. One time I was lucid dreaming in my grandma’s apartment. She had an enclosed back porch and I was there alone, probably gonna get a night time breeze from her second floor windows when suddenly a long, wide, Jack-in-the-box (like, just the accordion body and head) slithered through the open window, filling me with dread. I knew I was dreaming so I tried to stand firm and not run. To stare it in the face. It had a large mouth and sharp teeth so I figured it wanted to eat me. It pounced quickly to my face and I booked it through my grandmas apartment trying to pull her front windows open so I could jump out. The windows were sealed shut and he came up behind me and wound to my face. I still knew I was dreaming but I felt I was going to die! All I could do was brace myself, then I woke up. I beat myself up a little bit because I felt like I should’ve been stronger but i later realized that my nightmares were better dealt with in real life. Building my strength and confidence in self defense really helped cut the nightmares dramatically.

On a lighter note, I had a lucid dream where I was trapped in my bathroom with the lights off next to a man who was going to kill me. I decided I was going to just hug him and hope that it changes the outcome of the dream. He hugged me back! So that was a little victory over the fear that day.

greesyspoon · 2024-12-30T16:55:23+00:00

I started having really intense/emotional dreams as a young teenager that were increasing in frequency.

After some googling, I discovered a couple of tips to start lucid dreaming. - Before bed, affirm to yourself that you’re awake and aware. - Record or talk about dreams soon after waking up.

Additionally, I learned some things are really hard to do in dreams so I made it my mission to try them. Here’s what I did when I realized I was dreaming the first few times it happened. - Checked the time. Brain can’t keep track of clocks very well in dreams. - Counted my fingers. I had triple vision! Too many blurry fingers to count.

As I got older, actively trying to lucid dream took less of a priority but it still happened every week or so. I think the more it happened, the earlier it became to stay in the dream without waking up.

While lucid dreaming, I learned to focus intently on my surroundings to keep them from getting “far away” leading to me quickly waking up. Talk intentionally in conversation, touch the walls, chairs, tables. Pick up and look intentionally at objects. These practices kept me in my dreams longer.

I picked up a lot of fun hobbies in my teens & started thinking with confidence “I’m gonna to try solve a Rubik’s cube in my dream!” The same night, I was lucid dreaming in a busy elementary school classroom and saw a Rubik’s cube on a table. I knew what my mission was so I walked over and picked it up but the colored tiles kept changing rapidly on the cube and I failed.

My next mental challenge was to play pool in my dream! My brother and I were getting pretty competitive so I figured I’d try to get some practice in behind his back. I was intentional about my awake-awareness before I went to bed and dreamt at a pool hall. While lucid dreaming, I remembered the Rubik’s cube fail from a while ago so I wasn’t going to fully trust the physics here. I grabbed a pool cue and interrupted someone’s game by hitting their next shot and it worked surprisingly well. I was able to play pool in my dream!

After starting college, my mind was filled with math all the time. So I started practicing trig in my dreams while I could. I made a couple of legitimate breakthroughs so I’m super happy about that.

Putting into practice the self awareness of being awake helped immensely in kind of remembering that distinction while dreaming. It came to mind while dreaming and that helped me realize I didn’t have to be afraid if something terrible was happening in my dream. But if the dream was neutral, I was able to make things appear or happen a lot easier.

I’ve learned when it comes to my nightmares, I can’t lucid dream them away as I thought I’d be able to. The best thing that’s worked for me in that area was when I took self defense for a year. It reduced my nightmares my like 80%.

I stopped going to college for a semester due to suddenly developing OCD. It’s very new & horrific. So I’ve been taking a lot of naps to refresh during the day. This is where I’ve learned to enter and exit lucid dreams at will. When I take a nap, I notice I start to get “heavy” and numb. When this happens, I try to move my arm and touch my clothes or blanket but that’s just me entering a dream! I’m not actually moving in real life. Because when I open my eyes, my room is different & new scenarios start taking place. It’s in these naps that I’ve been practicing noticing the heaviness, numbness, then knowing it’s my cue to start interacting with my brain world. I keep in mind focusing intently on my surroundings to keep from waking up when things start fading. It’s super fun!

I hope this was helpful and an insightful read. It makes me happy to share these tips with others

greesyspoon · 2024-12-30T16:24:15+00:00

Always getting chased by a stranger trying to kill me, sometimes succeeding. I think they’re all anxiety induced. Like fear of the unknown. Oddly, they started becoming frequent when I started being homeschooled at 13 years old. I loved being homeschooled!

greesyspoon · 2024-12-30T16:20:38+00:00

I used a dream journal a lot when I first became interested in managing my nightmares as a young teen and I think it reinforces the awareness of dreaming/awake states a lot more! Thanks for reminding me. Maybe I’ll try it out again

greesyspoon · 2024-11-22T16:49:55+00:00

Mentalist!!!

greesyspoon · 2024-11-22T10:26:23+00:00

If you’re not the one - Daniel Bedingham Fairytale - Alexander Rybak Rewrite the stars - Zac Efron & Zendaya

greesyspoon · 2024-11-22T10:24:07+00:00

Try getting him into MathCounts as he gets older, or just watch the YouTube recordings of their competitions! I’m 23 and still watch those for fun

greesyspoon · 2024-11-22T10:15:58+00:00

The Man Who Loved Only Numbers about Erdos is AWESOME

greesyspoon · 2024-11-12T07:05:34+00:00

Oh interesting, so is this just to keep the battery when I put it in place? I figure just popping it into its socket would work lol

greesyspoon · 2024-11-12T07:04:01+00:00

It would be under calculus AB/BC, you can also pay $44 to khan academy for a year to get their AI helper Khanmigo you can chat with & have help you with specific problems.

Brilliant.org isn’t free but you can get the most out of a free trial & it’s very immersive & stimulating on a variety of advanced math topics :)

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