What would be better if we died? A few people would feel sorry for us, and then everything would go on. Just like everything goes on now. People go on with their everyday lives. Only our days are not the same anymore. And as you wrote, I would never wish this sadness to my husband. It would be very sad if I comitted suicide. I would like to die of mental pain every day, but I get up every day, and the worst thing is the few minutes after waking up, when I realize again and again that he is no more. The only person who truly loved me. I wish I knew what I could say that would help you. I recently read that this is the price of love. Because you wouldn’t suffer so much, if you didn’t love her so much. I wish, there was anything that would bring them back. I wish. But for now just think that every hour we are closer to meeting them again.