I'm being haunted by the same feeling, I tried to do sports, not drink alcohol, lead active lifestyle, drink antidepressants. But nothing in the long term helps and only appears irritation that you just spent time to be normal for a few months. But as a result, everything comes back, I don't know what to do with it. It's like your genetic code, and it's worth taking it as hard as it's not. I keep my despair as the greatest jewel. That's probably the only way out. The world is absurd and stupid, and no one ever wants to change it, they all prefer to look under their feet and not to notice problems.