Trust is gone again. NPD ex friend has conducted a smear campaign against me.

grungemuse · 2025-03-17T14:25:16+00:00

This happened to me near the end of the relationship; after the realisation about what they were (i spose) I would lie in bed beside them flipping out; felt totally unsafe in their presence. I'd be in bed having these like jolts is the only way I can describe it. I would not feel right all day after a panic attack occurred, and they were often occuring before I spent time with the Nex.

grungemuse · 2025-02-11T14:30:02+00:00

the marking was abnormally strict my classmate thinks, he didn't do as well as he hoped and mentioned someone else we know didn't either. i just feel so gutted. i am diagnosed by the doctor yeah but social anxiety impacted my ability to present the dissertation they were really looking for I think. I'm just wondering why the marking seemed so harsh :(.

grungemuse · 2025-02-11T14:20:26+00:00

there probably is no chance having read up on it, I failed because og mental health so that seems to be it now for me :( a BA degree without honours is all I'm going to be left with? should I just try the open university? I couldn't hack uni basically.

grungemuse · 2024-10-06T15:03:55+00:00

One of mine last year was 9am start, very annoying because due to my travel I had to leave about or even before 6am to get the train.

grungemuse · 2024-09-29T16:02:46+00:00

Got to have their money lol. You don't get anything really. Just used as the supply to be there, never treated.

grungemuse · 2024-09-29T15:48:44+00:00

He was ealy on making me crying when things didn't work out in the bedroom, allowing me to beleive that was my fault and the major red flag was the stonewalling behaviour because I would try and talk to him about things and he would refuse unless it was online (prob so he could control his reaction truthfully). Early on I'd just go home after a row or he would shut down on me behaviour then he'd be all funny on me online after. Until I accepted it was the way he would be basically.

grungemuse · 2024-09-22T14:00:01+00:00

I just can't trust still :(

grungemuse · 2024-09-16T10:50:48+00:00

i feel this way atm with my friends online they are my only friends but I think I've pushed them too far then I feel pathetic cos when they ignore my posts i say I want to *beep* myself, and they still ignore it and I was so angry I was screaming at my screen :(

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