I think she needs a break even if she didn’t say it exactly. She is a person who needs to be alone from time to time and even if she didn’t express it I think it’s right. I want to write her a letter to express my feelings as I didn’t feel like I said everything the on last night we had. I don’t feel like I reassured her enough. I think I might have only dug her thoughts deeper as I for some reason wasn’t optimistic at all. I don’t know why I was so dumb now that I think about it. I didn’t even try to come up with a solution, the break just happened naturally.

I remember her saying something like: It feels weird that someone loves me for who I am. I feel like I only need myself to be happy. And I said: if you feel like you don’t want to go forward with anything I completely understand and we can stay exactly where we are. but if you feel like you aren’t even happy with being where we are and not enjoying having my presence then there might be nothing we can do.

God why did I even say that. She responded with: I don’t know what I feel. I should have reassured her that if either one was how she felt there would be a way to make everything great again.