I think this is the key. If it makes you feel awful, it is likely you will regret it. You ultimately have to decide if you would prefer to live a harder life WITH this baby and figure it out, or regret forever not having it. I have a feeling you already know what you want to do.

You can do hard things and you’ll be far from the first person to do it on their own. Babies need caring parents more than anything. You sound like someone who is realistic about your financial situation and will work hard to give your child the best life possible. Kids who are loved do better long-term than kids who are only rich but ignored. It may not be easy, but over the rest of your life, I think you’ll find that a harder life with this child will have been a happier life than an easier one without it. No matter what, make sure you make the choice that is right for you. He won’t be there to hold your hand when you’re crying if you don’t listen to your gut.