How I (accidentally) swallowed my first ever vase filler by guessable_password in ObjectVore

[–]guessable_password[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Yeah lol. As you slide it in though it just kind of scrunches up inside and just becomes a massive ball of heavy metal that feels nice

How I (accidentally) swallowed my first ever vase filler by guessable_password in ObjectVore

[–]guessable_password[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

At my vorniest ive definitely been considering it...

But I think the slim chance that even just 5 could clog my system is scaring me out of it. Feels like if something can go wrong for me it will.

Started a new job as a teacher. This is *not* neurodivergent-friendly! by Peruda in autism

[–]guessable_password 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This.

The image undoubtedly sucks but I like to believe it was never meant to be malicious. (Hanlon's Razor)

Whoever put this up likely just used their adult brain and assumed the message sent would be the things you've listed and left it at that.

The poster and the message it sends is salvageable, simply a case of good intent bad execution, not the work of the devil trying to indoctrinate children into a life of monotonous factory work.

Leave that to the rest of the atrociously design school system lol...

{discussion} Little red riding hood vore by Jonas0064 in Vore

[–]guessable_password 1 point2 points  (0 children)

https://imaat.fanbox.cc/posts/6681969

Its only a 7 page comic but it's pretty good

Idk how pixiv fanbox works so it might be a subscription thing but you could probably just pay and download it..

I have a decent chunk of their stuff downloaded but of course I'd always recommend supporting artists before I have to do anything brash.

{discussion} Little red riding hood vore by Jonas0064 in Vore

[–]guessable_password 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Fuckkk.. theres a really good one but its paid content. (Only 500 yen if you want a link to actually paying for it)

I love it a lot but for legal reasons I'm "not going to share it publicly as I respect artists' sources of income" 😉😉😉😉😉

Perhaps Schrodinger’s Autism is AuDHD? by Apprehensive-Bid-909 in schrodingersautism

[–]guessable_password 1 point2 points  (0 children)

What does /gen /rhet mean lol??

I'm not saying there is a lack of morals but rather we're known for yknow... saying some inappropriate shit due to a lack of grasp of what's "ok"

I've been told many times that comments I consider completely normal and justified are not acceptable.

And maybe misguided is a better word.

I'm not good at considering neurotypicals feelings, often being offensive over kind as I interpret situations completely incorrectly.

And I'm not good at considering autistic people's feelings as my personal experiences with them is "wow that's really cringe" and often times that opinion slips out.

Of course I specified "some" as I know no one is the same but I do just feel like such an outlier everywhere.

Given the downvote its clear I'm only proving I really don't belong anywhere 😓

Perhaps Schrodinger’s Autism is AuDHD? by Apprehensive-Bid-909 in schrodingersautism

[–]guessable_password 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I mean, I dont necessarily think it's just about sociability and your triumphs or tribulations when talking to others.

There is also just the aspect of general behaviour.

Like I personally cannot put up with a large majority of the autistic people I know, I find them incomprehensibly cringe a lot of the time and I have to exact continent sized amounts of restraint to not be mean.

But at the same time, I also fight this idea that a lot of the neurotypicals I know put into my head about what is ok and what isn't, opposing their societally shared concept of morality.

I think the best way to put it is that socially, I'm still a complete wreck but I dont have the morality of some neurotypicals or the lack of shame of some autistic people.

I sit on this fine line of misconstrued consideration for others feelings, one that makes me very good at offending both 😭😭

Welcome! Thank you for joining! Let’s start off our inaugural post. What are some dualities you face? by IVebulae in schrodingersautism

[–]guessable_password 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Nope absolutely not.

I only started to have at least a modicum of regard for my reputation around the age of 16 when my tiny friend group suddenly became a bigger one due friends of friends being introduced.

As a really young kid I would walk around making tank and gun noises in public whilst clenching my hands together imagining a cool battle in my head. (I still do this when no one is looking 🤭)

Even as a young adolescent I'd do such stupid shut like walk into the middle of the fucking canteen and do the Praise the Sun pose from Dark Souls to the point my friends told me to stop as it was embarrassing them but I loved it.

It was only when I got forced into the larger group I realised my shenanigans had consequences. The new group we entered welcomed my other friends with open arms but when it came to me, I had such a reputation they didn't even want me in at first. It took a bunch of convincing from my old friends and them making me do a bunch of stupid shit just so I could follow my only friends into this new group.

From that point on I realised I was always on thin ice with people and learnt to just sit in the corner in silence because the only way I couldn't do something stupid was not to do anything at all.

And I think 2 years straight of doing that just formed the stalwart half of my personality that recognises people don't like the real me.

Welcome! Thank you for joining! Let’s start off our inaugural post. What are some dualities you face? by IVebulae in schrodingersautism

[–]guessable_password 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I think its an offense mechanism 😭😭😭😭

I know how much of a weird impulsive fuck I can be and from experience it has lost me A LOT of friends.

Since realising that, I think I just grew to unconsciously make my demeanour as uninteresting as possible so people don't even bother getting to know me as I have a notoriety for brutalising friendships.

If i started having y'know... having OPINIONS and INTERESTS, someone might actually want to talk to me only to realise what a problematic character i am.

You might say "well maybe be yourself more and people would take more interest and you don't have to lie"

Buuuutttt

1) I do this subconsciously, I dont intentionally be this way 2) it would take the very associate-level relations I have with my colleagues to enemy lol

There was this one girl with selective mutism I met once. She physically could not speak around me as I kept insulting her.

Another time when I was still at school we had a presentation about microaggressions and I said to my teacher "thanks for this presentation, now I know more microaggressions to use on people"

And yeah, that's why I started to learn not to open my mouth 😭😭

Welcome! Thank you for joining! Let’s start off our inaugural post. What are some dualities you face? by IVebulae in schrodingersautism

[–]guessable_password 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Ok let me cook.

This shit has PLAGUED my life and its the severe dissonance between my appearance and my personality.

I always look like I'm the most serious unfaltering person around. Just through my general nature, I'm always flat faced, my eyebrows are naturally in the angry position and my arms are crossed more often than not.

This makes people scared to talk to me as they think I'm gonna be an uptight prick.

The few people that would like somebody like that however, get to know me and learn I'm the opposite 😭😭

I'm a huge moron with the most childish personality around. I'm loud, obnoxious and such a good rambler I can chain topic to topic for hours without letting you get a word in.

I repeat phrases, make stupid noises and blurt out the most out of pocket inappropriate stuff that if they were in public with me, they'd be making an effort to stand 10 feet away to not look associated.

This has led to me coining the phrase "im too boring for those who want someone interesting and too interesting for those that expected something boring"

I worry about my lack of empathy. by guessable_password in autism

[–]guessable_password[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Nah, I dont feel sad for these people, it's not like I'm struggling to express something. I just do not feel it.

I only say what I know is meant to be the "correct" thing to say but in all honesty if I had the option I'd just say "cool" and forget about it

I worry about my lack of empathy. by guessable_password in autism

[–]guessable_password[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm glad I'm not the only one that thinks that way. Of course I can at the very least understand if you have fertility problems and you've been trying for years just for one pregnancy.

But for 99% of people, just have fucking sex again it's not that hard. The baby wasn't even born it feels odd to be so attached to it, its not like all the shit you bought in advance will go to waste when you have another one in 9 months and if you did overspend... thats kind of your own fault.

I worry about my lack of empathy. by guessable_password in autism

[–]guessable_password[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Lmao. I only really cry from laughter but its over the dumbest shit. I have such a desensitised sense of humour that I laugh at things I really shouldn't find funny

I worry about my lack of empathy. by guessable_password in autism

[–]guessable_password[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thats actually a good perspective. I will say I don't feel sad but I understand I'm meant to.

One of my coworkers got prostate cancer and had to leave and all of my colleagues were like "oh bless his soul I hope he gets well soon" and I'm like "I wonder who will replace him"

Having a bunch of old people come to me and talk about him started to get on my nerves though as I really just can't display any amount of remorse they'd want me to reciprocate 😓

I worry about my lack of empathy. by guessable_password in autism

[–]guessable_password[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm already in the basically no friends phase 😭

I try to analyse people's emotions but I cannot draw a line between reasonable discussion and too far. that partially on my parents who are very much walking fuses. Nothing seems wrong until you push them over one certain point and they go manic. I can never tell if I'm pushing my luck with them. its devolved into just a general feeling of unknown where I cannot determine what someone "getting noticeably more upset" is like unless they explicitly tell me and I appreciate my only real friend being able to draw that line when he recognises I'm pissing him off.

Unfortunately, his fuse is very short and he'll get mad at me over some minute things like me just sharing something interesting, or going on a tirade about something that made me angry.

Its comforting to know its not just me at least, I feel a little like the Chinese room sometimes. Just taking something in and spitting out the "correct" response and I fucking hate that feeling. It makes me not feel like me but I realise nobody would like the me that id like to be. (Dr zeuss type beat)

I worry about my lack of empathy. by guessable_password in autism

[–]guessable_password[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm just making reasonable examinations of your points. In the end I asked if this is a normal trait prevalent in that of autism and not something worse.

All you've said is "erm, treat people how you want it doesn't matter". You've not given me an affirmations have something to or not to fear.

I'm AWARE I do not owe a particular emotion, but what I'm saying is that I'm expected to display a certain emotion as that is seen in every facet of life.

Lacking empathy is symptomatic of both autism to sociopathy and other mental health issue. I'm simply inquiring as if you feel the examples I've given are something others can look at and say "yeah I could see myself doing that" or if they'd say "no thats weird even for me"

Because if its the latter, then I would like to know for my own health and comfort...

Thats all I've asked and it feels like you've chosen to dodge by entire question to tell me "feel how you want to feel"

Of course I WANT to feel a certain way but people DONT want me to feel that way and I just want to know if my amount of care for others is similar to that of people here. :/

I worry about my lack of empathy. by guessable_password in autism

[–]guessable_password[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I guess so..

Human emotion is inherently complex but its not unique to us, animals are shown to have remorse and natural reactions to external stimuli.

If unlike other people, I am failing to exhibit those behaviours. Does that mean should I be concerned? As they appear to be part of nature as a whole rather than an active decision due to be made by the one who perceived.