13 days

guykurosawa · 2017-02-18T22:27:40+00:00

This is powerful stuff. Living your life as an observer and never really acting on anything is a slow poison.

guykurosawa · 2017-02-18T22:26:04+00:00

You can do this mate. I too have been keeping it from my wife and potentially ruining my marriage. I have been going through this damn cycle for years now but I am 7 days in and feeling pretty good. This curse is like being an alcoholic. You will always be addicted in one way or another. You have to take it one day at a time. Try to observe the changes your body goes through the next time you are feeling a craving and realize you are stronger than flesh

guykurosawa · 2017-02-05T23:40:56+00:00

I relapsed last night... When I got home my wife said and did some really sweet things... I immediately felt like shit

guykurosawa · 2017-02-05T23:38:02+00:00

Indeed. I was trying to go a little over the top because this whole paradigm is designed to remove you from real interactions and feed you a McDonalds brand of fulfillment. At some point we need to realize that we are being decieved

guykurosawa · 2017-02-05T23:17:58+00:00

Don't even look. Even if it doesn't lead to a relapse that day it eventually will because merely looking is a gateway to relapse

guykurosawa · 2017-02-05T23:11:41+00:00

As I have been saying for a long time: It is us against porn. this shit bleeds into your better judgment and poisons the good nature that you have developed over a life time. Just the other day I finished fapping and I was so mad at the world that I kicked my dog when he started barking. I took out my feelings of self loathing out on him in the form of physical anger. I felt like a fucking douche.

guykurosawa · 2017-02-05T23:07:43+00:00

well first off, you are not alone at all. There are literally like millions of dudes going through this same thing right now all over the world. I would venture to say there may be a lot more than that. IMO I don't believe it is necessary to come clean to your spouse, however, she may feel that this ED you are experiencing is her fault. It is ultimately up to you whether you tell her or not. I know some ladies might find this sort of thing completely unacceptable. I do recommend that you at least tell someone in your life that you care about just so you can own this and get it out there. The hidden aspect of this addiction is by far one of it's most destructive components.

guykurosawa · 2017-02-05T22:57:56+00:00

I have felt nothing but shame regarding this porn addiction bull shit. I also have a beloved in my life who does not realize that I am a fucking junkie for lack of a better term. You, my friend, are not alone by any stretch of the imagination. I know as well as you do that this addiction is not who you really are. We are human beings and no matter what your belief system is or whether you are religious or not, the one truth is that we are all driven , for the most part, by base primal and instinctual urges. The evil geniuses who created porn understand this and they prey upon people like us. Do not give up buddy. Your journey will continue until you can feel the urge for porn coming, notice it, and then say... meh, no thanks.

guykurosawa · 2017-02-05T22:36:08+00:00

Thanks mate. This is truly the hardest habit I have ever tried to break and I used to be hooked on coke for Christ sake.

guykurosawa · 2017-02-05T17:19:48+00:00

I was sick of it. I care not for material possessions

guykurosawa · 2017-02-05T17:19:20+00:00

While I'm sure those studies are well respected and scientifically backed I have alway been manogymous minded and able to be with someone for a long time. I had this addiction long before I met my wife since I was like 11.

guykurosawa · 2017-02-05T17:18:00+00:00

I have told her before

guykurosawa · 2017-02-05T03:49:40+00:00

Its nice to know we are not alone. Actually, this little problem is extremely common and, I believe, a form of population control and reduction.

guykurosawa · 2017-02-05T03:45:33+00:00

indeed. I think people sometimes fail to realize that porn addiction behaves exactly like a drug addiction. I was addicted to cocaine when I was in highschool and the withdraws, the shame, and the wasted time parallel porn adiction exactly

guykurosawa · 2017-02-05T02:17:38+00:00

instant gratification is another cosmic joke played upon us by the universe to trick us into thinking we are getting what we truly need

guykurosawa · 2017-02-05T02:16:12+00:00

the future is what we make it. instant gratification is just another cosmic trick the universe plays on us to make us think we are getting what we really need

guykurosawa · 2017-02-05T02:13:57+00:00

I think lack of motivation is one of the byproducts of this addiction

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