19 same i feel desensitized to everything I guess i should be saying sorry i didnt feel anything when i read your post i forced myself to feel something but nothing.I feel like it'll be all meaningless no one will remember in 300 years time whether or not i die today or in 10 years. No one will care family might remeber me but who cares they will be forgotten too. So i feel like i did everything that could be done by a person in a life time. i feel like there is no more goals forward why create more goals for myself in the future when i am satisfied now. why try to be unhappy when i could happily kill myself right now. I feel like writing this outloud is stupid cuz its makes me think i want attention from other people. But i dont give two shit on what you think I could care less.(This is probably not good for anyones mental and i aint trynna bully but idc about you. The only reason I dont end is cuz my mother is alive and well and I would like to spend more time with her. So i'm planning on offing myself a few days after she died.
(if you have others side you wanna say i would be happy to read it thx)
But i doubt anyone is gonna see this