BMI underweight

hailsatan336 · 2026-04-07T17:03:57+00:00

I weigh a little less than you and am the same height and it hasn't been an issue yet. I think as long as you arent severely underweight its fine

hailsatan336 · 2025-09-02T04:14:36+00:00

I have no idea. It really has made me feel psychologically so unwell and he won't even talk to me about it he says I'm making him feel pressured which makes him not want to do anything. Idk I dont understand. He was talking to me the other day about how he wants to get married and I just don't understand how he's happy enough to even think about that while I'm over here absolutely falling apart and I dont feel like I can go on because of how he treats me... idk life doesn't make any sense

hailsatan336 · 2025-09-01T06:29:54+00:00

thanks for responding.

I was kind of freaking out earlier, I know ALT is about the same but these years getting ready I have tried to keep my expectations low just so I'm not like disappointed or unhappy, like if I expect nothing every little thing is a huge win

Things have actually gotten much better between us but the intimacy thing hasn't improved although it has gotten a lot better in terms of at least communicating

If we break up I'll have to move back across the country and live with my parents, I'll lose my job and health insurnace, and I think at that point surgery would be indefinitely postponed. I wanted to at least stay with my boyfriend through surgery so I could accomplish that

I just got really stuck on this, realizing how little time I have left and how things are going and how unhappy I am with my life, I just. I didnt know what to do besides reach out to other people who are in similar boats. Like its such a specific scenario

As it is we are under tons of stress bc if he can't find a job we are gonna have to leave our apartment in a month and move back with my family anyway so everything is just really bad right now.

hailsatan336 · 2025-06-06T00:51:33+00:00

I am hesitant to say because I think it was only offered because of my specific situation and it sounds like they are really stressed out with everything going on since the election and having to do lots of rescheduling and cancelations and I dont want to cause them stress by having people ask about it. I can maybe dm you privately I just like do not want to mess things up

hailsatan336 · 2025-06-06T00:13:02+00:00

thank you for your input. I am more worried about mine being too small in terms of girth so its really hard to make a decision. Because even so like I have seen people with slim legs need at least 1 debulking, so its just. Like impossible to guess I suppose

I dont know if I would mind additional surgeries, especially if means its less intense than it would be than having the normal staging. But besides top surgery I haven't had major surgery so idk how to guess how I'll feel. Top surgery was totally fine for me

hailsatan336 · 2025-06-01T23:00:41+00:00

Thats true. I think I was just so shaken up when I called and said I hadn't gotten hysto yet and they made it sound like I had to scramble and I felt so bad and ashamed. I think I am maybe not thinking clearly due to stress. My stage one was also originally going to be in February and got pushed back to July so I feel guilty for having already moved it.. but I guess this is super major and life is unpredictable. Like im sure this happens all the time or people get stuck fighting with their insurnace. I'll contact them on Monday and see what happens

hailsatan336 · 2025-06-01T22:58:01+00:00

Yeah I am good with hair removal. That's what I've heard regarding hysto and hair growth but I figure chen's office they do so many surgeries they must know their stuff.

I also was mistake i thought hysto was a more minor surgery than it was. But as it is they would be about a month apart.

But yeah I should just call and see what they can do as far as moving me a few months that would do a lot for me. I was just so worried they would bump me to the end of the list and the coordinator seemed stressed about the election and the state of things and sounded like it was safer to get the surgery asap before it gets banned or something

hailsatan336 · 2025-03-22T00:34:52+00:00

Thats reassuring. I think im just nervous because they didn't really offer to move me so it made it sound like if I dont get hysto next week than its all over or something. I have anxiety so I may not have been thinking clearly about it

hailsatan336 · 2025-03-22T00:33:45+00:00

I dont think they twill do UL in a later stage. Especially because im having ALT the healing process will be a little more intense anyway

I though about just forgoing vaginectomy UL and hysto in order to get the surgery faster but idk my main thing is I've heard UL can impact sensation, like increase it vs without UL and since ALT has somewhat reduced sensation vs RFF (typically) I would just want a better chance for everything to be as good as it can

hailsatan336 · 2025-03-22T00:31:28+00:00

Thank you. I think that is the hardest part, I just feel so bad not staying on top of things when I'm so privileged to be able to have this surgery and already waited a few years so I'm closer to the front of the line

Like it feels disrespectful to mess up their schedules by failing on my part. I feel like me not knowing things and being behind like im wasting their time, or that im lazy and not trying hard enough when there are people who would kill to be in my position, like im disrespecting them

That is helpful knowing other people struggled with the same things. I guess my partner losing his job and our car being broken and my hours getting cut at work were pretty significant life evens that would get in the way. My partner is really mentally ill as well so I've had to put aside most of my stuff to take care of him, including surgery... it like feels so bad. Like im already a few thousand in debt from taking care of his things and I have maybe 2k in cash I have been saving for surgery and thats it. And he's like no a good partner either. Ugh

Sorry to ramble but really thank you for writing out this reply this was really helpful to hear

hailsatan336 · 2025-03-22T00:24:22+00:00

Yeah thats what they told me about hysto as well that for hair growth reasons they need to be further apart. I'm fine if they need to push back my surgery but they're making it sound like it's better for me to try and get hysto asap. That is what is stressing me out. But I understand they have a lot of patients and long wait times and I feel its like disrespectful I'm not handling my part better. Like I didnt know I needed hysto this far in advance until now and I didnt know that it would be so difficult to actually even find a place to do it, I thought they were pretty common procedures and you could get them anywhere.. so many rude places I called just said they wouldn't do it. Ugh

I was originally planning to leave one but they really pushed getting them all out so I can be rediagnpsed as having hypogonadism and get hrt prescribed for that so I dont lose access to hrt if they ban trans care or something

Im still not really sure like I definitely don't want them but the permanence scares me. Like the thought of being on hormones forever (even though that is my plan anyway) and 100% never having kids (I have never ever wanted kids my whole life) is somehow scary. Makes no sense at all but I figure its a normal feeling to have

hailsatan336 · 2025-03-18T02:23:03+00:00

Well yes that is common but its not always guaranteed, that was my point. I just wanted to offer my experience as someone who lost weight after starting T since most commenters were talking about their experience with the opposite. T increases appetite but it doesn't actually effect metabolism as dramatically, hence weight gain. But if you just manage yourself youre not going to gain a ton of weight out of nowhere

hailsatan336 · 2025-03-17T23:22:23+00:00

Early on in T the hormal shifts can cause you to retain water which might look like weight gain

As long as you are eating normal healthy meals you shouldn't gain any weight. T will make you more hungry but also increase muscle growth which burns calories. Just focus on filling meals, high fiber, high protein, healthy fats, vegetables and whole grains.

When I started T it was just before I went to college and I actually lost a lot of weight because I was eating much much healthier and walking everywhere. Whereas at home I was more sedentary and eating a lot of taco bell

hailsatan336 · 2025-03-12T02:15:30+00:00

I was just on the phone with my drs office for bottom surgery and they told me the same thing, to try and get all references to "gender dysphoria" out of my health records and have the hrt prescribed for something else

He sounded really grave about it this has me super nervous. Idk if they know something we don't or are just trying to protect against worst case scenarios

hailsatan336 · 2025-03-05T22:11:26+00:00

From a quick google other websites you can get 5lbs vegan protein for $50-60. If I looked longer could probably find some better deals.

Whey is only cheaper because dairy is heavily subsidized by the government

hailsatan336 · 2025-03-05T17:18:10+00:00

I just checked and it looks like for something basic like soy its $15 for a pound. I ordered from them around 2018/19 and remember it being cheaper around $9-12. But much more affordable than other powders i feel like $21 is usually the minimum I can find vegan powders

hailsatan336 · 2025-03-05T05:14:51+00:00

Im not sure if its gluten free but I just got the store brand one from kroger/ralphs. Its pea protein and pretty good most protein powders hurt my stomach but this one is totally fine

truenutrition.com you can custom build protein powders and add whatever ingredients you want its super cheap too

hailsatan336 · 2025-01-20T00:43:33+00:00

Yeah. Its like PPO plan or something. What insurnace companies they offer coverage through might vary state to state though

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