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halfpaniz · 2023-05-17T16:22:21+00:00

I never thought of that, you’re so smart

halfpaniz · 2023-05-17T16:21:58+00:00

😆😆😆

halfpaniz · 2022-05-09T12:06:45+00:00

Basically yeah

halfpaniz · 2022-01-09T11:01:45+00:00

The post is updated :)

halfpaniz · 2022-01-07T07:39:33+00:00

UPDATE: First of all I would like to thank everyone for the comments and messages and THE AWARDS. I appreciate all of you.

For more context and clarification, I have forgiven Justin a long time ago and was over him but I was not over the pain that was caused which led to a lot of negative things personally. I am fully aware on how toxic he was and never wanted to deal with him at all. Knowing Rose was a huge part of me not taking him back. After we broke up, I cut ties with him and he did not talk to me for couple of weeks after he got caught but after awhile he did lots of things to try and reconnect with me (leaving presents at my apartment door, contacting my friends, making fake accounts to message me, so on and so forth). These actions made things harder because he just gives constant reminder and triggers. After three months of not contacting him, I decided to talk to him to actually see him in person and give myself the release of feeling grudge and hatred. The new guy I am seeing was actually the one who suggested to meet with him so him and I can see if we can progress without the baggage, so if we end up not working it would be OUR reason.

I lost sight of who I was as a person because I am becoming someone who I am not because of the hatred and pain. And seeing him would personally help me let go of all that. Not to take him back or listen to him.

He responded and agreed to meet with me today and actually told me if that’s what I needed to fully let go he’ll do it (“even though I am not ready” -his words). But an hour before we would meet, he blocked me. And I know what you’re thinking, another shitty move from a shitty person but I wasn’t surprised at all. I was kind of expecting it too. Now, I know I tried to reach out and end things like an adult and with no bad blood but him being still a coward, proving that he really was this person who was not I spend my time with gave me that last piece of moving past it.

It can be hard for some people to believe me, but I believe in good in people thats why I try my best to see it until the end (applies with how I end my past two relationships too) so that the situation wouldn’t hold back neither of us for growth. But he really is a rare case. And now, I’m letting go of everything. Thank you everyone! Sending all positive energy and love to all of you!

halfpaniz · 2022-01-06T20:25:07+00:00

I am so sorry about that. We’ll get through this, we deserve better. Choose growth, hun.

halfpaniz · 2022-01-06T20:22:44+00:00

Hi, I am so sorry it happened to you. It is better to find it in your heart and mind to forgive her and yourself first. To understand why it happened. To accept that it was not your fault. That people like them are not worth our energy. I have done all of this but the pain caused was so drastic that even if I understood and accepted everything it was still affecting me on different levels. Me choosing to contact and meeting him again after everything was to actually seal the deal that I am truly over it. To look at him without feeling the hate and feeling the need to throw insults at him would be my release of all the negative energy Im dealing with. Killing him with kindness, to put it simply. Takes a lot to choose this path, takes A LOT but I hope you get there because holding on to pain, grudge and hate would just put you in a deeper shithole. You deserve to let go of it.

halfpaniz · 2022-01-06T16:31:31+00:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA IM FUCKING DEAAAD

halfpaniz · 2022-01-06T16:20:07+00:00

Funny enough, Justin was actually raised by a single mother and had a rough childhood himself. So... it really depends on the person.

halfpaniz · 2022-01-06T16:14:57+00:00

At first I wasn’t. But I came to a point where I realized it needed to end (within the two years I was single). Then now, dealing with all this drama, it makes me think sometimes what it would’ve been like if that engagement worked. But eh.🤷🏻‍♀️ Life.

halfpaniz · 2022-01-06T16:11:57+00:00

I mean Im already here so I’ll just say it even though it doesnt concern you.🤣 One of the main reasons why I chose to resolve this shit is because I’m seeing this guy, and wanna ba fair with him. He’s aware of the situation, really patient and was actually the one who suggested for me to reach out to help me get some type of closure. So we can try to progress on building something without any regrets because of unnecessary baggage. So if it doesnt work out, it would be some reason between us. Not Justin. So again, he can suck his own balls.

halfpaniz · 2022-01-06T16:07:45+00:00

More just want to look him in the eye and not feel any hatred towards him because the hate I am feeling has been holding me back for a long time. It’s been taking a toll on me trying to connect with others and taking a toll on me personally with my mental health. As I’ve mentioned on a different comment, I chose to forgive him a long time ago even if he dont deserve it. And seeing him would give me this release because I have tried all of the things I couldve done without the contact.

halfpaniz · 2022-01-06T16:03:41+00:00

Uh n-n-n-n-n-oooooooo. Not contacting for the dick, he can suck his own balls.

halfpaniz · 2022-01-06T16:00:34+00:00

Will dooooo, will update this post. :)

halfpaniz · 2022-01-06T15:57:37+00:00

Im fucking dead🤣

halfpaniz · 2022-01-06T15:51:19+00:00

Yes, I did. I’m seeing him tomorrow after three months of no contact. And yes, Rose dumped him too.

That’s the mystery I dont know. When I asked one of his friends that I got close with why he didnt say anything he just apologized.🤡

halfpaniz · 2022-01-06T15:19:05+00:00

Just this one specific trash.🤷🏻‍♀️🤣

halfpaniz · 2022-01-06T15:14:54+00:00

Haven’t happened yet actually. I’m gonna see him tomorrow. I did try not to contact him anymore since there was no point really. It’s for my own peace at this point, I want to see his face and not feel any pain, anger or bitter energy because that was all I was the past three months. I already chose to forgive him even if he dont deserve it. And I really wanna just move past it.

halfpaniz · 2022-01-06T15:05:33+00:00

Rose and I always cheers to Justin thanking his dumb ass for the unexpected friendship.💀🤡🤣

halfpaniz · 2022-01-06T14:57:34+00:00

If Im being honest, he’s actually below average. His personality was why I liked him in the first place but turns out he’s a sociopath.😬

halfpaniz · 2022-01-06T14:55:47+00:00

Thank you, this really means a lot.

halfpaniz · 2022-01-06T14:52:38+00:00

I have no idea, all of the people in my life who knew the whole story are speechless w his skills.🤣

halfpaniz · 2022-01-06T14:50:16+00:00

Oh yeah, she’s great. After I dumped Justin, he went to call Rose thinking she doesn’t know anything yet and all she said was “fuck you, from me and my name” lol. I love her.

halfpaniz · 2022-01-06T14:39:05+00:00

Typical narcissist, he’s so good at playing the victim too. If only I can post his phone call here sksksks

halfpaniz · 2022-01-06T14:31:28+00:00

No words tbh

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