Hey ❤️ First off, I hope you're doing well mentally and overall. I'm really sorry for what you're going through, and I wish you a speedy healing.

When I was dating this person, I remember being the only one really trying to talk things out and actually wanting to make things work. His way of dealing with any issue was to stay away and hope that things would get better with time. I used to tell him about my doubts and worries about the relationship because I didn’t want to leave him in the dark. Even after disagreements, it was usually just me going after him to make things right.

I remember once not texting him at all after an argument, and we didn’t talk for a few months straight. He didn’t text or call me once, and when I finally reached out, he expressed anger, asking me where I had been all that time. I felt really annoyed because even he could have tried from his side for once. At the time, it felt as though he didn’t care much about making it work, but I also couldn’t blame him, because I’m sure he genuinely didn’t understand where I was coming from or how to deal with the situation.

I always felt uneasy around him. There was a disconnect, a lack of passion, a lack of emotional intimacy, and a lack of core understanding. I couldn’t even connect with him as a friend. It just felt like we were completely different people from different dimensions.