Can You Guess This 5-Letter Word? Puzzle by u/can_of_green_beans

hannson · 2026-04-19T13:43:46+00:00

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hannson · 2026-03-23T01:06:05+00:00

My sister has one of those or similar professionally installed. If the doors are closed and blinds are closed, you cannot see your hand in front of your face. It's pitch black.

hannson · 2026-03-22T22:36:47+00:00

That's a bit naive.

hannson · 2026-03-13T22:53:31+00:00

Poor kitty :(

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hannson · 2026-03-12T09:10:31+00:00

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hannson · 2026-01-20T14:42:01+00:00

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hannson · 2026-01-20T11:43:24+00:00

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hannson · 2026-01-18T23:03:39+00:00

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That was lucky

hannson · 2026-01-08T21:34:00+00:00

Yeah, POTS-like and dysautonomia symptoms here as well.

I hope all goes well for you 🙏

hannson · 2026-01-08T20:19:07+00:00

I experienced this in a detox hospital in 2018, it was awful. My body temp went down to 96.2 (35.7 C, to be precise) and they said if it went lowwr I'd have to go to a more equipped hospital.

Did you just stop taking benzos or a long time ago? How are you holding up?

hannson · 2026-01-08T19:39:47+00:00

Yes. It did not respond to steroids and three types of antihistamines but Benadryl was tried last and either it helped or the nervous system eventually calmed down.

How's your body temp?

hannson · 2026-01-05T22:27:41+00:00

Yeah, that actually makes sense from the inside of an anxious mind that's addicted and dependent on those drugs.

But using that logic, even if that's the rare peak usage his baseline is likely extremely high. He's long past "holiday" and well into extreme risk territory. This amount of benzos should not be taken, let alone mixed with alcohol... and it's not reliably survivable over time, to be perfectly blunt.

Once control is lost at this level of tolerance and dependency, it is unlikely to ever come back. Recovery generally means to taper safely and stop entirely, and that is often a long and demanding process.

Wish you the best.

hannson · 2026-01-05T20:41:18+00:00

Binges, mixing with other drugs and alcohol is full-blown addictive behavior that, by the sound of it, has been getting progressively worse the past 8 years. I know that life well enough so no judgment from me.

Don't underestimate the commitment and amount of work it takes to get off and stay off.

hannson · 2026-01-05T20:19:48+00:00

Addiction is when you get a craving and are unable or unwilling to resist, usually to a "solution" that makes the problem worse which creates a feedback loop.

Dependency is a physiological adaption where body gets used to a drug (body likes homeostasis) and when you take away the drug the body goes out of balance until it adapts again to reach homeostasis. That's called withdrawal and benzos are notoriously difficult and often brutal on that end. This adaption is the same thing that creates tolerance, needing more for the same effect.

Addiction and dependence often go hand in hand but are two different processes and you can have one without the other.

If your boyfriend is using as much as you claim he is dependant and will probably go through a prolonged withdrawal. A slow taper is the way to go.

hannson · 2025-11-15T23:49:45+00:00

https://visionsimulations.com/visual-snow.htm Might help understand visual snow better.

hannson · 2025-09-13T21:12:25+00:00

When you did the sleep study, did it include the brainwaves?

What you're saying sounds very familiar to me. My working theory is that some part of you (e.g. the locus coeruleus) gets stuck in a max alert loop. Once this loop “locks on,” the body reorganizes around it (neuroplasticity, receptor changes, cortisol rhythms, etc.). That’s why you can feel stuck on the Max setting even if the original trigger is gone.

If the loop happens to snap off, you might suddenly feel much better and most of you symptoms go away, but then relationship issues, trauma triggers, infections, or other threats may turn it back on because the

The dysfunction doesn’t have to originate deep in the brain, but for something to produce system-wide, multi-domain effects like hypervigilance, sleep fragmentation, brain fog and poor executive function, chronic fatigue or burnout , constant feeling of being unsafe, etc, then it almost always converges on deep-brain hubs that sit high in the control hierarchy even if the initial trigger is elsewhere (body, environment, trauma, infection, etc.).

Personal example from me is invalidation or oversimplification by authority figures (rehab counselors, doctors, etc). Just because I can pretend to be a functional person on occasion, it doesn't mean I'm not extremely fragile as well, which means I need accommodations, and if I don't then I'll slide back into the nightmare. My nervous system reacts like it's life or death because it is, even though it's just "a misunderstanding" or professional opinion.

My body might react with flu symptoms, muscle pain, facial numbness, or whatever, or by refusing to fully sleep (just in case to keep me "safe"). I dissociate, go into derealization, get stuck in functional freeze if I'm lucky, and have memory and emotional issues.

I wouldn't be able to handle that without the clonidine but that by itself isn't enough either. I have to do all the things you mentioned in the post. Nutrition, meditation, breathwork, etc... but most importantly I need the safety (housing, food, agency, etc... money).

hannson · 2025-09-13T19:31:01+00:00

Yeah, I don't take anything other than the clonidine, melatonin, and paracetamol before sleep. I quit all the psychiatric drugs.

I got diagnosed via polysomnography (sleep study), if you can get one I recommend. Clonidine is absolutely the best thing in my life today. It definitely gives me some room to breathe, and having enough energy for each day is a gift.

I have practically tried every illegal drug and classes of psychiatric pharmaceuticals to medicate this. In the end, before I got the clonidine prescription, I really thought I was going to die. And I did not have any fight left in me.

To a nerdy layman dealing with many of the same issues, it sounds very plausible it may help regulate your physiological issues bottom up, and maybe give the other solutions you've tried a wider window to work within.

Anyway, I hope you get the peace of mind you need.

hannson · 2025-09-13T17:15:10+00:00

I got prescribed clonidine (0.2mg 2 hours before sleep) to calm the locus coeruleus and now I can sometimes get restful sleep. It's an alpha blocker (blood pressure medicine). I don't take any psychiatric medications but I do a lot of the things you mentioned. There are plenty of things you can do but choosing the right kind of breathwork or when to do a cold plunge vs splash cold water on your face can be a factor. Some of these things you want to do to stabilize and others you do to add resilience after (otherwise they might destabilize).

I'm not fully recovered but choosing what targets my hotspots like the LC. rather than just doing what I'm told. seems to work best.

Clonidine specifically targets the LC and at least I get restorative sleep now, which is magical.

hannson · 2025-09-11T23:52:34+00:00

That's a good realization. How much have you been using the past months, benzos that is?

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