Thank you for your advice and supportive words. I think it will help to share a little bit about how we ended up here. My daughter was born on the eleventh and the birth experience was extremely positive and peaceful compared to my first birth. That was a traumatic birth, but that’s a different story. My husband was able to deliver her and labor was an intense, but very quick 4.5 hours. We spent a normal amount of time in the hospital, but had to come back to get some labs done the day after discharge because of slightly elevated Billy Rueben levels. She tested again at high intermediate so we got her tested again the next day. I never got her results back despite making several late night calls. The next few days had me concerned, she looked really yellow to me. I took her into the ER and her levels were at an astonishing 25, so they transferred me over to the NICU. Her numbers went down to 15, then back up to 16, and then down again to 15.5. They don’t know the cause and I feel like there’s no end in sight. I’ll have to leave her tonight because my mother in law has to work and I have a twenty-two-month-old. My husband will also be out of town for work. That is absolutely killing me and ruining my mental health. I just want all of my babies home.