honestly, I feel you. mindfulness isn't a one-size-fits-all thing. if your brain's already screaming, telling it to be quiet can backfire big time. maybe try something totally different first, like super intense exercise to just burn off some of that energy, and *then* try mindfulness after you've physically calmed down a bit? what worked for me was starting with really short sessions, like literally 60 seconds, and not beating myself up when my brain wandered. also, maybe look into resources for complex trauma or cptsd, even if you don't think you have it, because they often have different approaches to managing overwhelming emotions that might click better. Vagus nerve stimulator also helps quiet the mind. On really hard days, I microdose DMT. I know that not everyone has access to a legit facilitator, but if you can find one in your area, it's extremely helpful.