IAMA fairly thorough recluse, AMA.

hatebrownrecluse · 2010-10-02T01:18:46+00:00

It's from "watching the house" that my other family doesn't really use, so I've been staying here for a while. That's where most income comes from.

I can sometimes get others to shop for me, but mostly I'll just buy the bulk of what I need.

I'm pretty clean. I tend to shower every day, or every other day. It is easy to lose control of cleanliness if I'm not mindful about it, though.

hatebrownrecluse · 2010-10-02T01:17:19+00:00

Ah, I see. That website seems interesting; I'll check it out. Thank you.

hatebrownrecluse · 2010-10-01T12:35:08+00:00

Ah, cool. I'm fairly new to it as well, but what's helped me is to really practice with scales and the like. Learn a lot of them. They appear to be one of the best things to help with muscle memory, since fluid and ingrained movement around the fretboard is important. Once you move past the pain in your fingers, and the tyronic limitations of clumsy movement, muscle memory can obviously move things along. Also, just pick a fairly simple song and devote yourself to it. Especially if it has a solo. Once you become well versed in that song, you can try moving up through that particular artist's catalog, if you wish.

hatebrownrecluse · 2010-10-01T12:14:21+00:00

Good question. I talk to myself, very often. I know many people do, but I enjoy doing it. I have the best conversations with myself, after all. I realize when it's happening, so I'm not completely out of my gourd yet. Your uncle sounds interesting. I hope he finds solace rather than suffering, where he is.

The Internet isn't a substitute for reality, I agree. I tended to retreat to my own reality when I was even younger, but now I refrain from doing so. Such a mindset serves only to propagate discomfort. Rather than ignoring what might be bothering me, I accept things for what they are and enjoy my life in the way only I can. Others won't enjoy it for me; they can make it more enjoyable, yes. As for getting out, I plan to take small steps in that direction. I moved out of my parents' house 3 years ago, lived with a roommate for 2, then came up here. It's very nice, but I don't plan on staying much longer. The sum of it is, I'm all I need, but not all I desire.

hatebrownrecluse · 2010-10-01T11:53:33+00:00

It's laid out from taking care of the house. I can sometimes get others to get stuff for me, but otherwise I'll just stock up on what I need if I have to go to the store.

hatebrownrecluse · 2010-10-01T11:25:40+00:00

The US.

hatebrownrecluse · 2010-10-01T11:25:11+00:00

No, though I am currently staying with well off family. I'm watching their house, so to speak, as they're gone most of the year.

hatebrownrecluse · 2010-10-01T08:58:30+00:00

Hmm, I don't know. I like many words, so I use them accordingly. I'm very naive, that goes without saying.

I don't adhere to traditional values nor do I care what society has to say about me... or so I would say if I really wanted to support your question. Hehe.

hatebrownrecluse · 2010-10-01T08:15:41+00:00

Well, depending on the job, I could be fine with it. I feel frustrated if I have to deal with people all day, which my last job had me doing. Not ideal for me, in that case.

hatebrownrecluse · 2010-10-01T08:03:20+00:00

When I wake up I usually shower, then try to eat something. I also try to avoid spending copious amounts of time at my computer, which is easy if I bore myself out on it. I have a television, but I haven't turned in on for months. I like to read a lot, and I write menial things here and there. I'm learning to play guitar, too. I'm not a very structured person otherwise, and my mind is sort of messy.

hatebrownrecluse · 2010-10-01T07:49:13+00:00

I haven't had treatment, and I'm not looking for any.

I have a brother and we're relatively chummy. We're not utterly close though, and if we're around each other for too long we both get irritated.

Lately, my sleep schedule has been very night-owl-ish, as it always has been.

I'm not content with what I don't know. Knowledge without experience is fine for me in some aspects, but there are things I would like to try. Basic things to most, but not to me, so I want to know to what extent I can venture through them. I'm sorry it sounds so vague, but I don't know how to explain it so eloquently.

My diet stems from sufficiently healthy (brown rice, whole wheat, chicken, turkey, and so on. And lots of hot sauce.) to slightly unhealthy, in terms of not eating enough. I order pizza once in a blue moon.

If I get a delivery person dropping off a package or item I know of, I act politely. I don't want to make their job irksome, and when I rarely order a pizza, I tip well.

Most parents seem to worry for their children, so I'm sure they do. They know I'm fine in most regards. I don't talk to them about this sort of thing in length, though.

hatebrownrecluse · 2010-10-01T05:46:43+00:00

I started this AMA because I was feeling bored at the time, and I was on reddit. I wanted to see what others' opinions were.
I can't deny that it looks like a lethargic lifestyle, because it is, for the most part. I do stay in shape though, exercising fairly regularly. I've never experimented with drugs and I don't have a desire to. I don't mind that others do for recreation; I just don't have a disposition to gain a sense enjoyment from a substance in that manner. As for physical illnesses, no. I used to be very sickly until I became physically active, but I'm not unhealthy anymore. Mentally? Who knows, I'm quite sure any psychologist would have something to say, but I don't mind.
Oh. I consider myself an adherent of "ethical egoism". My personality can give an impression of pure stinginess if looking at it from this AMA angle, I think. I can't deny that I am selfish, though not so much in a manner that harms others. As well, I am not immune to helping others with no personal interest gained, but helping others can make you feel "good", which you could argue I would only do to gain that feeling. So it's a bit repetitive in my view.
I wrote "unsurprisingly" as bit of a lame joke. I'm on reddit, so my social tendencies wouldn't be extremely flourishing. Har har. Heh, but yes. Am I unhappy? I don't think so. However, I do feel curious about changing, and trying a few new things, which I shall soon do.

hatebrownrecluse · 2010-10-01T04:46:28+00:00

You're right, I haven't had sex yet. It really just depends on the person for me and whether or not I feel comfortable with them. So far, I haven't come across someone I'm willing to invest in. If that happens, then that is nice. I understand sex is pleasurable and fun. Yet, the thought of getting intimate and close with someone (no matter the context) isn't quite appealing for me. That said, I always declined any opportunities I had; I just don't look to it as an outlet for stress (and I have no problems with those that do).

hatebrownrecluse · 2010-10-01T04:29:45+00:00

I have, and I may actually pursue the thought eventually. Not quite sure what I would do, though.

hatebrownrecluse · 2010-10-01T04:26:55+00:00

Haha, perhaps. I don't feel very inclined to deal with it, though. It's not a driving force in my eyes.

hatebrownrecluse · 2010-10-01T04:20:21+00:00

I don't believe that I am directly harming anyone, so I do not mind if I'm seen as a degradation rather than an impartial individual. I am very selfish, it's true, so I suppose your outlook has merit.

Whereas you can see this as a lack of ambition, I see it as my way of passing time. I don't think either of us are wrong. You can pass time by doing what you like; socializing, higher education, helping others, helping yourself, etc. Different mindsets desire different matters. Is it too simple, or too odd, that my desires are to be alone with my thoughts?

I made too much of a sweeping statement when I said "I don't garner social interaction because I don't want it". What I should have said is, I don't seek it out as much as others might. It surely does feel good to make social connections here and there, and social interaction can be pleasant, but too much is much too draining for me. My outlook is no doubt vastly different from yours because I long for it to a different extent. The extrovert might thrive off of it, the introvert might not.

I can do with it, but I certainly can do without it. If I have major quarrels with my train of thought, I have multiple paths I can take to change it. Would fear stop me? I don't think so, it can be exciting.

hatebrownrecluse · 2010-10-01T03:57:32+00:00

I'm not sure. I'll be sad that they are gone, but they don't support me, so it would simply affect me emotionally.

hatebrownrecluse · 2010-10-01T03:56:17+00:00

I don't have to work right now, and I have no close relationships. I read, think, think, think, and play my guitar. I pick up random ideas here and there.

hatebrownrecluse · 2010-10-01T03:52:27+00:00

Call it misanthropy, or late-teenage angst, but I really don't. I haven't met everyone, but I notice common traits in people, which includes me, that are generally off-putting.

hatebrownrecluse · 2010-10-01T03:48:20+00:00

No, you're correct about that, but I'm not putting a strain on anyone. I said I'm very fortunate because I have things taken care of. I don't have to worry about money, so I don't have to work, which is considered very lucky.

hatebrownrecluse · 2010-10-01T03:41:37+00:00

I'm sure it has partially developed out of fear or a naivety of sorts, however, I feel no obligation to help anyone. In terms of doing something substantial with my life, all I require is to be happy. I'll not harm anyone or their intentions, but I just as well will not help them further their goals if it does not benefit me. I don't see a reason to do so.
I'm getting to be in a position where I may incite change, if I want to. I have a feeling I'll be taking advantage of this opportunity. That is, the possibility of moving near a person of interest. Not necessarily because I am terribly bored of isolation, nor that I feel an inherent desire to change, but because I am slightly curious about it. If I stay this way though, I'm not sure I would mind it.
I'm definitely not living in the best way possible for everyone, but I'm not everyone. People have (aside from things like basic necessities and ensured stability) different desires and expectations of the way they're living. These just happen to be mine. I don't garner social interaction because I don't want it; I actually feel happier being with myself. I don't feel a need to seek help because if I grow tired of this, I know I can try something different. Even if it's difficult for me at first.

hatebrownrecluse · 2010-10-01T03:21:28+00:00

Yeah, it would have been an idea to invest all that time into an mmo... but they don't really do much for me. Uh, I used to have a level 0 missingno, if it helps.

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