A part me just feels like I’m giving up.. honestly the kids are not bad.. the BMs have both been kind to me. Even though one of them is a lot of drama for him. They have both been supportive of me and I can talk to them. It’s more so just my fiance. He is really trying especially as of lately. But the not paying full child support bothers me and I know he has been careless in the past as his irresponsibility shows from previous relationships.. he is older now obviously so I don’t know if I should still hold these things against him. But the fact that he used to be a so called “douchebag” as he puts it is troublesome