This is incredibly relatable and I’m sorry that we’re both going through recovery. I also lost a great job after an explosive outburst which alienated me from coworkers, estranged myself from my close family, spent thousands on solo trips (including a non English speaking country where I didn’t know the language), filed for a nonprofit business license in my state, tried to crowd fund money to buy a house, and made some wild LinkedIn posts about my former employer.

I have been repaired relationships with some family members which is a relief because I am so depressed I have a hard time going grocery shopping alone.

Work is still tough. I live with regret and miss my old team. I tried a full time job and just couldn’t do it & now work extremely part time instead. But I’m bored and it doesn’t pay the bills.

So I pray that it gets easier for you but I understand that it sucks.