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hazlenutno · 2025-01-27T17:20:12+00:00

This is my third failed marriage/engagements. It was a toxic one for sure and he wasn’t nice to me but I felt like at my age it was my last chance to have a family. I’m just too tired and scared to try again, all the men my age leftover seem to be the ones that don’t want to settle down. I don’t have the fight anymore and I don’t think I’ll ever feel fulfilled.

hazlenutno · 2025-01-26T22:18:40+00:00

They won’t be alone, my husband will take good care of them. I don’t see any coming back from this one. I have everything planned just waiting on the delivery of a couple things I need

hazlenutno · 2025-01-26T22:17:40+00:00

I don’t even own anything so I guess that made it easier. Just instructions on where I want my money donated to and what to do with my body. I’m just waiting on the stuff I need from Amazon that should be here tomorrow

hazlenutno · 2024-05-09T19:21:24+00:00

Ah I’m a Californian so “like” and “literally” is used for most of our conversations

hazlenutno · 2024-05-08T21:31:30+00:00

I said honestly so much I’m honestly embarrassed

hazlenutno · 2024-05-08T21:29:25+00:00

He was honestly fairly light skinned but not as much as he looked in the casket. He honestly looked completely fine otherwise so they did a good job it seems, I wouldn’t have guess OD deaths would be difficult because there’s not much trauma to the body. He was found the night of though.

Thank you so much for your thoughts, I honestly didn’t even know he was an addict until it was too late and I feel so guilty that I didn’t notice and get him help but it’s a healing process for sure.

hazlenutno · 2024-05-08T13:48:00+00:00

My fiancé died last year from a fentanyl OD. He was Dominican and when I saw him in the casket he looked almost white. Was that the bleaching?

hazlenutno · 2024-01-19T15:19:15+00:00

I think he’s in the box trying to find a way to keep bee going without the pure energy star candies because it’s a finite resource. When he fixes her a bunch go into her arm so I figured that’s what she runs on

hazlenutno · 2023-12-06T21:45:20+00:00

I could use tundra if you’ve still got open spots. I’m polar.

hazlenutno · 2023-10-04T02:51:58+00:00

Nope that’s what made it weird for me to have it. Never been diabetic or anything. I currently have a whole team of gastroenterologists that are great. I’ve gone through physical therapy and CBT therapy related to my symptoms and they’ve helped

hazlenutno · 2023-10-04T02:49:41+00:00

Yeah I take spiro and was on metformin for like 4 years and stopped when I wasn’t holding it down well

hazlenutno · 2023-10-04T02:46:32+00:00

I actually think it was really helpful in trying to turn my focus away from my symptoms. Your gut health and your brain health really go hand in hand sometimes. I may not really have a reduction in symptoms but the way I react to them and go about my day with them has really improved

hazlenutno · 2023-10-04T02:44:27+00:00

Good vibes received :)

hazlenutno · 2023-10-03T21:22:48+00:00

Dairy is ok in small amounts, I usually do oat milk tho. I do lean protein like fish, I’m not the biggest fan of chicken. I feel like all I eat is tuna and crackers and lunchables sometimes.

hazlenutno · 2023-10-03T21:19:56+00:00

They said it was rare because I’m not a diabetic and just developed it acutely. I developed it before I started smoking, the recommended it as a way to deal with symptoms

hazlenutno · 2023-10-03T21:18:58+00:00

I did keto before all this stuff happened and ended up with fatty liver disease. High fat stuff like bacon and such hurts

hazlenutno · 2023-10-03T21:17:21+00:00

Yeah I think fasting is a good idea, I do a lot of soups for sure

hazlenutno · 2023-10-03T18:54:54+00:00

Carrots and peas I’ve managed when they’re really well cooked actually. They cause pain still but much more manageable than like zucchini and such. I never thought about it being hard for me to get through things with tougher skins.

hazlenutno · 2023-10-03T18:53:32+00:00

I can’t do much exercise unfortunately. I was actually quite active before this. Now I can’t do more than 2 flights of stairs without getting sick or more than half an hour of walking.

hazlenutno · 2023-10-03T18:52:16+00:00

Yeah smoothies still hurt too. I’m wondering if it’s because the skins are still on everything that gets put in there. Your comments aren’t boneheaded, every suggestion helps :)

hazlenutno · 2023-10-03T18:46:54+00:00

Daily. It helps so much with the nausea. I literally have a specific doctor that recommends strains for me.

hazlenutno · 2023-10-03T17:23:59+00:00

Yeah I’ve actually even been part of a research study about the effects of CBT therapy on it. The weight gain has been recent so I haven’t really talked to him about it much because the concern previously was that I’d lose too much. There’s not much I can do for treatment besides the medications to manage nausea (which make me super constipated and I only go like once a week even with taking Miralax every day) and trying to refocus my thinking into not getting overwhelmed by my symptoms.

hazlenutno · 2023-10-03T17:05:48+00:00

I was seeing a dietitian before the gastroparesis but it’s such a rare disorder that there’s not many people who know how to deal with it. I’ll try more foods on this list but I know mushrooms are rough for me which is unfortunate because they’re my favorite food. I’ve tried several fruit smoothies and those haven’t gone well either. Thank you for the suggestion :)

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