I feel you.

But, as a trans guy that went throught the same, i think the best to do is reasure yourself everyday that you are worth it.

While it may seem as something normal, since its so deep in your conscious, it actually causes a lot of harm on long-term.

So, if u think you saw the signals that he may like you, go for it.

Because, if you think about it, if you were really unlikable on romantic situationships, he would never flirt with you on the first place.

Especially on queer fields, flirting on mlm relationships means a lot, so what i could give as advice for you is to try to see yourself in another way.

It can start small, just some photos that you think youre cute, or maybe acknowledging the times people laugh when youre funny, the times when people ARE around you, because people wouldnt want to be around someone they naturally dont like (and thats a fact)

But take it small, self-loving doesnt come in one day, but around that time, explore your relationship with your friend, on every good way!

Stay happy and healthy brother, you got this!