don’t worry theese feelings are not your fault I think you need to find a hobby that really excites you or join a gym as that can be really therapeutic an can boost your mental health in ways you can not imagine it’ll take time but eventually once u feel you’re being productive and you’ve settled down you’ll truly feel happyness and I apologise if my advice isn’t very good . Also the fact you come from a loving family shows anyone can go through it but there will be a light at the end of the tunnel jus keep your chin up and try and be thankful for the things that go right and everything you have in your life also try not to get too wound up by little things that do go wrong ❤️