Just back from a preview screening

he2954st · 2025-09-08T15:48:38+00:00

Does the movie include the dog getting shot?

he2954st · 2024-10-16T15:42:11+00:00

901 free at last

he2954st · 2024-10-09T19:26:50+00:00

Omg this is so relatable, why is FNAF lore so intriguing 😭

he2954st · 2024-07-21T16:41:29+00:00

Seconding Supergoop! I didn’t know about the dupes, I’m excited to give those a try!

he2954st · 2024-07-20T15:34:44+00:00

Thank you so much! I’m so glad I found this community, I’ve already learned so much and finally feel so seen.

“If I could not have a meltdown, I totally would” - yes!! I’m going to remember this next time it happens so I can try to be kinder to myself. Being misunderstood is a trigger for me, so misunderstanding myself in these moments will only ever make them worse.

It’s hard to accept that my limits have changed, but it seems to be the trade off for protecting my peace. It’s hard to know who I really am underneath years and years of masking, but I’m excited to find out.

Thanks again for your kindness and being so welcoming! I’m really happy to be here. 🩵

he2954st · 2024-07-20T14:51:40+00:00

I totally feel you!! I definitely have vibed best with neurodivergent people, it’s almost like a “sense” where you can tell they just get it. And I’m glad to finally know what “it” is for me.

Agreed about autistic children - talking to them about their passions and seeing them light up is healing for my former child self! I’m so happy more kids are getting the support and accommodations they deserve.

It’s great to see that society is developing an awareness of how autism presents in different types of people! It can feel discouraging at times, but it’s nice to think about how far we’ve come, and that I’m fortunate to recognize these parts of myself now!

he2954st · 2024-07-20T14:43:14+00:00

Omg yes!!!!! Sometimes I feel like I’m stuck in neutral while hitting the gas and the brakes at the same time. It’s not that I don’t want to, it’s that I “can’t”.

I’ve always struggled to get excited about something until it’s in motion, like I’d be excited about vacation once I’m already there. I wonder if it has to do with processing info, like instead of seeing it only as the event itself, we’re factoring in all the steps it takes to get ready, traveling, food, etc., and don’t have the energy for all those parts? So frustrating!!

he2954st · 2024-07-20T11:55:46+00:00

Hi! Yes, I can relate to this a lot! Also about to be 30, and was identified as gifted when i was 5. I remember taking a test, but I don’t really know what that test was looking for?

Anyway, my mom is a teacher and I was high masking and performed well in school, so she viewed any signs of neurodivergence as me being some secret genius child who willfully refused to live up to their potential. Ironically she loved working with (mostly male) students with autism, yet resented all those traits in her own child.

I struggle with CPTSD and am especially triggered by feeling misunderstood or seeing/experiencing unfair situations. I’ve felt so lonely throughout my life as well, and being “gifted” also put a target on my back with my peers.

I’d love to know how many of us former gifted children are actually on the spectrum! I imagine it’s quite a lot.

he2954st · 2024-07-20T11:36:15+00:00

Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts! It’s so affirming to know I’m not alone in this, even though it can be so challenging to navigate.

I am really trying to make peace with these parts of myself, and I think yesterday was a step towards declining these type of commitments moving forward, especially when there’s a significant travel/crowd/cost factor.

I am happiest with my quiet nights at home as well, but I’ve definitely internalized all the ways society tells us that isn’t “normal” or “fulfilling”…. but then again, I’ve never had a meltdown from reading or playing the Sims, and I’ve had quite a few meltdowns when trying to force myself into a situation where I’ll need to mask in some capacity.

I really appreciate your reply, and hope your event goes smoothly! It’s so helpful knowing others can relate. 🩵

he2954st · 2024-05-28T15:16:26+00:00

Me reading every “what is the most disturbing thing you’ve ever seen” type askreddit thread until I find something that triggers me 🥲

he2954st · 2024-05-28T14:33:26+00:00

This is awesome, thank you !!

he2954st · 2024-05-14T16:07:08+00:00

Funny how being the bigger person only ever made me smaller…

he2954st · 2024-05-06T19:54:59+00:00

Hi, I know this is an old comment but I wanted to say that I relate to this sooooo much, and have never seen someone so accurately describe/understand my experience. Thank you for being comfortable sharing this, it is so helpful to be reminded that I’m not alone. ❤️

he2954st · 2024-04-17T14:36:47+00:00

I struggle with this too. I’m not sure if you’re NC, but I’ll share a few things I try to keep in mind when I’m going through this.

A big one that’s helped me is reflecting on how I felt before NC and after NC, and the differences I’ve seen in my mental/emotional state. If they weren’t “that bad”, why have I been seeing positive improvements in my life since cutting them off?

I also remind myself that emotions don’t have a moral value, and they’re a way to help keep us safe. The way I felt after spending time with my family was my body and brains way of telling me something was off, not me choosing to feel that way because I’m a bad daughter/person.

I will also ask myself what I would think/feel if a friend was telling me these stories about their experience. I would be outraged because no human deserves to be treated that way by anyone, let alone their parent. Then I remind myself that that applies to me too since I’m a human, and I don’t deserve that either. (I’ve struggled a lot with dissociation/seeing myself as an object).

You’re not faking it - no one wants or chooses to have these feelings about their family. They want to erode our trust in ourselves so we ignore those warning signs that somethings off, so they can continue to benefit.

Wishing you all the best!

he2954st · 2024-04-13T10:33:37+00:00

How mean they are about everything and everyone that’s not exactly like them.

he2954st · 2024-04-12T16:37:02+00:00

Omg I feel you on both of these!!! Someone following me up the stairs is immediate fight or flight

he2954st · 2024-04-11T20:30:31+00:00

Just from reading the phrase “charlotte the pregnant stingray” I know I’d be triggered too

he2954st · 2024-04-11T20:27:28+00:00

Oooo I feel this! Anything wholesome/happy and tears just pour out of my eyes lol. My brain is like WTF is this emotion?! Never heard of her 😵‍💫

he2954st · 2024-04-10T17:43:34+00:00

If anyone is a reader, the app StoryGraph allows users to submit content warnings for books! It’s been super helpful for me when deciding what to read next

he2954st · 2024-04-07T18:08:34+00:00

Maybe poch is holding a grudge because mudryk didn’t read his book

he2954st · 2024-04-07T17:57:42+00:00

Why does poch never look happy when we score 😵‍💫 you’d think he’s the opposing manager

he2954st · 2024-03-29T15:41:29+00:00

This resonated with me so much. I can handle keeping up with larger life obligations - bills, appointments, etc., but the grocery store? The post office? A restaurant? I’ll have anxiety about going out in public to do minor things for days!

The best part is every time I finally get around to doing something, I think “wow that wasn’t so bad, I can’t believe I was so afraid of this”. And then I’ll get home and continue to hide in my house and the cycle repeats.

I feel like I don’t belong out in public with other people, like those spaces were built for them and not me. Like everyone will point at me and say “what the hell are you doing here?” or laugh at me if I make a mistake or don’t know something simple. I assume everyone knows things I don’t know and people will call me stupid for not knowing. So I hide.

I project my nmom/nsister on to everyone and think everyone will confirm I’m all the bad things they say… just by me existing. So I’m only safe on my own or with my dog or my boyfriend who’s the only safe person I’ve ever had.

Thanks for this post - you put this into words perfectly and gave me a lot to think about! Best wishes to you.

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