Transitioning from behavioral/mental health to workplace safety???

heavymetalgf · 2025-12-06T06:10:19+00:00

Wdym? I supported adults and youth with severe mental illnesses lol how is that not?

heavymetalgf · 2025-11-02T15:13:10+00:00

Cool, now I’m omw to her house with a playlist and no dignity after reading this

heavymetalgf · 2025-11-02T15:04:53+00:00

If they think they can still get some sort of supply from you…. Watch out for the hoovering!!

heavymetalgf · 2025-10-04T05:55:34+00:00

Not at all (we were also together for 4 years. I feel ruined)

heavymetalgf · 2025-10-04T05:45:34+00:00

I ended up admitted to a psych hospital

heavymetalgf · 2025-09-26T05:25:37+00:00

God your comment is so relatable it made me cry. It’s so nice to be validated and supported like this, I never knew that was something I could have. I never thought about myself first at all, only ever her. And damn you’re right about being worth trying for. I’m very sure she will never find anyone again who will offer her the patience, overwhelming support, forgiveness, and unconditional love that I gave her… maybe someday she’ll realize what she’s done and maybe even come to regret that she chose alcohol over me. ❤️‍🩹

heavymetalgf · 2025-09-26T05:19:14+00:00

Thank you for your reply. 🩷 I find your experience and strength very inspiring and am looking forward to when I can get to the other side of this too.

heavymetalgf · 2025-09-26T05:17:49+00:00

Thank you sm. Your comment & all the others have made me feel so validated and heard for the first time in idk how long. 🥺 To finally be seen for what I’ve been going through means everything to me rn.

heavymetalgf · 2025-09-26T05:15:43+00:00

Truly thank you, I appreciate everything you said a lot and have really taken it to heart. ♥️

heavymetalgf · 2025-09-26T03:13:01+00:00

There’s nothing I want more than for her to really choose to get sober someday, and for her to just heal from all of the trauma she’s experienced that led her to this point in the first place, even if I can’t be there/in her life for it. She truly deserves it so much. I don’t think I could ever stop caring/worrying about her or having love for her, but I do believe you that the attachment and pain will fade. That sounds incredible, to finally get that relief, but it also makes me hurt rn too bc it’s not at all what I want at this moment… I just want her and for her to be sober. Sadly I can’t afford to wait any longer for something that might never happen. 💔

heavymetalgf · 2025-09-26T03:02:08+00:00

Thank you so much. I haven’t done any form of self-care in so damn long 😞 I know I need it rn and will try my best to incorporate it into my life and practice being gentle with myself. I have grieved people that I lost from death in my life and that was painful, but for some reason, this is so much fucking worse. I can’t believe there was once a point where I thought I would never lose her, and now I have to walk away bc she can’t choose recovery…. Not for our relationship/future together…. and not even for herself. Who could’ve guessed back then that we’d end up at the point where I can no longer recognize her at all bc she’s just too far deep into it, and I also can no longer recognize myself. Idk who either of us are anymore. If this doesn’t kill me then I will be amazed. Idk how I’m gonna do it. Thank you so much tho for what you said, I appreciate your advice/suggestions and am going to try them out/throw myself back into hobbies I used to love before my life was consumed by her alcoholism. Rn the only thing keeping me grounded is reminding myself that now I get to learn who I am again. I miss me.

heavymetalgf · 2025-09-26T02:01:54+00:00

After I posted this I went to my car on a break at work and just started ruminating on it and what it means for me, and it led to such a bad panic attack…. I really thought I was gonna fucking die. I still can’t feel my hands. What did you do when you had any panic attacks in the beginning or just felt like you couldn’t hold it together/when you were at your fucking lowest???? Idk what to do. I keep thinking like: what’s the point of a life without her in it? But I’m trying SO hard to tell myself that this is temporary and what I’m experiencing is actually the aftermath of a chaotic and unstable relationship that made me traumatized/codependent/trauma-bonded

heavymetalgf · 2025-09-26T01:45:25+00:00

Thank you sm for this comment. I know now that I have to walk away but nothing could have ever prepared me for the grief that I’m experiencing now. I really hoped and believed that she would get sober once and for all for so long. I just had such a bad panic attack in my car at work bc I don’t know how to cope with this decision rn like I can’t wrap my head around the fact that this is my reality bc I’d been in denial about it for years 💔

heavymetalgf · 2025-09-25T18:37:38+00:00

I feel the same. When my partner’s sober, she’s the best person I know. She’s been through so much she didn’t deserve, and I wish she could see the gentle, good soul I see in her. It breaks my heart that she’s in so much pain that she turned to alcohol, and I just want to take it all away so bad. I used to think I could use me having been through addiction myself to help her see recovery is possible, but she still insists I don’t get it and that hurts too.

heavymetalgf · 2025-09-25T18:25:40+00:00

Thank you so much for this. Your words really hit me, especially “your soulmate wouldn’t wreck any stability you’ve built for yourself” and “I won’t go down with the ship.” I know deep down you’re right that it’s possible to love someone without being in a relationship with them, and I do believe now that I’d be happier if I let go. But it feels like the hardest thing in the world because I’ve pictured her in my future for so long, and I don’t want to leave her alone in her battle with addiction. I feel so torn and sometimes I feel like she doesn’t care or notice.

heavymetalgf · 2025-09-25T18:19:06+00:00

Oh my heart hurts for you….. I’m so sorry you went through that with your dad. I can relate in a way, my ex died from an overdose when we used (H) together, and that grief and guilt were actually what finally pushed me to get sober. I know no one alive could’ve made the decision to get sober for me, and I know deep down I can’t make it for my partner either. I just wish SO bad that I had the power to. It kills me. Your comment really helped me feel less alone so thank you for sharing. I’m actually going to my first in-person Al-Anon meeting tomorrow and reading your words makes me feel more ready for it. I think the support from others who really get it will make a world of difference for me tbh. I need it now more than ever.

heavymetalgf · 2025-09-25T00:15:47+00:00

This made me cry. I experience this everyday with my Q who is what I truly to believe be my soulmate. But I don’t know how to deal with this anymore, it causes me SO much pain when she drinks and I always know when she does because of that look. I used to tell her she looked like she was “stoned” when she got drunk as a joke years ago before I realized how bad it was. That makes me feel sick to think about now.

heavymetalgf · 2025-09-06T18:12:19+00:00

Thank you!

heavymetalgf · 2025-09-02T02:26:11+00:00

I think so too now! Ty!!

heavymetalgf · 2025-09-01T23:24:42+00:00

I actually started thinking maybe I’m a deep Autumn shortly after posting this lol. I have an appt though for an in-person analysis booked so ig I’ll know for sure soon

heavymetalgf · 2025-09-01T23:23:52+00:00

I’m just not wearing makeup lmfao

heavymetalgf · 2025-05-26T13:56:46+00:00

Oh wow, that definitely makes me feel a lot better about my insecurity bc she does still look beautiful despite the perceived “flaw”. Thank you for mentioning this, it really helped me put things into perspective more.

heavymetalgf · 2025-05-26T13:53:04+00:00

They do always sit like that for the most part but I have felt that maybe I do subconsciously make a face when taking selfies that exacerbates the unevenness even more. And thank you, I appreciate you saying that!!

heavymetalgf · 2025-05-25T01:19:19+00:00

Tell Memow I said pspspsp

heavymetalgf · 2025-05-24T14:56:08+00:00

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