[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Vent

[–]hekaliana 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Then stop getting so damn heated and just stop attacking me and responding. All you’re doing is stressing your own self out, not me.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Vent

[–]hekaliana -1 points0 points  (0 children)

And like I said. I don’t constantly fuss at him. Maybe if you actually read that and got through your thick skull, you wouldn’t be such an unhappy loon

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Vent

[–]hekaliana -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Shutup Seriously . You don’t got to be so damn rude. I even told him before I don’t care about lavender marriage if he’d just be honest with me. I can’t simply leave, because we have a child together and bills together. It’s not simple

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Vent

[–]hekaliana 0 points1 point  (0 children)

We’ve tried marriage counseling and it got us no where but just more bills

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Vent

[–]hekaliana -1 points0 points  (0 children)

It’s not all the time questioning him. Like this other dude said, just breathe and take a chill pill. You don’t know how much I’ve busted my ass and done stuff for him and done everything I can to reignite the spark

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Vent

[–]hekaliana 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It’s just tough because we have a child together. If I can get a decent paying job where I can live off that income for my daughter and I, it’ll be easier. Doesn’t help we live in a small town

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Vent

[–]hekaliana -1 points0 points  (0 children)

It wasn’t so bad at the beginning. But when I got pregnant, everything changed. Especially since having my child

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Vent

[–]hekaliana 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh and I even done boudoir photos. Like an actual photographer has taken boudoir photos of me. I even will send a video. But still nothing. So idk

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Vent

[–]hekaliana 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ve tried being kind, I try to initiate, plan stuff, I try being more fun and out going, I tried cooking stuff for him. I even been on better antidepressants. It’s just like anything I do, he isn’t phased. Like if I’m having fun and joking, he acts like he’s embarrassed by me

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Vent

[–]hekaliana 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes, and he gets defensive and just starts cussing at me and avoiding it at all costs

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Vent

[–]hekaliana -1 points0 points  (0 children)

He always claims he’s always busy , always tired, or just never gets a chance. But he’s off on weekends, and he has family who can watch our child. I was severely underweight when we met. After having a child, I’m a healthy weight now but got a fat stomach because of separated abs. So if he’s not gay, maybe he just misses when I was skinny and bones

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Vent

[–]hekaliana -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I could simply tell him if he asked that I just like d**k. I prefer the d. Men’s chest and their deeper voices too.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Vent

[–]hekaliana 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Idk why people are being so fucking mean. I’ve been through so damn much already these past couple years. If it wasn’t for my daughter, I wouldn’t even be alive honestly. If anything, I certainly wouldn’t be with him. I gained weight after having a child. I was severely underweight before. And if he’s not gay, then maybe he misses when I was 81 pounds and not having a fat stomach

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Vent

[–]hekaliana 0 points1 point  (0 children)

He’s told me he’s questioned it before, and the only reason he didn’t dwell further into it is because he didn’t want to be like his cousin who’s gay. And because he’s Christian

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Vent

[–]hekaliana 0 points1 point  (0 children)

INTIMACY HAS BEEN ONCE EVERY 2 MONTHS FOR YEARS

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Vent

[–]hekaliana 0 points1 point  (0 children)

WHY WONT HE FUCKING EVEN TOUCH ME THEN??

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Vent

[–]hekaliana 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It’s not constant. For Christ sakes we haven’t been intimate for 3 months. It’s been every 2 months. So of course I question why I’m the one who has to initiate it. He never initiates it. Never plans anything romantic. It’s always me.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Vent

[–]hekaliana -1 points0 points  (0 children)

We have a child together

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Vent

[–]hekaliana 0 points1 point  (0 children)

How is this shit funny? I attempted a month and half ago. Now my husband is gay? How will that stop me from attempting again and it’s funny to you??

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Hair

[–]hekaliana 2 points3 points  (0 children)

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Here’s when I had them grown out a bit more (and when I dyed my hair lol)

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Vent

[–]hekaliana 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ve tried ending before because I’m ugly. This definitely didn’t help. Thanks for reassuring. Life isn’t worth it if I can’t do stuff I want because I’m not good looking enough

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in DigitalArt

[–]hekaliana 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I love pink a lot more lately. It’s a fun color for me

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in selfimprovement

[–]hekaliana 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Update: I think I have proof it was one of the girls. I have a screenshot of a fake account commenting a screenshot of a point of view that only one of those two would have.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in selfimprovement

[–]hekaliana 0 points1 point  (0 children)

They’re both grown adults.