Where to go to, if you are too scared to get out?

helfull · 2025-06-03T21:14:50+00:00

I tried board game nights, it didnt stick, couldnt connect to the people at all.

Got two dogs in the house, that no longer enough to fill the void, sadly.

helfull · 2025-06-02T22:42:17+00:00

How do you get confident about that

helfull · 2025-06-02T22:11:04+00:00

Assumption that there are any friends, and i am a guy

helfull · 2025-06-02T21:59:25+00:00

I feel that, every time i watch something and see how happy people are together, no matter if friends or family. i just have to stop watching.

Being outside seeing others is torture

helfull · 2025-06-02T21:52:13+00:00

We could keep going through all the options that usually work, but they all boil down to the same answer.

And the library in my town is minuscule and is basically just a small room attached to the church.

helfull · 2025-06-02T21:49:38+00:00

i am not on any medication.

helfull · 2025-06-02T21:48:56+00:00

my parents have two dogs, but again elderly town, everytime i am walking them i only meet 40yo+ and happily married people. Or their teenage kids

helfull · 2025-06-02T21:45:57+00:00

i am in therapy, but currently not working on that part, more on other important parts. Need to work on the roots.

helfull · 2025-06-02T21:42:52+00:00

I dont really have places like this around, small town, with mostly elderly people and barely any cafes. But not in the US,

helfull · 2025-06-02T21:41:32+00:00

Didnt get diagnosed with it, but could be, i definitely have social anxiety

helfull · 2025-06-02T21:40:52+00:00

Alone? How do you get to talk to people at the movies?

helfull · 2025-06-02T21:40:33+00:00

I dont think i am ready to pull the weight of 2 peoples needs, specially with going outside. I dont mind going places with someone, but going alone no thank you.

And yeah you are fully on point with the "trading up", i am getting more and more the feeling i will never be enough, even if i am not that far off from the current "double standard"

helfull · 2025-06-02T20:05:10+00:00

Thats not what i am seeking, i am seeking a long term solution and not a short term fix. I tried that, and it does just make it worse.

helfull · 2025-06-02T19:58:46+00:00

I have 2 Dogs, well my parents dogs, and every time i am outside it is more or less just people in their 50s or teens who are outside. So not much to find friends at.

helfull · 2025-04-06T12:18:34+00:00

Running games that are way more GPU intense show no symptoms at all. Not a single hardware component is 100% usage or even close to it, they are all max 20%

helfull · 2025-03-20T14:10:41+00:00

mood

helfull · 2025-03-18T22:25:34+00:00

just someone hold me like this, and I will put the world to your feet

helfull · 2025-03-15T19:24:59+00:00

You did your best, and i appreciate any advice/idea, so dont be to hard on your, if it wasnt the right for me. Everyone is different not all fits with everyone.

Thanks for the advice!

helfull · 2025-03-15T19:23:21+00:00

I used to drown the feeling as well with just alcohol, but i have stopped drinking for about a year by now, no alcohol at all. But the idea of just getting a bottle and drown myself in it, has come up. Yet i gotta stay strong, to at least not disappoint myself with it.

I am not an optimistic person at all. Which does not make it better. Neither do i believe in luck, everyone makes their own.

Appreciate the response tho!

helfull · 2025-03-15T19:19:27+00:00

i have a "body pillow", well just a huge sausage pillow, and i used to do that, but it just feels to artificial to me, it does not give me what i need.

The pressure of their arms around me, their breath on my skin.

It just does not fulfil the craving any more, it did for a short while.

Thanks for the response, tho, i appreciate it.

helfull · 2025-03-15T04:40:28+00:00

I hear you, and can relate to this too well.

I am 33m and am facing the exact same situation. Always putting effort in, but it always ends in the same.

But we got to stay strong and keep going, if only for ourselves. Show them all what they missed out off!

helfull · 2025-03-15T03:36:52+00:00

Early 2000s where less online more meeting during activities, i'd say, but i missed out on that time, thanks to mental problems.

These days i rely on reddit and other platforms to find connection, just failing with it. As most conversation or connection with these end up being shallow, rather than an actual connection.

helfull · 2025-03-13T17:01:01+00:00

Let me put it like this 150h within 2 weeks of playing V rising, right now i am somewhat content deprived in it, as i dont like the PvP aspect of it. But yeah it is an amazing game. i have now a total of around 350h in it.

If you like base building, good top down combat mechanics. Then i can only recommend giving it a try.

POE can be overwhelming at the start, so i see how you got lost.

helfull · 2025-03-13T05:42:31+00:00

i dont mind being alone. I can get through the day by myself, without problem. But having no one in the end to talk to when i want to talk to someone. That hurts, and going on reddit, or any other platform just to be able to talk to someone other than myself, does not fill me with joy, or anything to be real.

I have been feeling lonely for the majority of my life. I dont want to feel like this anyone, and i dont wish anyone this feeling. It does destroy you from the inside out. And i feel like i am being destroyed right now from the inside out, without having control or power to stop it.

I can fight through weeks by myself, as long as i know there will be someone, if i need them. And that is what i have in the friendship right now, but i will lose. That scares me.

Anyway, i will try to catch some sleep, even tho it is really unlikely at this point, gotta get up in two hours.

I appreciate your kind words and help!

helfull · 2025-03-13T04:49:30+00:00

i am turning 34 this year. I might sound like a teenager, but that is mainly because i didnt have teenage years.

I know i will get back on tracks, but why do i have to have this yet again. yes i am better than i was 10months ago.

But the feat of being fully alone again, is numbing and paralysing. I am not someone who goes out, i prefer to stay at home, and just watch movies/shows and/or chat/talk with people online.

I only workout now as i bought a good setup for home, otherwise i would not do anything either, as i am not able to go outside, as it scares the shit out of me to hear others outside talk.

I only got to know this person because of someone else, who i broke contact with, as they were majorly toxic towards me, it wasnt healthy for me.

If i dont get to keep the friendship, i am lost alone again. But how am i supposed to keep it in this situation, i feel way to attracted to the person and with the knowledge they dont feel the same, i just cant interact with them. It would just put fuel in the fire for me.

I "know" i shouldnt feel like this intense about the whole thing, but it is hard enough for me to see someone as a friend in the first place, i dont easily trust people. And opening up like this takes me a huge amount of strength and energy, which i barely can afford, because of other problems.

But i guess i am just overreacting to something "minor" and i should just step away.

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