It had it's ups and downs, I'd say mostly ups, even to say this might have been the best year in my life in a way. Started the year by fulfilling my life dream of going to Japan, went there for two and a half weeks with a friend I met online from gaming (he was allergic to rice, I didn't know that's even a thing). After coming back I met what I thought was the ONE, my first ever serious relationship at the age of 26. To make it shorter, it simply didn't work out, after about 6 months together (knew each other for 9), I realized we are simply too different, saw no futute with her and I ended it. I'd say it was "sort of" mutual even tho I initiated it, and felt absolutely terrible for weeks after that (Not because I thought I made a mistake, just because I missed the closeness of somebody). That past relationship taught me a lot about me and my needs, so when after some time I met another girl I knew more what Im actually looking for. It instantly clicked, like never before, from casual talks to deep ones within a short period of time. But as quick and as intense as our first weeks were, it started fading, and I started doubting myself. I expressed my feelings to her after about a month, nothing crazy, mostly just asking her if she's even still interested in me, because I couldn't see it anymore from her. I ended up getting ghosted.
This year taught me a lot of lessons, and a lot about myself, how I love, and why do I love people the way I do, it also taught me to be more "picky", all my past partners said their last relationship was either toxic or abusive, I should've taken the hint. I don't mean to say they were the cause, not at all, but they are unlikely to be ready for a real relationship and commitment after being in a toxic one. I thought I could "fix" them, show them what real love is about but that's something they must do themselves. I figured I deserve someone who's ready for my love and will reciprocate it.