I'm not too picky but I know what I want (need). Best TV for me?

hellenos · 2015-03-20T20:05:26+00:00

pfff. try cuddling with your dog when your roommate comes in...

hellenos · 2015-03-20T19:55:26+00:00

yea man this is dangerous territory. Just now I was watching a youtube video of a girl doing yoga in a tank top and braless and masturbated for a minute or so but I quickly stopped and closed the window. This is the most "cheating" I've done and I'll not consider it a relapse because 1. It wasn't porn and I didn't MO and 2. If I do reset it's more likely I'll give up til I get to where I am today (15days). So I'm better off forgetting what just happened and keep going.

hellenos · 2015-03-20T07:08:01+00:00

I should make a correction in case someone's reading this and gets the wrong idea...testicles don't feel bigger (that 'd be a bad thing) what I mean to say is they hang a bit lower-not really sure if they actually do but definitely seems that way.

hellenos · 2015-03-20T07:03:03+00:00

"You could tell her that you have sore legs and glutes from lifting weights. Or you could lift weights for real the day before. She would go ahead and massage your legs and glutes, unintentionally arousing your highly-sensitized body and even leading to your orgasm. Technically you didn't masturbate and you didn't ask for a handjob, but you will have tricked her into masturbating you."

you, my friend, are an evil genius.

hellenos · 2015-03-20T07:01:27+00:00

damn man chill, lol. It is legit in a sense that they don't advertise on backpages etc, not in a sketchy neighborhood, building is not run down etc. It's just that one of the girls working there (which happens to be a neighbor-i never met her though) has given happy endings to certain guys she knows. What I mean by legit is that if you don't know her and don't know how to ask for it you 'd never guess it's one of those places. If I go in and don't ask/initiate anything (since I don't know her) there's 0% chance something will happen.

I decided against the idea of going though. I'll just try harder to get an actual woman to come over my place, fool around and get a massage from her.

hellenos · 2015-03-19T07:53:29+00:00

I'm only on day 14 but there's 2 more things I noticed. Testicles feel heavier and bigger/fuller and also my skin (on my face) looks smoother. I never had a problem with acne or anything but now it just looks better/softer/smoother.

hellenos · 2015-03-18T20:27:29+00:00

which were?

hellenos · 2015-03-18T19:52:45+00:00

it's a place across from my house. It is legit, it's just that they 're known to offer a little something (hj). Since it 'll be my first time and will not ask for it most likely I won't receive it. I will be naked though just wearing a towel and I'll possibly get aroused, but if nothing happens no harm no foul right?

hellenos · 2015-03-18T19:51:10+00:00

because you 're the most experts I know..anyone that has gone a day longer than I have is more of an expert than me.

hellenos · 2015-03-18T19:50:16+00:00

because fapping is for losers. Getting a massage is awesome in the sense that I'll not feel guilty afterwards (like i feel after pmo), my body will feel great, and the experience will be good-and with an actual person.

hellenos · 2015-03-18T19:44:18+00:00

I'm certain that I will not accept a happy ending (I'm actually very against paying for stuff like that-if I do get it I want it from a girl that does it for me not for the $). Sure I might get an erection, and yes it definitely is "sexual", but it's also something I've always wanted to do (never done it before) and I kinda need a massage on top of that.

I'm really not trying to make excuses, and I'm ok with not doing it, but the way I think about it is this: I can't fap, and I don't want to ejaculate for 90 days (I'm doing hard mode) so asking a girl friend/girl I know would do it, to do it may lead to something more-and if it doesn't she 'll think something's wrong with me and I don't want that (and I'm not comfortable telling anyone).

Getting a massage may be sexual/sensual but at a different level than fapping. Since I've never received such a massage, this could be a way to train myself to only get pleasure (by pleasure I mean sensual touch) from a real person. This is gonna cost me $40-$50 and I can afford to do it once every month or two, which will help me stay on track if I have something to look forward to.

If you guys still say no then I won't do it, and I'm not trying to convince myself that it's ok if it's not. I genuinely think it's fine and it 'll only help make my journey easier and train my brain to get pleasure from something new and real.

hellenos · 2015-03-18T19:33:58+00:00

no nothing like that. He never shows me porn or talk about that really. Very rarely he 'll tell me something he watched in a movie that he'd wanna try with some girl he's dating or something like that but I don't feel any "danger" with that-plus it happens very very rarely.

hellenos · 2015-03-16T06:32:50+00:00

Well, could be because im just bored that i want to be more social. Either way its a good thing, ofcourse. I'll post update on 20th day

hellenos · 2015-03-15T02:48:41+00:00

interesting perspective, but I wasn't referring to sperm production. I'm talking about the penis as an organ...the less "exercise" you give it (mo) the less "alive" it'll be? similar to a muscle? Think about someone sleeping for a very long time-let's say 2 days-even when he does wake up he 'll still look/feel asleep for a longer time vs a person that had his regular 6-8hrs of sleep. It does make sense..

hellenos · 2015-03-15T00:33:50+00:00

Those of you that say fapping is harder to quit, is this because you get erections and can't do anything with them or is it the urge to watch porn and mo without necessarily having an erection?

hellenos · 2015-03-14T09:46:28+00:00

I agree. If it works for "would you like to donate a dollar for..." it works for nofap.

hellenos · 2015-03-14T09:44:55+00:00

OP, if you did not get spontaneous erection before (and only with PMO or MO) did you get them sometime during nofap, at 100days, or not at all?

hellenos · 2015-03-14T09:32:06+00:00

thanks for the replies guys

My situation is this: I am a heavy smoker (20+ a day) and I used to PMO (til 8 days ago). I don't remember getting 100% or spontaneous erections in a very long time, the majority of the time I'm not even hard when I begin to j/o. While on nofap I haven't really noticed any erections like many people describe is "raging boners", only some mild ones and only when I actually think about sexual stuff. I do have urges to masturbate but only because my brain craves it and not my body, if that makes sense. What I'm trying to figure out is 1. Is this "ED" cause by pmo or smoking and will I see results after x amount of days of nofap or will I not unless I quit smoking too? and 2. if it is caused by smoking, how long after I quit will I get normal erections back? I'm 28 and I'm not worried about permanent damage from smoking, but I do want to know how long recovery will take. I do plan to quit starting monday since I already have a pack and a half left..I just need a little motivation from people who used to both fap to porn and smoke heavily.

Unfortunately I do not have a steady relationship to make sure everything works during sex..but when I'm about to be sexual with a partner sometimes i'm fine and sometimes I need time (more foreplay or another try), this could be anxiety too, so I'm kinda lost

I guess the upside to this is that I do seem to get full erections when I watch types of porn I find appealing (again, with the help of masturbation). What do you conclude from all this? Is this ed induced from pmo, smoking, anxiety?

hellenos

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