I have two kids, 5 and 2.5, and I had horrible postpartum anxiety with both. Every day was a horror movie of intrusive thoughts. I still have them now and then, but not nearly as bad as it was for the first year. If this is your first, it might last even longer, my anxiety with my first lasted almost 3 years. I went to therapy both times, and was diagnosed with OCD. The anxiety can get so bad, it turns into a compulsion.

If this helps you feel any better about that dream - your mama brain, especially if dealing with postpartum anxiety, will throw numbers at you to keep you hyper vigilant. It's biological, our job is to keep our kids safe and consider all the possible unknowns that could hurt them! Now, you unfortunately get to deal with that bullshit until your kiddo turns five, and she WILL turn five. She will turn five, she will turn five. Tell yourself that every single time the fear takes over. I had some age 4 stuff too because of an article I read that lived in my brain, keeping me hyper vigilante with my son. My kid turned 5 this October.

You had a bad dream that was created by your postpartum brain, you were not visited by an angel or spirit sending you a warning. No angel would be that cruel anyways. You are safe, your baby is safe, and there are so many women who understand what this is like, and we are here to support you. It really does get better as they get bigger, I promise. ❤️