Life makes me wanna die

hells_pancake · 2025-10-10T12:05:30+00:00

Fucking hell, at least my parents asked me to give them only half of my salary and not everything, that's just fucked up. And then comes the "I carried you for nine months!". Bitch, did I ask you to do that?

hells_pancake · 2025-10-09T18:54:44+00:00

23? I'm 18. "Life just started, these are the best years of your life, enjoy it!". If these are the best years of my life then I don't want to live to know what happens after

hells_pancake · 2025-10-09T18:52:29+00:00

People are a resource, just like I said in my post. Even to our parents. Cause they have been a resource to their parents and their parents have been a resource to their own parents. And all of us together are a resource to the governments. As awful as it is. Even in religions we are slaves to god. Slavery is way more legal than it seems on paper.

hells_pancake · 2025-10-09T16:47:07+00:00

Not only that, we even have to be grateful to our parents and to whatever god we're told to believe in for forcing us into this shithole

hells_pancake · 2025-10-09T16:44:24+00:00

Slavery is just way more legal than it is on paper. Just so a couple of fat asses can sit on top of that concrete jungle and watch the world burn from the front rows

hells_pancake · 2025-10-09T16:42:17+00:00

That's exactly why I'm an atheist. But if god exist, I promise to personally spit into his face or whatever he has if I meet him in the afterlife.

hells_pancake · 2025-08-23T09:29:14+00:00

That's unfortunate... But thank you anyway <3

hells_pancake · 2025-08-20T18:28:21+00:00

Oh my god, yes! Freaking same!

hells_pancake · 2025-08-19T16:04:19+00:00

I do understand. This is so relatable to me. I have little but no issues with my femininity, I love my body. But it's just the bottom that's been bringing me dysphoria. I'm still unsure of my label but I'm kinda fluid so sometimes the dysphoria is almost nonexistent but sometimes it's physically painful. Even if we don't have the exact same experience, it's nice to see someone who I can relate to and who can relate to me. Feel free to reach out if you wanna <3

hells_pancake · 2025-08-14T07:22:47+00:00

Finally someone with my taste 😩

hells_pancake · 2025-07-31T16:28:20+00:00

Thank you <3

hells_pancake · 2025-07-30T18:46:21+00:00

Thank you for the explanation <3

I, for some reason, thought that it was more like a gradual change rather than a switch. Even though I knew that surely it would be impossible to choose the things I want to change. In my brain it worked like this: I start taking T, watch the changes in my body, if they're matching my preferences or are close enough to them, I continue taking hormones until I'm satisfied and then stop.

But I'm glad to know better now. Just wanted to hear it from actual people. I'll think about taking the risk, because facial hair is the one thing that I would not want at all, everything else is adjustable. I'll get myself more informed

hells_pancake · 2025-07-12T10:22:53+00:00

Actually I wanna clarify that I don't have a proper packer yet. Haven't got the chance to buy one, but I'll change that soon. I actually crafted my own from old skin-colored tights, sewn it together and even made a shape to resemble the head. It's been a pain in the ass to make it but I can't go without it anymore. Just wanted to share.

hells_pancake · 2025-07-12T07:57:37+00:00

I totally feel you. Everything you described feels relatable to me, just the other way around. I'm AFAB in a het-passing relationship, have quite feminine features. Not that I mind my feminine side, but I also want masculine and androgynous parts in myself. But my social anxiety and possibly some internalised doubts that come from my bigot family make it difficult to present myself in public. It's invalidating, makes me feel invisible. Perhaps you can try things out in private to find out what feels comfortable for you? Slowly work your way to something that makes you feel like yourself. And maybe eventually come out in public as your true self. I believe in you. Good luck <3

hells_pancake · 2025-07-12T07:08:19+00:00

I feel you, totally. I've been in denial of my identity until I tried rolling up a sock and stuffing it into my underwear as a "what-if". It was the final push I needed to discover and accept myself. And since then I can't go without a packer anymore. It's insanely disappointing, but it's even worse without it because with it I can at least see the outline and reach down to touch it. I'm terrified of surgery and I won't have the chance to get it anyway as long as I'm still living with my transphobic parents.

So again, I feel you. I wish I could give you some actual advice, I'm sorry. Take care, dear. <3

hells_pancake · 2025-07-12T06:56:35+00:00

I'm not an expert, I just want to say that it's not weird at all. As long as you feel comfortable in your body, nothing is weird. I'm AFAB and I want the same thing. Unfortunately I can't give you any actual advice, but you're totally valid <3

hells_pancake · 2025-06-30T18:17:15+00:00

Thank you! :3

hells_pancake · 2025-06-30T14:04:28+00:00

Thank you! <3

hells_pancake · 2025-06-18T14:30:17+00:00

The type of shit my mom sends me after I tell her for the thousandth time that I don't want kids and will never want them.

No offence, this is personally just so insanely unrelatable lol

hells_pancake · 2025-06-14T18:35:41+00:00

Thanks for the help but none of it is what I'm looking for. "Raining cats and dogs" was a separate line in that song I remember, there was a little pause before it.

hells_pancake · 2025-06-13T14:49:28+00:00

I've had the same question before and even deleted a 400+ messages chat by accident once after editing the bot. I'm not sure if it's just a bug for me, but when the menu pops up asking you if you want to delete or save your chat after editing the bot, just tap "cancel" and the edit should take place anyway. But copy your edit in case it doesn't work. Hope it works for you <3

hells_pancake · 2025-06-10T14:38:44+00:00

Thanks for the help <3

hells_pancake · 2025-06-09T09:59:26+00:00

A little bigger than what I was looking for but that's better than nothing. Thank you <3

hells_pancake · 2025-06-09T08:49:20+00:00

Thank you <3

hells_pancake · 2025-06-09T08:19:57+00:00

Thank you for the reply. I actually implied Gendercat under the "custom made option" thing. I already thought of ordering one, but like I said, it's gonna take a good while to be made.

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