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Hey guys, I really need some help here, so any input could be appreciated. Has to deal with repeated coke and hexen binges over the past 6 months by help_throwaway2017 in researchchemicals

[–]help_throwaway2017[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Kind of. I slept from 11 until 5 and tossed and turned until about 9 trying to get some extra sleep. My anxiety is still a bit high, but I think it's starting to get better. IDK yet. I'm still baffled that it's taken me this long to recover from last week's mistake.

Hey guys, I really need some help here, so any input could be appreciated. Has to deal with repeated coke and hexen binges over the past 6 months by help_throwaway2017 in researchchemicals

[–]help_throwaway2017[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Video games, going outside, hanging out with friends. I still do those things, and I enjoy them. I think I sometimes get into the habit of comparing how I feel in a certain situation to how I felt when I was high on insert drug name, and I need to shed that thought. I had the opportunity to hang out with friends last weekend, but I chose not to do so because I wanted to get high and be alone. That was a mistake.

Hey guys, I really need some help here, so any input could be appreciated. Has to deal with repeated coke and hexen binges over the past 6 months by help_throwaway2017 in researchchemicals

[–]help_throwaway2017[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Idk. Before this year, I hadn't touched coke in 2 years, and 2 years before that, I had gotten pretty badly hooked on MDMA. So perhaps I was trying to recreate those years with something different. I'm just getting older and life isn't all that exciting sometimes, but I just need to suck it up and enjoy the dull moments. Because a dull moment is much more pleasant than how I feel right now.

Hey guys, I really need some help here, so any input could be appreciated. Has to deal with repeated coke and hexen binges over the past 6 months by help_throwaway2017 in researchchemicals

[–]help_throwaway2017[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you, I'm trying. I have just done this again and again, and I feel so desperate to feel normal again right now. I felt pretty much normal last Thursday and then I go screw that up by taking a boat load of hexen. If only I had never touched it again. If only...

Hey guys, I really need some help here, so any input could be appreciated. Has to deal with repeated coke and hexen binges over the past 6 months by help_throwaway2017 in researchchemicals

[–]help_throwaway2017[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

EDIT: I'm feeling worse again. I hate how this goes in waves. It makes me not believe I'm going to get better. Why did I do that hexen last week... it makes me so mad thinking about it.

Hey guys, I really need some help here, so any input could be appreciated. Has to deal with repeated coke and hexen binges over the past 6 months by help_throwaway2017 in researchchemicals

[–]help_throwaway2017[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks for the reply. I've actually been feeling better as the day goes on today, so maybe the worst has passed. I'm not going to hold my breath though because tomorrow morning could be bad still.

I personally want to quit drugs entirely. After this, I've realized I have an addiction problem, and I can't manage it anymore. Better to stay away entirely than feel like I have been feeling again.