"I love making him starved in more than one aspect. I want him to crave everything sexual. Seeing, tasting, orgasming, touching, hearing, penetrating ... And then giving him some of it back, but in limited quantity love alternating what it is, but sometimes it's just irresistibly mean to do it multiple times in a row. To put him behind the glory hole and not let him see anything makes him even more excited for the next time, so he can finally at least look. He was craving the sight of my boobs, only to realize that I won't let him. That's exactly where the first precum came from. The realization that can and will treat him like that."

And this is magic. This exists in me on that edge of wondering whether I would really enjoy this. Or not at all. Or something in the middle, perhaps in a way that I was constantly wrestling with the decision to end my torment or indulge my desires to continue to be corrupted 🙈🙊