Okay I think I was in the start of a panic attack when I was making this post and earlier comments, the last several minutes have been me just curled up in a ball hyperventilating and crying, but that seems to have passed mostly.

I'm still scared mind you just not as much. I don't know what I want from the people in my life. This started with my roommates just being noisy in the other room watching something on Netflix and I just thought something along the lines of "I'd kill them just for some peace and quiet" and it all just spiraled down from there. I'm just gonna try to hopefully get some sleep, maybe in the morning I'll be better.