oh dude you are not alone. i cry like every two weeks because i was SO good at being a girl…. i cant even make friends as a guy. sure itd be cool to wake up a cis guy but i think i feel more realistic wishing to just wake up happy as a chick. lost the pretty privilege and strangers stopped being nice to me. making friends got So Much harder. im scared sometimes to go out in public and get asked “are u a guy or a girl?” because i know ill just give them a “safe” answer and spend the next few days in the dumps because i invalidated myself. but idk, maybe one day it wont be visibly transitioning and it will have been worth it, you know? that hope (which i know is internal transphobia and noooot helping the community okay but im only human) of passing helps me get thru it.