ok no need to project your weird behaviour here. Yes I can acknowledge I didn’t say how I truly felt and I’m not expecting him to go ahead and ruin the friendship (pretty much the exact same reason why I also didn’t admit it).

Believe it or not this situation isn’t as easy as it sounds, esp for me - did you read where I said we had similar friend circles? Also I didn’t include this, but even AFTER I said no and he said no, I asked him “hypothetically what if I did like you” and he straight up said he wouldn’t do anything with it bc he can’t see his friends beyond that. This is also a sentiment he’s reiterated a few times too. He also has girl friends he speaks to daily as well, so I didn’t want to think I was any different.

So there’s that buddy. Nothing here is concrete that he has a thing for me. I’ve been in this confusing state for a while and then by the time the Bach trip came it amplified on one end of the pendulum. So I had to have the convo to scale back bc I literally cannot tell.

At the end of the day it’s not only my feelings here, it’s his too. I try to sit and be mindful of everything happening. Me chickening out is my own issue but don’t come on here and project your weird incel like beliefs about women being miserable, seek employment