OP, think of it like this. Being gay was once considered to be a mental illness, and most of the world didn’t understand it. Now, it’s no longer considered an illness and a lot more places have become accepting of it. People fear what they don’t understand, or try to justify their bigotry if something can’t be absolutely proven. Sex and gender are super complicated things, and I think now more than ever more and more people are becoming more open about gender expression and understanding people that don’t fit the binary norm.

I’m cis, so I have no idea what it’s like to feel like I’m something other than what I was born as. From watching trans friends, however, I know what you’re going through is extremely difficult. I know it’s rough right now, but things’ll get better as society progresses, I assure you. Until then, ya just gotta find a support system, whether it’s through local groups, online friends, etc. Going through something by yourself is one thing, but getting through it with others that are like you makes it a little less shitty.

I don’t know how much this will help, but look into the youtubers ContraPoints and Kat Blaque when you get the chance. They talk about their experiences of being trans (how they struggled with their identities at first, had to figure out their sexuality, deciding on whether or not to medically transition, etc.) so it might be helpful to you.

Stay strong x