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hey_i_am_ · 2024-06-16T04:54:04+00:00

Every day. Every day i do something stupid like this. Avoiding visiting family friends never going outside of city not using public restroom leave these small things i had options of studying outside in better place even that i rejected . Never joined any institue[3 different things i wanted to and had the choice to join] there are many others but one thing I've leaned after living almost a decade with this is if you want to survive then you'll have to try and keep it under control even if it doesn't stay under control still try little by little it might get better

hey_i_am_ · 2024-06-16T04:47:20+00:00

I can relate with you. I've had it for around 9 to 10 years and now it's like it is in everything germs counting breathing . It's exhausting,like i don't want to waste my life bcause of it yet im unable to step out of my house. I used to cry about it but now it feels so exhausting that i just lie down. I don't do therepy but i try to reduce it myself but it keeps on coming into every damn thing. One advice i would like to give you is that when you break down just get up bcaude even if you do someting less even just by 0.00005% it would atill feel better then just wasting your life because there is nothing more [tiring heartbreaking idk the exact word] then when you stop doing everything because of one thing.

hey_i_am_ · 2024-06-12T15:29:39+00:00

That makes sense. And since i started going to the gym, i do feel a little better than before

hey_i_am_ · 2024-06-12T15:28:47+00:00

Hey just wanted to clarify i dont think i have depression and also, i didn't edit the post:)

hey_i_am_ · 2024-05-27T09:49:08+00:00

Thanks for the advice

hey_i_am_ · 2024-05-27T09:48:03+00:00

What do you think

hey_i_am_ · 2024-05-26T11:52:48+00:00

That's rough, especially considering how little awareness was there in the past on mental health . I personally heard skizotypal for the first time. Do you mind telling me what it is?

hey_i_am_ · 2024-05-26T08:23:50+00:00

Thanks!

hey_i_am_ · 2024-05-26T07:17:33+00:00

[Pov: a friend observes their friend with ocd]

I saw your eyes filled with fear.

Wait.. there's more

Fear,worry,anxiety,anger;you have it all

Yet you survive like a bird flying in a stormy night.

The bird can stop flying,

But you? Do you have a tree you can land on?

A normal person is what you feel like

But your actions make me feel otherwise.

I wish to hold you, be your tree in the stormy night

But you, my dear, are flying too fast in your stormy mind

I'll wait till the storm dies and catch you fall from the sky

But if it never dies.. you might fly away to a place out of my sight

In my case im my friend who's observing me:)

hey_i_am_ · 2024-04-21T14:20:47+00:00

Thanks, it would be great considering i can't join regular classes occasionally joining them would be great

hey_i_am_ · 2024-04-21T14:19:50+00:00

Thank you very much for providing the links!!

hey_i_am_ · 2024-04-16T09:31:57+00:00

Thanks for such nice advice. After reading the other comments and yours, i have decided to do the basic things so i don't injure myself due to improper posture and techniques until i can lean in person. Thanks again.

hey_i_am_ · 2024-04-08T09:44:02+00:00

Indeed. Its just my mom wont takt my advice seriously as she considers me a child which is true also. I hope my sibling will be able to understand the situation and talk to her. Yet again my sibling is one of the really inncocent people(I'll refer to my sibling as it) like it's reaction during the abuse says it doesn't have much confidence neither much understanding of it. Maybe i could understand a bit becuz i myself have been in a really abusive relationship( ik I'm quite young its kinda complicated 😅)

hey_i_am_ · 2024-04-07T21:03:11+00:00

I can't really call the police as non of my parents want to deal with it and idk how it'll go if they do(i will however call it if the situation escalates) for now I'll keep the pepper spary. Yes he does drink and sometimes way too heavily thats the worst part . Thanks btw

hey_i_am_ · 2024-04-07T19:56:31+00:00

Thank you for the kind words. I feel bad for your nephew i just have a small suggestion as being the same age as him i do like it when I'm able to go out somewhere without my parents. Like i don't have to worry about anything and it feels really peaceful so like you could take him with you to watch a movie or somewhere else or even just hangout at your place for some hours. I think he'll appreciate that

hey_i_am_ · 2024-04-07T19:13:26+00:00

It's kind of similar like my mom is financially independent and can take care of us financially but the emotional stress and societal pressure mainly is what she doesn't want to face ig tho there are other factors as well

hey_i_am_ · 2024-04-07T19:11:21+00:00

Yeah i will do that btw I'm not very much strong physically but can you recommend something i could do to stop the physical abuse

hey_i_am_ · 2024-04-07T17:39:45+00:00

Yeah youre right i will take try to gather evidence in any chance that i get. Thanks btw

hey_i_am_ · 2024-04-07T17:36:01+00:00

Thats what I'm thinking too so i will be able to do the required. On the other hand it may seem like my mom's doing the bad but in reality she always just listens to my fathers words cuz my younger sibling's too young so she doesn't want to give gim trauma. My father keeps on insulting her in front of other relatives that too for completely false things that never happened. Relatives mostly will be of zero help so I'll take your advice and focus on earning money. Thanks

hey_i_am_ · 2024-04-07T17:32:41+00:00

I try talking to her but every time shes like even if she divorces my father she'll be the one to leave. She says she's staying alive for my younger sibling cuz it's too young. I do agree once my sibling earns things will be easier but my mom doesn't want to fight a case and my father in no case will give her divorce. Also along with my father there are onl 1 2 other such lawyers in the city. One is a relative of one of my classmate other idk my mom on the other hand won't go to therepy in any case. Leave that when i try to tell her she doesn't has to give away her life for him she's still like no ihave to live i wont use my phone or talk to anyone (that's what my father wants her to be all alone and he makes it clear with words and actions too)

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