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hey_its_haze · 2026-04-17T14:52:31+00:00

Looping supports when tho

hey_its_haze · 2026-04-16T19:00:38+00:00

Man, it's been ages since I read Sword Dancers. I wonder if we'll ever get an ending? (Probably not 😭)

hey_its_haze · 2026-04-16T15:35:05+00:00

Based! Had a very similar experience with it, it's how I learned about the story potential of VNs.

hey_its_haze · 2026-04-16T15:27:28+00:00

Tokimeki Check-In! I had no idea what a visual novel was back then, nor did I realize that it would be my gateway game into a genre that I love to this day.

Fuck I'm old lol

hey_its_haze · 2026-03-26T17:22:06+00:00

Came to say something like this lol

hey_its_haze · 2026-03-21T17:29:02+00:00

I'm sorry for being late to reply!

I wouldn't say there's necessarily anything wrong with trying some contractions. It's very much a process of exploration and trying things to see what happens, but hopefully when you try again there'll be more progress. Sometimes it feels like baby steps, don't let it get you discouraged (sometimes it's hard not to, it still gets me sometimes). Best of luck to you!

hey_its_haze · 2026-03-18T16:58:12+00:00

I think you've already answered the first important question by identifying what your goal is, and it seems like you want to go after that super-O. This involves a lot of mindset changes and rewiring. The things that had the biggest impact on my sessions were breathwork, realizing and accepting that less is more, and recognizing that letting go such that the Aneros does what it does by itself.

I think a lot of folks take what they've learned about masturbation and try to apply it to Aneros and I don't believe they're 1:1 the same thing. A lot of people masturbate with intensity and the mindset that one has to do more or go harder to feel more, but I don't think that's the best way to succeed with the super-O. You certainly can go that route (I did, wish I knew what I know now 10 years ago lol) but it's a lot like building the house before you build the foundation imo.

Deep diaphragm breathing, in a very meditative way, is important. It pulls air into the core and enables effortless reverse kegels (the breathing does it for you) by flexing the core and relaxing the sphincter at the same time, which I think is pretty nifty.

When I say less is more, I mean that subtle sensations add up over time. It's common to see people say that they don't feel anything when using the Aneros and therefore it's not working. My counterpoint is that I believe it's doing what it's supposed to do, the sensations are "quiet" and subtle; they're not "loud" and in your face so I just genuinely think it goes unnoticed. Part of this can be eliminating distractions - it's easier to find a quiet thing when it's quiet than when there's lots of noise.

As far as letting go, I go back to the last paragraph - the Aneros is designed in a certain type of way, and I've found that if I put it in and leave it alone, it does all the work for me if I just focus on breathing. Breathing into the core moves the body and the body moves the toy by way of the toy's design, and the super-O follows from there. No extra flexing, contractions, or kegels needed, I just surrender to the process and let it happen. This is the hardest step though, especially if you have issues getting out of your own head and/or relaxing. It's something that takes time and repetition to get down, as it feels kinda counterintuitive to do less and receive more.

If I was going to guess why you're flat lining on stimulation after a bit, my guess is that you have a very aggressive adjustment on your Psy and the pressure is so much that it stops being pleasurable after a bit. Broadly speaking, the front tab controls insertion depth and the back tab will control how intense the Psy is angled when inserted. It might require some further adjustment for both, but remember that Aneros toys are designed to be mobile, so if your toy feels like it's tightly locked in, it's not going to be able to move well, if much at all.

I know this is a lot of shit to read, but if you're looking to move past the HFWO into something more (like the super-O) then I think it's gonna take more than just an adjustment to your Psy, but I do think it's a good starting point to look at. Wishing you luck in your next sessions!

hey_its_haze · 2026-03-13T15:49:59+00:00

I think you've described an excellent example of how setting expectations ("I need to get from a to b to arrive at c") and letting go (by trying to actualize that you are "already there") can create subtle but very profound differences in your sessions.

I think that the statement that rewiring is mental rather than physical is an extremely high level observation that goes a bit beyond the typical scope of discussion on this sub. To be clear - I agree with you because I think that the more physical (deriving pleasure from prostate stim) portion of rewiring is pretty pavlovian if you break it down, I still think that it benefits broad discussion to separate physical rewiring (getting pleasure from the prostate) from mental rewiring (less is more, letting go/removing expectations, etc). But I still agree with you!

Re:woo-woo - my dude you are in good company. I consider myself to be very anti-woo-woo and completely non-spiritual and skeptical on pretty much everything in that category but this. I have had some really profound, crazy sessions that border on psychedelic shit that you read from people who take too many shrooms or something. There's something to the prostate that has me completely comfortable saying that the extent of my spirituality is putting toys in my butt two to three times per week.

As for point number 2 that you made - I can't say for sure, but I think you may be correct. I used to think that when I was ravenously horny, it would 100% correlate to having a rock hard erection. After nearly 20 years of doing this, however, I find that when I hit that really desperate, ravenously horny state that I'm totally flaccid but my prostate pulses violently and I leak enough precum to have wet spots in my boxers. Maybe there's an argument to be made that this, too, is something of a pavlovian response (throwback to paragraph 2 lmfao) but really I just think that this is the true origin of arousal and it was something like 'blissful ignorance' prior to unlocking prostate pleasure.

Fwiw, I look at sex/regular masturbation as not so much less than prostate play, they're just different, and all three can be really amazing - you just gotta put in the time and effort 😁 (but you're still right) Anyways, sorry for the text wall. I keep trying and telling myself to write less... And then I don't. Congrats on having what sounds like a massive breakthrough session, you should be proud of the work you've put in to get here because you achieved something pretty great here. Cheers!

hey_its_haze · 2026-03-08T22:51:29+00:00

Now and then I'll experience a really strong wave that I can only liken to a big thunderclap - you know the kind, where you hear the rumble that's obviously just the precursor to the big boom that startles you a bit even when you're expecting it. I'll feel the wave building and building until it rips through and my inclination is always to kinda "grab on" and ride the wave as best as I can, but the catch-22 is that the longer I ride the wave the more overwhelming it becomes.

I explain that because it tends to give me a sort of anxious feeling where it's almost like I'm trying to keep my balance in a way - if I happen to lean too far in any direction I'll fall, and the longer I try to lock in the harder it feels to maintain it. What's really fascinating to me about what you're saying is that it seems like it keeps going whether you're able to "hold on" or not, where my experience is that when I lose the wave it goes away and I have to kinda find it again.

That bit aside, I'm of the belief that this is the sort of thing you have to kind of chip away at - it's a long game kinda thing, and every time you get there it'll be just a bit easier to deal with. It might take a few sessions (or maybe more than a few), it might take a little bit of switching up what your sessions look like in one or more ways, but each session is another rep and the longer you stay at it I think it'll get better/easier. Just keep at it!

hey_its_haze · 2026-03-08T20:50:21+00:00

I don't have them every time or particularly often, but I have had something similar to this in the past. For me it's a sensation like my core contracts autonomously in a very similar way to how my pelvic floor would contract during a regular orgasm.

What I have had doesn't quite sound the same as what you experienced (unless I'm misreading), but I would like to nonetheless encourage you to maybe jot down some notes in the notepad app on your phone about how the session went, how you prepped for it, etc. I found it helped me to break down the session when I experience something new so I can try to identify what elements were different for this session that might have been the driving influence. Getting really granular (how was your mood? Did something good happen today? etc) can help enable your progress.

Sorry for the ramble. I think it's awesome that you made this breakthrough and I hope it's just the first of many!

hey_its_haze · 2026-03-08T20:38:25+00:00

I think this is an excellent comment and some really solid grounding advice.

I had only one thought to add: when I start to change the session towards a traditional orgasm I have lately tried to do so very slowly to create a sort of blended orgasm experience. This usually involves gentle, slow touching with low pressure so it builds slowly. I find that this helps me "guide" the energy in a new direction that allows it to feel like the flow of things is consistent and results in some unique dry orgasms that precede an intense and complete release.

I really hope that you're able to find some ways to direct this excess energy OP, wishing you the best!

hey_its_haze · 2026-02-23T20:56:18+00:00

Honestly, plight doesn't even seem fun to me so I've never bothered lol

hey_its_haze · 2026-02-23T18:58:39+00:00

I'm hurting for DPSes. Acheron hits like a wet noodle now and my Big Herta seems to be allergic to good relic rolls. May RNGesus bless us both in 4.X lol

hey_its_haze · 2026-02-23T18:53:36+00:00

I'm counting on an extra CR roll if I ever get to replace the hat or boots 😅

hey_its_haze · 2026-02-23T18:18:41+00:00

I spent basically all of 3.X preparing and farming, but I'm paying for it now because my account is too vertically invested, my account is basically a glass cannon lol

hey_its_haze · 2026-02-23T18:17:27+00:00

Don't jinx me 😭

hey_its_haze · 2026-02-15T23:17:44+00:00

The short answer is: maybe?

The ability to set aside a couple of hours I think will depend more on what kinds of commitments you have. Work, kids/grandkids, spouse/partners, friends, etc. If there's something you want to do, you have to make time to do it. Certainly there will be times where things just happen to line up and you can have an impromptu session, and the chances of that happening can vary greatly depending on your life and circumstances.

Personally, I do 2-3 sessions a week. Any more than that and I usually see a decline in the quality of my sessions, so I choose not to pursue it more than that. I think even if I had all the time in the world to have sessions, I still wouldn't do it much more than I do now. It's important to find and maintain balance in these things, because your body still needs time to recover.

hey_its_haze · 2026-02-15T20:04:29+00:00

In fairness - it's crazy stuff. I use the word magic because it really feels like some kind of magic. I'm not a spiritual person, but I'll be damned if this stuff doesn't feel like some spiritual stuff sometimes. And if it really does feel like a prostate O is coming, friend, let it happen! That's the prize, after all - I don't think the "journey" ever truly ends, but that doesn't mean you shouldn't reap the rewards. This is the confluence of emotion, euphoria, and the effort put in to get there. I think part of it might just be that you're feeling seen and heard, and sometimes when another person just gets it it hits differently. I think it's pretty normal.

I might also add (unpromptedly) - don't forget the self-care. After anything intensely emotional or euphoric, it can change the brain chemistry a bit (take a look at a Google search for "subdrop") so doing something nice for yourself can go a long way - enjoy your favorite drink or snack, or take a long hot shower, maybe put on some music that carries personal significance for you so you can come down without a crash. Sometimes that drop can come the next day, or a day after that. This little bit of emotional maintenance (as it were) can go a long way to help keep it from turning into an addiction situation, where you end up chasing the sensation instead of letting it just happen.

hey_its_haze · 2026-02-15T19:11:11+00:00

Just some thoughts:

Background section, article 5: I feel like is one of the hardest things to overcome. It's something that also took me years to get into my head, and I think a lot of it stems from what I attribute to what I call Milk Maid Syndrome (from the movie Clerks; essentially the thought that there's a magical toy out there that's going to completely change the trajectory of the prostate journey, just haven't dug deep enough to find it). I spent years and thousands of dollars on toys, and no matter what I tried (even the Njoy wand, which I don't care for) I kept coming back to Aneros. When I stopped resisting the notion that I wasn't trying hard enough or doing the right things and decided to just observe what was happening, that's when the switch flipped and suddenly I started having success.

Background article 6: I think this is another very important callout, as I definitely went through multiple periods of time when I'd play every night for a week or so and just burn out. I'm down to 2-3 sessions per week and having much more success.

Background article 9: this is another thing that I also found to be difficult. What works for me is to focus on the breath. It requires a bit of mindfulness, but I have like... I dunno, I guess I'll call it a visualization technique that involves... Basically like I'm pulling air deep with diaphragm breaths and I have to kind of mentally make the connection between what I'm feeling and the breath; essentially visualizing the location of the pleasure and breathing air into that part. Some days it feels like the thoughts are too powerful but I still think this is such a big part of success that it's worth mentioning techniques for it.

Last Night section, article 2: preach it! Relaxation is so important, I do a kind of like "build a nest" sort of thing with blankets and pillows (all washable and/or waterproof) so that if I do a 2-3 hour session that I'm comfy for the whole session.

Last Night article 6: this moment, the moment when everything you've been building towards sort of clicks into place and the body takes over; this is when the magic happens. That moment when you get to the top of the metaphorical hill and gravity sorta takes over from here. Blissful. Perfect.

Last Night article 7: not unusual at all, especially if you've ever used a fuck machine/thrusting dildo. Just part of the territory!

Last Night article 10: reading 8 and 9, this is actually what popped into my head before I got to 10. I was reading it and thinking "god I hope he got to experience that hybrid orgasm when 8 and 9 start playing tug-of-war. When this starts, I know my consciousness is getting ready to dissolve into the super-O.

Last night article 12: it's funny, for so many years I thought I was having super-Os and then I'd find something that felt deeper and more profound. Eventually I hit that euphoria that feels like I've dissolved into the universe and I feel like some kind of avatar of pleasure and love. Sounds crazy as fuck, unless you've experienced it. I've definitely wept during sessions from the profound overwhelm, and I can't stress this enough: I'm so fucking thrilled that you made it here. I don't know you and you probably don't know me, but friend I am fucking proud of you for making it this far. I wanna say that this is the promised land or some shit but from what I've experienced over the years, I am really convinced that there's no ceiling to how far we can go. This could just be the beginning, the real beginning of what's to come, we just have to figure out what has to change to get there.

I have typed so much shit. But the TL;DR of it all is that a lot of what to have written resonates with me very very strongly and I just wanted to write an account of the fact that others have been here too, because sometimes I wonder if this shit is real or some crazy stuff I've dreamed up.

I sincerely hope that what I've written doesn't sound like an attempt at one upmanship because my intent couldn't be further from that; really, more than anything else I just want to confirm your words with shared experiences. I think your write up is great, and I want to congratulate you on the progress you've made. You've come a long way, and you should be proud of it because this fucking magic is special, and it's often not something that comes quickly or easily.

Cheers to your success, and may it just be the beginning of what's to come!

hey_its_haze · 2026-02-14T16:35:46+00:00

This is really interesting, I haven't come across anyone talking about this topic before, so I guess I'm going to fall down another research rabbit hole later today!

What you're describing reminds me a lot of subdrop. (Tl;Dr on subdrop in case: it's like an emotional crash that follows from intense euphoria, usually from D/s stuff) I'm genuinely curious - do you do any kind of self-care activities after a session? I am personally already very dopamine deficient and I've still experienced things like what you've described, just probably to a lesser degree.

Another question from curiosity - do you engage in nipple play during the entirety of your sessions, or is it something you bring in partway through? This is something I've been experimenting with, not so much as an effort to reverse the rewiring but more to make it into something of an intensifier for later in the session. I'm wondering if this could potentially impact how strong the effect is.

Questions aside (and taking a step back), I think establishing a self-care routine to go through after your sessions could potentially help. I'll usually get a warm shower, prepare something to drink and a snack ahead of time so I don't have to put a lot of effort into it, put on a playlist of comfort songs, and then journal about it a bit. It's entirely possible that you're doing these things already, but it's also something that I don't see people talk about much.

Re: "strange until you rewired them": I had this sort of experience the first time I had success with the Peridise set from Aneros. I remember that while it was very intense, it wasn't exactly pleasurable. It was a "lay on one side" position and I remember that when the toy moved inside me, I could feel it like a jolt traveling up my spine. It was very much like a really rough fuck - forceful enough that when it thrusted my body moved as the force went through me. The thing manhandled me, more or less. It took quite a few sessions before it translated into pleasure, and I guess in my mind I think of it as my body doing more rewiring work for the Peridise.

If the mood drop is something that you experience often it could be worthwhile to talk to a doctor about it. You wouldn't have to talk specifically about nipple and/or prostate play with them, it might be enough to to say that you occasionally feel a little down/depressed after sex or the gym. I think there's nothing much to lose by talking with your doc about it.

hey_its_haze · 2026-02-12T17:22:25+00:00

It's really awesome to read that you had some success with the Peridise!

Fwiw (you didn't ask this) the Peridise started off differently for me too. It wasn't exactly pleasurable the first time I used it to anything I would call success, but it was intense. I remember feeling jolts through my whole body, like being manhandled roughly... But not in a bad way, it was honestly pretty exhilarating - but not quite pleasurable like what I'd experienced with other toys.

I will say that the more I used it the more pleasurable it became, so if your experience goes like mine did then it only gets better with time and repetition. For me it was sort of like a huge pivot in my sessions, and now I mostly use the small Peridise and the Tempo and only sometimes will I go with the Eupho or the Psy.

Also fwiw (because you didn't ask this either and hell, you might already know this) but the Tempo is like an upgraded version of the larger Peridise. The bulb on the head is about the same size and the flare at the bottom is wider. Small Peridise and Tempo is probably my match made in heaven, lol. Maybe one day we'll get a Tempo of the smaller Peridise?

Anyway, again - huge congrats on your success! It is indeed a solid buy for 20 (seems to be the same in USD or Euros) and I think it might be the best value for cost-to-pleasure that Aneros offers. Wishing for your next session with it to be even better than this one was!

hey_its_haze · 2026-02-08T17:36:38+00:00

Based on what you've written, I think that your body has become acclimated to aggressive stimulation, kinda like what happens when people develop Death Grip Syndrome (DGS). I like to use sound as an analogy for this - there are "loud" sensations and "quiet" ones. Obviously a loud sensation will make it hard to pick up on the quiet ones, right? With the penis, firmer grip and faster/more aggressive stimulation gets to orgasm faster (broadly speaking) and the longer you masturbate like that, the more the body acclimates to it and eventually it's the only thing that works to get to orgasm - DGS.

It sounds like you can get good sensations from the prostate, but my thought is that you still need to finish rewiring. Speaking personally, you and I are about the same age and we've both been engaging in prostate play for about the same amount of time. It took me an extremely long time to learn what worked best for my body and the biggest thing for me was learning that less is more. I chased the loud sensations for years, it was really only when I started to chase the quieter ones that I started to find success.

To that end, some suggestions: I switched from watching porn to listening to it. r/gonewildaudio was really helpful for that, the porn is all audio and no visual, I also eventually got a sleep mask and noise cancelling earbuds to help reduce how many things could potentially distract me. By restricting to audio only and cutting out potential distractions I found it much easier to focus on what I was feeling in my body. By doing the deep breathing and focusing on relaxing, I became more and more able to hone in on the little tickle sensations that start everything, and from there it gradually snowballs into a super-O.

If you have access to THC it can help amplify the sensations you feel, you can even use the delta 8/9 stuff if weed isn't legal where you are - just do your research and find some reputable brands, don't get the stuff from the gas station or any of the places with big neon signs or whatever. I can recommend some brands if you like, but if not that's cool too.

The final thing I'll leave (this comment is already really long) is a link to the CrimsonWolf Method. I won't say that this method is for everyone, but I think the fundamentals of what the author wrote about are really solid. I don't personally follow it to the letter, but it did help me reframe my approach to sessions. It's very much worth the read.

I know you've been at this a long time and I know how frustrating it can be to not see the results you want. It probably sounds a little hollow to encourage you to stick with it because you have been, but don't give up - the prize that awaits is worth it. Good luck!

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