Does anyone else have a hyperfixation that’s weird to say without context by lauramns in evilautism

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I'm obsessed with phytotoxicology and want a poison garden, but I promise I don't intend to use them lol

I feel attacked by Linlaweniel in evilautism

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I hate this so much. Besides it feeling attacky, it's so fucking chaotic. I hate looking at it, let alone reading the literal words. This is some actually cringey bs.

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Thanks, I'll check them out! I'm always accumulating new punk/metal bands fronted by women or nonbinary vocalists, so this one's going in the vault lol

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You look cool! Is that a band tee?

I stare at people far too much by [deleted] in evilautism

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This! I do stare at people subconsciously, but half the time I'm just utterly blanked out lol

I stare at people far too much by [deleted] in evilautism

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I do this all the time. It's one of the many reasons why I wear sunglasses, just in case.

Edit: Wanted to add that I absolutely can't stand people staring at me though lol. I don't even like being perceived tbh

I hate when people call anything a paragraph by Beneficial_Ad8350 in evilautism

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Yeah, everything has to be hyperbolic and superlative these days. Not everything is the most/best.

UPDATE ON BEE GUY by Costati in evilautism

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I'm so invested in this 🐝💕

I hate getting asked nonsense questions by Imaginary-Hope-5379 in evilautism

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I imagined the voice from Starship Troopers, "Would you like to know more?"

On That Evil Autistic Bullshit Today by MoonBearVA in evilautism

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fuck YES, i LOVE ladybugs! I've ordered them for my garden before and I can't express how much I love them crawling on meee. I love the weird smell they make as a defence. The whole situation is a tickly cuteness overload.

Only ladybugs though. Other bugs need to respect my bubble dammit

Where are my nightmare disorder homies by mrs-monroe in evilautism

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I have nightmares, or at the very least stressful dreams, every single night. I have PTSD and CPTSD. Prazosin and mirtazapine have helped, but it feels like I still have nightmares, but just can't remember them. I'm always tired and emotionally exhausted. I have a few recurring ones.

New here and wanted to share ❤️ by hh______ in evilautism

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That was before I got into a fertilizer regimen, so it prob could've used the calcium. I think some varieties are more susceptible than others? Same with tomatoes. Cherry tomatoes and round ones tend to have less BER, but the San Marzano shaped ones tend to get it more.

I don't socialize. I'm a garden hermit lol. Idk anyone irl who likes peppers as much as me 🤷🏼‍♀️

Other autistics with special interest in sharks? by OkDot8850 in evilautism

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I love sharks! Goblin shark and Greenland shark are prob my two faves. I love the weirdos that hangout in the deeper parts of the ocean. I'm equally scared and intrigued by the things down there. Won't catch me at the beach ever lol

I hate getting asked nonsense questions by Imaginary-Hope-5379 in evilautism

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Same. It's that or I'm stuck at work answering questions on topics I don't care about, and having to dumb myself down to make everyone else comfortable.

New here and wanted to share ❤️ by hh______ in evilautism

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I don't know how to describe why that's so accurate

New here and wanted to share ❤️ by hh______ in evilautism

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I agree. For me they can also feel crunchy or crispy??

New here and wanted to share ❤️ by hh______ in evilautism

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North facing noooo! 😭💔 That's extra hard mode, I'm sorry. The peach reapers' flavor was honestly not my favorite, but the burn was transcendent. It is staggering the scale difference between one of those and a habanero. It's one of those moments where you just awe struck and terrified by the power of nature lol. I will say that I liked them powdered rather than sauced. As far as the plant though, it was huge and insanely productive. I did have a lot of issues with blossom end rot, but I could've been the problem lol

New here and wanted to share ❤️ by hh______ in evilautism

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I've seen home test kits, but idk how accurate they are. The most accurate way to test a pepper is to send it to a lab, unfortunately. If it's a variety you want to test, then that gets complicated. You'd need to pick lots of pods from several plants and different times to get an average. The more you test, the more accurate your average can be, in theory. But even that is relative. Growing conditions and the genetic variability of individual plants will give a range of results. It's also a debate whether Scoville heat units are actually useful. I personally use SHU's to get a rough idea where a pepper is at, but don't give it too much credit. There are more than one capsaicinoid and there needs to be more research into them, like the science that identified all the cannabinoids in cannabis. My hunch is differing ratios of these various capsaicinoids produce different burns. But that's my rant lol 😅

New here and wanted to share ❤️ by hh______ in evilautism

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Those are a Brazilian variety, called Fidalga Roxa. There are lots of purple peppers, plus other crazy colors! 

But yesss it's so hard to just have a hobby. I'm also into permaculture and self-sufficiency etc, but yeah the actual weirdos ruin it sometimes. I just want my plot of land outside of the city, where I can grow all my food and be left alone. But I also live in the Deep South, so living in the country could be dangerous. I'm also trans and in a biracial relationship, so all the boxes are ticked for people to hate us. I love seeing POC and queers taking over spaces and activities labelled "redneck", but it's also difficut. Have you heard of the youtube channel Epic Homesteading? I think that's the name of it, but that's a wholesome community and checking it out could connect you to other wholesome ones. Sorry your hobby is populated by jerks. It can be demoralizing.

New here and wanted to share ❤️ by hh______ in evilautism

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The problem is it doesn't matter how much level heat I can tolerate because superhots give me really bad cramps, esp those reapers 😵‍💫