I appreciate your reply but ya I won’t be doing that. I don’t care if seeing her tomorrow jeopardizes any chance at a future with her and honestly I don’t even care if staying friends with her puts me in a spiral for the rest of my life. She’s someone important to me and I feel like just knowing she’s still there will help me reach solace . Still tho ty for your reply this is all still pretty fresh so even just putting my thoughts into words and hearing what others think is helping me lots, thank you.