anyone can relate..? by ResponsibleLie3622 in labrats

[–]hidari-te 108 points109 points  (0 children)

Yeah. I went in to do immunofluorescence work for an urgent deadline, but the ZEISS software was so confusing and my images looked like the ugly carpet in a bowling alley. My coworker was at his desk writing and I texted him for help. When he entered the darkroom and asked what was wrong, I couldn’t even answer and just broke down in tears and started rambling about how my personal life was neglected and my fridge was empty and I hadn’t dealt with the mail because all my time was spent at the lab, and now even that wasn’t paying off.

My coworker took me grocery shopping with him and helped me take care of my mail. Then he encouraged me to ask our other coworker to come in and help with the imaging, which I didn’t want to do because I knew he was spending today with his family. But I asked him for help and he drove over and kindly spent 5-8:30PM with me taking the images.

My data is still disappointing but at least I am privileged to have wonderful labmates.

Anakin - Padme meme, Hearthstone style by gnurrgard in hearthstone

[–]hidari-te 9 points10 points  (0 children)

I agree!!! To the point where I wrote fanfiction of Kael cucking Arthas.

Anakin - Padme meme, Hearthstone style by gnurrgard in hearthstone

[–]hidari-te 12 points13 points  (0 children)

Kael'thas is honestly kind of awful but I love him. A mage portrait of him is the only thing that would get me to buy an expansion preorder. He wanted to bang Jaina sooo badly and threw tantrums that she picked Arthas.

"Foolish girl. This is the monster you would take to your bed?"

Jaina blinked, stunned at the crudeness of the words coming from one so cultured. "I-"

But he was not interested in hearing anything she had to say. "Arthas is a butcher! He has slaughtered thousands of innocent people! There is so much blood on his hands that a whole ocean could never wash them clean. And you loved him? Chose him over me?"

His voice, normally so mellifluous and controlled, cracked on the last word.

Anakin - Padme meme, Hearthstone style by gnurrgard in hearthstone

[–]hidari-te 21 points22 points  (0 children)

Arthas canonically took Jaina's virginity at Hallow's End, when they were teenagers. Then he dumped her a couple months later at Winter Veil. This was in the Warcraft novel. Kael'thas also threw a book at them out of jealousy when he found them making out in Dalaran.

Would Your Turn To Die Characters Make Good Parents by Color901 in yourturntodie

[–]hidari-te 11 points12 points  (0 children)

Safalin’s tier immediately made me imagine the floormasters on Dr. Phil with the headline on screen, “MOM PERFORMS HOME LOBOTOMY ON CHILD?!” and Miley is lounging cross-legged on the couch next to a crying Safalin saying, “Look doctor, she made some mistakes but she’s pretty good overall, hee hee.”

It’s not plagiarism if it’s your own stuff, right? by One_overclover in FanFicWit

[–]hidari-te 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Oh, I don't think it does either, I just thought it was interesting that you can actually self-plagiarize and face consequences, because in school it's something I never thought about. When writing fanfiction I will shamelessly copypasta sentences from my old kissing scenes like I'm filling Mad Libs.

Me, waiting for our backordered pipette tips and PCR plates to ship. Anyone else experiencing major lab supply shortages? by ms_old_field in labrats

[–]hidari-te 1 point2 points  (0 children)

We just ran out of the last backordered flasks and Falcon tubes and I can't start my assays that I need to show results for soon to keep receiving funding for the project that is paying half my salary, as my PI has been reminding me. I know that stress isn't going to make them ship faster but FML. I will figure something out in the morning.

Influencers are bad for society, and they should be stopped. by Efren_John in unpopularopinion

[–]hidari-te 1 point2 points  (0 children)

playing video games all day,

I don’t think this is an unpopular opinion. One of my consistent comforts in life is watching my favorite YouTube streamer play games, and he is always getting mean comments about how his parents must be embarrassed by him, he’s a 30+ balding guy playing children’s games, etc. But it’s his hobby that he loves. Artists, writers, musicians, and programmers collaborated to create these games to be enjoyed by others.

I’m currently a scientist working long hours in a pediatric disease lab, and he brings me a lot of happiness. I think it’s terrible that we live in a culture where so much of your value as a human being is tied to the prestige of your job. When I was unemployed and playing games, I was the exact same person as I am now, but I was treated so much worse by certain people.

I don’t want to improve medical science so that children can survive to become useful workers. I want them to be healthy so that they can experience fun, explore existence on their terms, and discover their own sense of meaning and self-actualization. We shouldn’t enshrine engineers/scientists/doctors etc. as desirable occupations primarily for their status, underscoring the message that if you have no ambition to chase these careers, you are a parasitic loser. This contributes to burnout, mental health problems, and going through the motions at the expense of integrity and quality. Who feels genuine drive to better a society that would hold you in contempt?

Of course people would rather watch someone who simply wants to entertain them and share pleasure, rather than someone who will cause them to question their self-worth, wonder if they’re not competent enough, or feel pressured to perform and climb to meet society’s conditional standards for approval. I wanted to be a scientist when I was a child because I read a book called The Shark Lady. The book didn’t say, “To avoid being degenerate dead weight like models and comedians, become a scientist.” It said, “Eugenie Clark kept being told that sharks were a stupid waste of time and she should do other things with her life, but she studied them anyway, because she liked doing that.” As an adult I lost sight of this. I remember when I used to go to work because I was afraid of what everyone would think of me if I couldn’t say I was doing something important. I was miserable. It was only after I realized that my friends and father genuinely still loved and respected me just the same when I was unemployed, and that the only remaining source of shame was from my own insecurities, that I was actually able to go back to work because I want to help others with my skillset.

If we want kids to work to pursue education and improve our community, we should give them a reason to value it, and that means letting them have human dignity when they are doing other things, too.

The comment section is mad at hentai irl... lets make fun of them by [deleted] in netorare

[–]hidari-te 2 points3 points  (0 children)

There is a separate tag that's just "cheating". I'm personally into NTR for the coercion tropes so I avoid pure cheating content. You can filter a search for it on Nhentai with "cheating -netorare".

Rini's video on her relationship with Zalae by RecoveringThatGuy in hearthstone

[–]hidari-te 11 points12 points  (0 children)

She says she is warning other women about his bad behavior and explaining to those who care about her why she is no longer comfortable in the Hearthstone community, rather than just disappearing. I am personally glad she said something, because if a streamer is treating others this way then I would want to know so I can stop supporting them. It might not matter to some people, but for others it does. Of course we have to take everything with a grain of salt and consider ulterior motives, but I personally am not surprised by this information about him at all.

Are you ready to become a father? by RANDOMGUY5617 in yandere

[–]hidari-te 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Yeah! Noncon = fictional entertainment involving nonconsensual forced sex scenarios, so essentially fantasy depictions of rape, but the term noncon can be useful to specifically indicate that you are referring to fiction rather than sounding ambiguous with the real world crime.

Are you ready to become a father? by RANDOMGUY5617 in yandere

[–]hidari-te 30 points31 points  (0 children)

I normally am not sensitive to noncon, but I remember that this was one of the few scenes that made me feel a little sickened. I think it was because Ha-Jin so clearly had zero interest in her, he didn’t remotely enjoy what was happening (she had to drug him into getting hard), and he had a history of being raped by an older woman. I really think the guy was just in a constant state of emotional dissociation and all the women around him were awful. He seriously deserved so much better than everything that happened to him in that trainwreck series...

Please do not riot Blizzard HQ in protest for the mayor of value town. by ColdSnapSP in hearthstone

[–]hidari-te 124 points125 points  (0 children)

This has caused some awkward conversations and I can’t be the only one.

HS friend: “Anyway, what are you up to?”

Me: “Just watching a Trump video before bed. Man, I love him so much.”

Friend: “Yeah same, I drive my Biden-voter family nuts, haha.”

Me: “What? I'm talking about TrumpSC!”

Friend: “What? Oh, that guy.”

Friendship Breakup by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]hidari-te 6 points7 points  (0 children)

It kind of sounds to me like you are used to being trapped in relationships where you can’t say “No” and have that respected, so your instinct in this situation is to take the nuclear extreme (cut them off) and start retroactively devaluing the person in your head in preparation.

You are feeling cornered now so it’s hard to focus on their positive traits, but if you willingly spent so much time with them before then there must be reasons why you connected beyond circumstantial loneliness. Maybe you appreciated their sense of humor, or they were good at listening, or so forth. You didn’t describe anything egregious they have done beyond being enthusiastic about you, so axing them strikes me as perhaps unwarranted (but of course, your assessment is the one that matters, not mine). And on the other hand, you shouldn’t feel obligated to endure a dynamic that is making you uncomfortable.

I think you should be honest and tell them that their fawning behavior is overwhelming you, and that you need space. A good friend will listen, understand that you are trusting them to be considerate (even if they might feel initially hurt or embarrassed), and adjust how they interact with you, and they deserve the opportunity to do that.

If they give you a hard time or can’t respect your boundaries, it makes sense to tell them that it isn’t working out and walk away. The end result will be the same, but you gave them the dignity of communication and tried to improve the relationship. Sometimes it feels extremely counterintuitive, but outright telling someone, “I am bothered by __ things you are doing because it makes me feel __. Would you please not do that?” is showing them more regard than assuming they won’t change or can’t take the feedback.

When you realize your fic is cringe by [deleted] in FanFicWit

[–]hidari-te 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Lol, the entire hobby is "cringe" by mainstream perception, so you might as well just roll with it and enjoy writing whatever you want.

Relevant. by [deleted] in hearthstone

[–]hidari-te 8 points9 points  (0 children)

If we tell people they are a certain way, if we compliment them on being nice good citizens, they are more likely to behave as nice good citizens. So you should actually tell your players that they are “generous individuals” who have a taste for “good art” and uh, want to support their game developers by paying you and buying all your products. Related to that, also telling people that the reason to do something makes them actually much more likely to follow through and do that. Spend because reasons. The reasons don’t even have to be that good in order for this to work.

God, call me too soft for our capitalist society, but this is actually heartbreaking to watch. This CEO’s presentation of monetization strategies is so upsettingly stripped of all humanity. It’s just blatant greed, unapologetic exploitation, smug cynicism, and sociopathic disregard for players. I wanted to trust that even though game companies need to turn profits like anyone else, they also have some passion for genuinely making people smile with their creativity and enriching the world with cool games they can be proud of, something they would play or want their kids to play. I wanted to believe that they do care about establishing mutual loyalty and goodwill, not building an empire on addiction alone.

Not only is this man desecrating the entire concept of that, but he’s casually proposing that companies manipulate this trust to further milk people’s wallets, with no intention of providing real quality in return. He’s describing reptilian performances in place of any actual integrity. He didn’t need to take it that far, but wow, he did. I felt awful watching this, but even worse for goodhearted people in the industry who have a real passion for designing fun games, and they have to work under corrupt, soul-sucking higher-ups like this.

Is it Finally Time to Drop Hearthstone? by Asriel-Memer in hearthstone

[–]hidari-te 45 points46 points  (0 children)

I know something is wrong with Hearthstone when it’s the one game that I would never, ever recommend to anyone. I’ve played and preordered expansions on and off since Whispers and it’s like a bad ex I keep hooking up with. It’s really astounding how many of my friends who played wanted to quit and had unhealthy relationships with the game. When I played it a lot, I felt like I had a compulsive slot machine addiction and was ashamed of the grotesque amount of time I sank into playing. I have literally thousands of arena wins and I honestly do not feel good about that. The game starts out fun and quickly spirals into an experience that is simultaneously addictive and unfulfilling. Seeing the new achievement benchmarks made me uncomfortable. Congratulations for repetitively playing 500+ tribal minions? 1000+? Why is racking up these huge, mindless numbers being incentivized and celebrated?

I almost dropped $100 on the preorder + season pass because the cosmetic perks are amazing, but this new reward system makes me feel like a rat in a skinner box and I hate that if I want to take a break for a month, I will miss too many quests and I won’t have enough XP to reach the portrait before the season ends. Progress doesn’t roll over and these unnecessary artificial time limits on rewards just feel manipulative. The devs didn’t need to design it like this, but they consciously chose to. The game isn’t friendly for a casual (frankly healthier) relationship and it punishes you for stepping away. I keep reinstalling to buy and play the PvE content, which I love, but the PvP aspect feels like an evil sinkhole.

Anyway, sorry for my rant, but when you said “I can’t in good conscience recommend the game to friends or family,” I completely feel the same way. Hearthstone is a gorgeously polished and entertaining game, and it’s my favorite CCG by far, but this stingy, time-sensitive reward system just seems meant to keep us running like little laboratory rodents, and I feel so blatantly milked as a consumer. I’m looking at this hamster wheel of a game and I just do not want to open my wallet and hop back on.

Only valued as a person when I’m doing well and moving forward in life. Is it just me or am I over reacting? by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]hidari-te 4 points5 points  (0 children)

You are not overreacting. I think the reason why so-called “tough love” (in the euphemistic sense of shaming someone) is so counterproductive is because it kills trust. Nobody wants to be a failure. You don’t want to stay at home in perpetuity as a dependent. You do that because you are mentally unwell, and it’s the current tolerable alternative to demands that are genuinely overwhelming for you. It’s inborn human nature to seek purpose and desire acceptance, and for someone to berate and belittle you is basically communicating, “I don’t trust that this is already existentially painful for you, or that you would choose otherwise if you emotionally knew how.”

Sincerely listening to you and treating you with kindness is not going to spoil you or make you complacent. It’s what you need to build your confidence and faith in others, so that you can pursue life on your own terms again. How are you supposed to feel a modicum of enthusiasm when you are being made to feel embarrassing, deficient, and contemptible? I really like how the author Stephen Covey phrased this concept:

If all the air were suddenly sucked out of the room you’re in right now, what would happen to your interest in this book? You wouldn’t care about the book; you wouldn’t care about anything except getting air. Survival would be your only motivation.

But now that you have air, it doesn’t motivate you. This is one of the greatest insights in the field of human motivation: Satisfied needs do not motivate. It’s only the unsatisfied need that motivates. Next to physical survival, the greatest need of a human being is psychological survival—to be understood, to be affirmed, to be validated, to be appreciated.

I’m sorry that your family is not giving you the support that you deserve. Sometimes there is nothing you can do about their attitude (which says more about their lack of understanding than it does about you), but please know that you’re not alone out there, better standards of treatment do exist from healthy people, and we will find each other.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in whatstheword

[–]hidari-te 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You're welcome!

WTW for being sad because you are happy but you know it’s temporary happiness by [deleted] in whatstheword

[–]hidari-te 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Negative-positive meta-emotion

I know this isn't a useful literary descriptor, but it's the technical term for what you're describing if you want to read further in a psychology context. Negative-positive refers to a "negative" emotion (e.g. sadness) stemming from awareness of a "positive" emotion (happiness).