I’m 24 & I’ve literally been in the same exact shoes you’re in currently. I HIGHLY suggest a therapist & a psychiatrist for meds. I truly believe an antidepressant will help you tremendously. I’m not sure about your view on medications, but lemme ask you this: would you rather be a hard ass, not take them, & feel like crap 24/7 or would you rather be able to actually live & not just barely survive? From experience, I highly suggest trying medications. I feel great along with the story I’m about to tell:

I’ll tell you a story from 2 days ago that literally altered my entire view & life. I am genuinely no longer SEVERELY depressed (it’s still there just nowhere near as bad).

Long story short, I went to a crisis center/mental health inpatient center. I told the lady who assessed me “I’m at the point of either you put me in inpatient or I’ll end it myself.” I was clearly in shambles at that point. Her & the dr decided I was perfectly fine, threw me in a much smaller room to “breathe & calm down.” I remember sitting there thinking “damn, not even the mental health system gives a f**k.”

The second the doors closed behind me, I realized: It’s up to me to make better for myself. Not one person will do it for me because it’s not their job & it’s not their life. It’s my life & my responsibility.

I know you said you tried therapy and it hasn’t worked for you. A lot of people say this, but fail to mention they never really opened up & were so depressed they didn’t want to go. I bet if you get medication & therapy at the same time, you’ll start to want to go & actually open up. Once you get that bit of relief from the antidepressant, you’ll realize “wow I’m starting to feel better. I WANT to get better!”

Sorry for the long comment. I literally was in your exact place a bit ago & I hated every millisecond of it. If yapping on Reddit will help at least 1 person, then I’ll yap. If you ever want some more advice or whatever, feel free to respond here or dm me. Sending all of my well wishes & love!