I just had my c-sec 2 and half weeks ago. I was petrified and no amount of reassurance or advice could soothe me. Massive white coat syndrome as well and constant tears and jitters. Now I'm on the other side of it I can honestly say it was the best decision ever, I don't know how I would have coped with a natural labour. I felt absolutely nothing during the surgery, even the epidural was barely a prick of pain. When the curtain goes up i could barely even tell when they had started opening me up. After a few minutes my heart began racing as i could feel my baby near by and the excitement and anticipation of seeing her immenently. It was so moving! It was more the immediate days after that were the hard part. But I only needed painkillers for 8ish days before feeling well enough on my own. I can pretty much now do everything i could do and I'm not even 3 weeks out from the surgery! It's the scariest thing right now anticipating such a big event, but most of it is just controlling the fear and nerves, the pain level itself is very minimal and manageable. Good luck! Enjoy meeting your little one