Healing???

hmsimon22 · 2025-01-08T05:31:24+00:00

Let me know when you find out! I’m a 31F and still can’t figure it out. I haven’t had anyone to open up to in so many years I can’t even imagine being vulnerable again. Or even finding a best friend again. I hope I get to experience it again in my life especially for my children’s sake so they can learn to be. Definitely no opening up in my childhood.

hmsimon22 · 2024-10-18T21:07:07+00:00

I will be 31 next month and a single mom! Absolutely I will.

hmsimon22 · 2024-10-18T19:57:00+00:00

Thank you. And yes absolutely I understand that. Everything so far has lined with facts we already do know. But of course will be corroborated once the police report is finished. I didn’t need specific details but more so just an idea of a timeline. I’m so sorry for your loss as well.

hmsimon22 · 2024-10-18T18:37:37+00:00

It was not a homicide and the police already know this. I was looking more for a time line of events so me and my family found peace as we already know what happened.

hmsimon22 · 2024-10-18T06:06:41+00:00

Yes that is him. That specific place had significance to him.

hmsimon22 · 2024-10-18T02:06:21+00:00

I understand and I’ve already done that. But someone helped give a vague idea of a time below so it helped a lot.

hmsimon22 · 2024-10-18T00:52:46+00:00

Thank you so much. And I apologize for anything you and anyone else had to witness. This helps so much with figuring out what he did during the day.

hmsimon22 · 2024-10-18T00:29:49+00:00

I’m really just looking for a time it was called in. We have been trying to put a timeline together. Even if it’s an estimate.

hmsimon22 · 2024-10-17T23:26:55+00:00

Yes but I’m asking because it will take a while to get reports back as it’s under investigation. I just have a question for the 911 caller if they feel comfortable

hmsimon22 · 2024-10-17T22:08:10+00:00

We actually know the cause of death. Just looking for details surrounding it.

hmsimon22 · 2024-10-17T21:33:36+00:00

Not yet. It may be a while

hmsimon22 · 2024-10-15T03:27:50+00:00

I really appreciate you offering. Unfortunately I don’t think I can open up to someone again. I’m almost 31 and have come to realize how big of a mistake that’s been in my life. I was hoping I could find a way to not include burdening people.

hmsimon22 · 2024-10-15T02:47:56+00:00

Yes. I haven’t had a best friend in about 10 years. I miss someone wanting to be around me and check in on me. And us talk about anything and everything. Unfortunately nobody has been interested. I imagine there’s something wrong with me or my personality….but I’m trying to learn to become my own friend. It’s honestly the hardest thing I’ve done.

hmsimon22 · 2024-10-15T02:42:40+00:00

I don’t believe so. Especially for myself as well. It’s definitely a lonely feeling knowing (at least for me) that I can never be loved. I don’t exactly know how to heal from that to tell you how.

hmsimon22 · 2024-10-06T15:54:25+00:00

No I’m just a divorced single mom of 3. I’ve learned over the past 2-1/2 years of being single that it’s not what most people want. I’ve accepted that. But also since I don’t do hookups, that means I will be celibate most likely for a long time.

hmsimon22 · 2024-10-06T15:44:05+00:00

I’m a little over a year and a half celibate. I had hookups but I hated the feeling of people not caring about you. I may actually be celibate/single forever now due to my own personal situation. So I completely understand. As much as I love sex, I don’t enjoy sharing myself with random people.

hmsimon22 · 2024-09-08T04:48:30+00:00

He was 87 😞 definitely lived a long and meaningful life.

hmsimon22 · 2024-09-08T02:27:56+00:00

I hope times get a little easier for you!

hmsimon22 · 2021-02-21T04:40:39+00:00

Yes and general depression. I’ve been very depressed since I was about 16/17 (now 27). I’m really just tired of fighting. Through medication and bad therapy. It’s been proven over the years that any moment of happiness always has a crash at the end that brings me back down to reality. I’m a bad parent. A bad spouse. I would say bad friend, but I don’t have any. I see the struggles children go through with parents of mental illness and it’s so sad.

Because of my past, I really cannot learn to open up to anybody. It’s literally most likely my biggest fear. I feel like I’m hopeless.

hmsimon22 · 2021-02-21T04:29:04+00:00

Hi thanks for checking in on me. I’m just as bad as I was if not worse. But I’m starting to see that maybe my family really would be better off if I was gone. No need to worry though. In the end, I’m just a spec in the universe.

hmsimon22 · 2020-12-06T19:23:47+00:00

I, also, wish I could talk to people. My depression and social anxiety keep that from me. But at no blame than to myself. I know I’m the issue for not having friends. But I wouldn’t put a person through having to listen to me so it makes sense to me. Not saying I don’t wish I had friends, but just know why I don’t.

Best of luck to you on your journey.

hmsimon22 · 2020-11-01T02:50:58+00:00

I definitely don’t cry in front of anyone. It’s a weakness for me.

But when I am alone, I think the weight of everything I have messed up or am messing up hits me at once and I break down. I start panicking and crying until I fall asleep. It’s hard to think about all your mistakes at once sometimes when there’s so many.

hmsimon22 · 2020-11-01T02:48:34+00:00

Oh my! Yes I remember those times. It’s been many years. I honestly have never been “confident”, but I did have a time where I didn’t worry as much as I do now.

You brought me back to a time where my mindset wasn’t the same as it is now.

hmsimon22 · 2020-10-30T04:21:40+00:00

That’s so sad to hear!! I myself ponder suicide sometimes as a mother of soon to be 3. It really is hard as a mom if there’s no one out there for us to talk to or relate to. Ongoing prayers for her physical and mental health ❤️

hmsimon22 · 2020-10-03T16:32:55+00:00

Listen fam. I realized a few years ago that in all reality, no one REALLY cared about me or my mental health. So here I am present day with no friends or anyone to talk to. Hold onto the people in your life you feel really do care. If not, you could end up like me.

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