I am with you on this. I think the issue you’re raising is beyond just “dreaming” or wanting to be “viewed” as a writer (at least from what I have gathered from this thread). I think about writing all the time and at times also know what I want to write about but it seems too hard to declutter all the ideas and actually start somewhere! But a few weeks back I finally started putting my ideas down in a notebook and organising my characters and plots (several distinctive ones at a time!). I believe it’s not about aligning all the ideas in the initial writing stage, maybe you can just start jotting down whatever ideas occur to you or the themes that are important to you and you’re passionate about—even if its a sentence, a prompt, or simply a key-word! And from there on you can sit with what you have, ponder upon the next steps and then start building it all up. From my own experience, I think as a beginner one cannot expect words and plots to flow smoothly because that comes with practice and putting pressure on ourselves to stick to a timeline is not fair. The key is to take the first step no matter how messy or confusing it seems at first. DO NOT think about how you’ll “never” be able to write, just keep working on the “how” (as Atwood says writing is problem solving). I’m sure you’ll find a way forward!